funny thing

I went to a play once and I told my dad I was going to see Charlie brown, which he loved as a kid. I told my teacher my dad loved the peanuts. she's like the peanuts? I'm like Charlie brown and the gang.

3 words

we've gotten into this thing _______________ in 3 words. its annoying. ok its fine but it is kind of annoying. if we were in jail what are 3 words you'd say?

laughing gas

I had laughing gas this morning since I was so anxious about the wisdom teeth surgery. everyone said I was going to be fine. my mom said I heard horror stories but I didn't I was just so flipping scared. this was the first tine since I was seriously scared.

bad luck

I've had an unlucky day so far. 1st it was my glove, then my computer i logged into shut off for no reason then my hat disappeared. hmm weird. I've been a good girl. i think its the spirit of Halloween following me.

quinceunera

when i was 15 years old i was telling the house cleaners i was going to have a coming of age soon. they asked if i had my quincenuera yet. i was like, no. I'm Chinese and white not Latina despite me looking like one. in the episode of wizards of Waverly place Alex had a quincenuera. she was very pink and puffy and looked like a princess. i hate looking like a princess. i was a princess for prom and Monday in the thrift store. mostly because I'm a tomboy partially. I love the awesome look of the coming of age thing since I had a sweet 16.

cable knit sweater latte?

i watched a video trashing pumpkin spice latte. the guy said he'd rather drink a cable knit sweater latte. i hope he was joking. who doesn't like pumpkin in the fall? i know i do. who doesn't like pumpkin pie? i LOVE it. i got drowsy once and i was like, "where's my pie?"

pumpkin

I'm in LOVE with pumpkin. i happened to like it. I've tried different stuff that's pumpkin flavored. the person at the register automatically asks what kinda doughnut do you want?

china

when I was 15 I was injured. 6 days later I left the country and went to China. I loved being there. it's so different to America. they cleaned a garment for free, left us snacks, gave us a weather report, walked us to the bathrooms and were generally nice. my mom knew some of us were picky and wouldn't like the snacks and food so she packed us stuff. I liked my new purse. it was super cheap there. we had to use the bathrooms standing up. it as a little weird at first but fun. when I saw the toilets I was like, "OK I'll wait for the hotel." now I can use them if I must. its more sanitary that way. the shopping there is awesome. I got a purse, jewelry and tons of stuff. we could barter for the price. this one guy was like going lower and lower for the price. he saw me and said 3 for 1 yen. it was awesome but not the best. I was injured, on tons of pain killers and I missed my sophomore homecoming. oh well.

national dessert day

today is national dessert day. that's good since I happened to have a brownie for a snack. I don't know any one who knows that today is national dessert day. I like brownies.

friends

I'm not super popular but I'm well known. when I went back for last year I was so well known people could say, "there's Jackie." my best friend wasn't the most popular in HS. she wanted me to become a cheerleader so she could become slightly more popular. apparently I've got a face that could be the recognizable. I'm not saying I don't like it but it is very annoying. my friends were very interesting. many of them want me and Evan (my best friend) to date. he's a sweetie but he's very autistic.

allied softball

I played allied softball. it's played in the gym. its so fun. when I ran to 1st base once I tripped and fell. I made it to first base but I was injured. the coaches from the other team came over to me to make sure I was fine. I was. they said I could've gone to 2nd but I couldn't do it since I tripped. my first season I got hit on the knee during one of the game. I came close but lost. I also remember throwing the bat a lot. I'm not the best in the world but I got better. I had everyone said I should go to the batting cages. I never went ironically. I was better. in the second season my friend got hit during the 1st team by our own member. we had the person who hit her try not throwing the bat. if the ball came too fast I would protect her.

in death series

my favorite series is the "In death series". it's written by none other than JD Robb. sometimes its written by Nora Roberts. I'm trying to read it but I get distracted. I'm very happy about the series since I'm into it. my favorite is "thankless in death". not sure why but I think the guy looks like Matt. not sure why.

muscle spasms

I have had muscle spasms since I was very young. I don't collapse any more but I still seize. it freaks people out. but surprisingly enough the guy behind me at graduation said he'd catch me. my neighbor sad he wasn't sure if I'd collapse. surprisingly people are willing to help but not in the way I'd like them to. once this guy would hang onto my arm and I try getting him off. I was so embarrassed to ask for help that I shut everyone out. I cried I was so embarrassed. now I ask for help. i suffered with them for as long as i can remember. i've learned to control them partially. i can walk with them.

princess

every girl should feel like a princess at least once in their life. yesterday when I found a red velvet dress and walked out of the dressing room I felt like one. I'm not really into the whole "princess" thing. I'm a tomboy. I like the shorts and pants. I wore something I got from a thrift store and it was awesome. someone looked like they'd say, "aw are you and your boyfriend going to homecoming together in that dress?" someone was like I'm glad you found a dress for 4.5 dollars. so am I. Alex was like, "pink and puffy. really pink and puffy" in quincenuera. she doesn't like being a princess.

the brothers grimm

I got into the series back in the spring semester. I decided to get something I can listen to while riding in the dark. not that reading isn't good I can't read without light. they are scary versions of fairy tales, which if you know this blogger I like. I'm always falling asleep to forensic science stuff. like Suga Mama from the proud family when she falls asleep and someone turns the TV off or changes the channel she'll say, "I was watching that."

play aways

I've listened to books on tape but I like playaways better. they are like books on tape but in iPod form. that's much better and more convenient for people who have small children and are at parks or the beach or whatever and they are running around. I like these better so you can listen to them when your running, walking around, whatever. the books I like on playaways are: the brothers Grimm or Romiette and Julio. also this book called missing you from the 1-800- where are you series.

PSA

I love watching degrassi and their PSAs. one comes very close to home since one of my friends had been afraid of sexual assault and came close to suicide. Campbell Saunders and Zoe Rivas are 2 people who had been involved in those very situations. I know they are struggling to cope with what happened and people struggled with the aftermath of what happened. people need to know these are real life situations. I'm glad degrassi did these.

hershey

most of us know the famous chocolate. Hershey. back in the spring my family went to Hershey park and stayed in the Hershey lodge. well I got chocolate lip balm, Twizzlers, conditioner and lotion. I put the lotion in my hair to help it grow a little. I've loved going to Hershey since I was a little kid. unfortunately, we have had to cut back on some things since my parents are both going through a hard time. anyways my 1st roller coaster was at Hershey park. I was always a chicken when it cane to heights so when I went on my 1st roller coaster my mom was like, "that one?" or "that one?" I'm like no the ferinhieght.

yoga

over the summer I found an amazing thing called yoga. I'm not stupid. I've tried yoga before but over the summer I really got into it because my mom can't afford physical therapy for my back. I own yoga pants but I've never done a yoga class before. I love it. my brothers mock me doing things but they don't know I love it. generally on yoga days I'll have a scarf or a sweatshirt, a hoodie whatever in case I get cold during the meditation.

senior year

senior year was fun. I had my name said a lot on the morning announcements, people knew my name and face, my friends were excited for college and people kept putting me thru the third degree. none of that is bad but it got annoying real fast. people kept saying, "oh I heard your name on the morning announcements." I'd usually hear that 2x maybe 3 on the day it was happening. people kept saying my last name wrong and then people knew who it was. than came the questions. my friends kept asking me about my questions about my post HS plans. like a broken record it seemed. it was, "where are you going to school after HS? what are you doing after high school? what do you plan on majoring in? what about after college?" I don't want to say I hated it but it was annoying. certainly, it was annoying. no way am I going to be able to not have my friends and classmates say what they wanted but annoying. I got a Collin creevy to my harry potter. if none of you guys get the reference its someone who looks up to me no matter what. they always say hi whenever they see me. say they are going to miss me when I leave. blah blah blah. she was nice but ugh I get it, hi.

long hair

because my hair is so long its hard for me not to keep it in a bun or braids or a ponytail. I hate leaving my hair down my back because it gets in my face and I can't see sometimes. I'm not a good person to keep hair down my back. I love long hair but my hair isn't bad. I beg my mom to let me cut my hair. I'm not saying having long hair is a bad thing its just the maintenance. I'm more of a roll outta bed hairstyle person.

harry potter

I'm a huge harry potter freak. give me something harry potter and I'll read it immediately. Snape's monologue when he's talking to Harry for the 1st time I can answer almost all the questions. I know almost all harry potter trivia, some spells, robes and everything harry potter.

ramen

I'm going to a community college but I'm living on what other kids are eating. I love ramen and coffee. I'm one who doesn't often complain or say, "no I don't like this." my mom likes giving me care packages. she'll give me beauty products. sometimes she'll give me food. anyways ramen is tasty. but I'm eating tons of it. like gallons of it. I can eat it all the time. often I'll double it up to sort of get extra nutrition. mostly to get extra protein and extra liquid in my system because my mom wants me to have extra protein to cut my hunger. the liquid is also to get more bulk in my stomach. I heard soups are good for people because it'll help to loose weight and keep the weight off.

scoliosis

scoliosis is a back condition I suffer with. I have uneven feet, shoulders, legs, arms and ribs. I went to a chiropractor and was able to "correct" or "fix" my ribcage and points north. I still have uneven feet, legs and hips. I always will. I'll also always have a lump in my shoulder. another thing is I'm very small because of my back. I'm not going to grow past 5'3.5" ever. my mom without her scoliosis (she has it and that's why I have it) would be 5'11" and I'd be 5'8" at least. I did a project on scoliosis because of my knowledge of it. I also happened to try showing off my frame. whenever I'm sitting in 1 position for too long or something uncomfortable I'll get massive back pain. with my skeleton as messed up as it is I can't be comfy for a while but its going to be happy then I'll be sore if it gets hurt.

bocce ball

I started my career as a varsity athlete with bocce ball. its a mix of bowling and crochet. I was able to teach my kids how to play, it was that easy. my senior year I was "captain" so much the officials started placing the palina (the target ball) in my hand. my favorite team to play against would be...... Clarksburg or Watkins Mill. I'm sorry but that's who I like playing against. my best friends former HS was rivals with Watkins mill so... akward

streak on my hair

i used to dye my hair and it became blonde. i wasn't unattractive since it was a contrast. its nice to have people commenting on a contrasting thing. my hair is black and when my hair was blonde streaked it was nice. my hair was often spray dyed. once after i tried dying it again but i thought didn't come out right. i spray on some color to hide the evidence. people could tell i dyed it again. when i re cut it into a shag hair cut the blonde was on the edge but it was gone. i never redyed it.

2 truths and a lie

i'm addicted to 2 truths and a lie where the person says 2 things that are true about themselves and 1 thing that's a lie. it is an excellent ice breaker for me since i have trouble with that. i'll have obvious ones but i'll try tricking people by throwing something that CAN be true but isn't. i just posted it but i'm sure its semi-obvious what the "lie" is

Eclare

Eclare is the relationship between Eli and Clare. the latest time Eclare broke up was in Sparks will fly part 1, when Care called Eli and broke up over voicemail. my mom says that's pretty chicken. my friend had to use the phone as a last resort to break up with her Ex. the principal was like "can you do that? can you do that to someone? over voice mail" that IS pretty chicken.

northwest high school

Northwest high school is a very open, accepting, inclusive and educated school. i said, I can't do the play and some kids from the robotics club said, oh if you can't do the play than help the stage crew. I'm not sure why they are that way. i say i tried out for the play the rest of my class goes nuts asking if i got the part. Anhar explains why that is. Northwest accepts people for who they are. I said i have diabetes and people were either educated with this disease or they educated themselves in order to help. even though the allied/ corollary program started in the spring of 2011 everyone came out to support me and Evan. it was awesome. when i came up to bat once everyone was cheering for just me. i was embarrassed but did it.

the science center of MC

i love the science center. its so much fun and a very intresting building to be in. my friend commented that it looked like a dorm. i told her once i can't cry in the science building, its too cool a building. it IS a very cool building. its got a lounge, dorm style stuff and is just a nice building. it has a room called the skeleton closet that has skeletons for biology

George

my brother's friend George is a nice kid. OK so on Friday i run into him at the football game and Evan thought he was my brother. I'm like, No Hunter is over there and Michael is wearing a jersey." Evan was like "is he your neighbor you want to introduce me to?" I'm like "No Matt is about a foot taller than me". for some reason George looked darker. I'm not sure why. George and i talked college. he was nice

marching band

my friend and neighbor Matt was in the band last fall. Matt told my brother that he (Matt) was in the band. i was at football game last friday and saw him. i was shocked because Hunter would've know (i hoped). they did an amazing job last year doing sleepy hollow. my friend liked that video.

halloween costume

i've gotten most of the stuff now just need a couple new things. as you can see from my earlier posts i LOVE halloween and i'm going as Carrie. many people haven't seen that in years. i've got heels and crown as well as a red dress. all i need now is fake blood and a fake corsage. i'm very excited since the dress i got is RED and velvet. i can't wait to wear it. i gotta grow my hair out a lot since i'm wearing a bun on the top of my head.

LGBT group and parents

to have my mom's support in the fact i'm in the people's alliance at MC is the best. my dad is totally for me to do that. my mom asked what its about and i just said its a safe space and we can do whatever we want to in the group. i even told her on saturday it was "national coming out day." I say its a safe space since most people who come should come with an open mind. they can be whoever they want to be. they joked you can be a gopher. my mom suprisingly happened to be very intrested what the people's alliance was for. i explained its also for their straight allies.

forensic science and justice system

the last 2 essays i've written in english class have been about criminal justice system and the law. this is nice since i'm into that stuff. i told my teacher so. i can't believe i can do that. i've read a ton of that stuff but never thought i can write about it. this is awesome. i've taken a criminal justice class and read books as well as watched some stuff on the subject. it's one of my favorite class so far.

gentleman like behaviour

i hate people acting like gentlemen. i don't mind if my hands are full and i need a hand opening the door. that's fine. everyone needs that. but like giving up your seat, carrying things, opening doors, whatever. i hate that since i wasn't brought up that way. i don't mind being called, "lady" since my former HS grade level administrator used to call me that. i also don't mind the door opening thing since everyone sometimes needs that. carrying things, if i can pick them up and carry them myself i will. my friend does this behavior a lot. like Friday i said i was going to talk to someone and my friend said he was going back in line for snacks. i was oh i can take my stuff then. he said no i can. i said, um OK. i took my stuff back eventually.

being offered a seat

i don't mind being offered a seat if i'm tired but on a regular basis (like if i'm not tired or hurt) i don't want all that. i'm find standing. one of my friends is religous and says girls should sit first. i say: age and disability then gender. he agreed. one kid offered me a seat when i injured my leg and another few times when i was tired guys gave me their seat. another time i was tired and a kid gave me the seat. i was like, Nah later maybe. its not the way i was brought up though. i have 3 brothers and it was defend your territory rather than girls first. my friend i went to prom was nervous to sit down next to me. i was all, "do you wanna sit next to me or something?" my dad thought that was stange. as did i. my religous friend said girls no matter where should ask their guy to sit. weird but hey, if that's your thinking go for it.

brother my brother

i like this song since it can have the life lessons behind it. my best friend and her brother hate each other. i reccomended she listen to it since i think it sounds exactly like her and her brother's fighting. my brothers and i don't like each other (we and be at odds with each other) but when it comes down to it we love each other. exactly like Tristin and Owen on degrassi. we might be at odds with each other but we love each other. i don't think i'm like my friend and her brother. They hate each other. he tries wrecking her diet. my brothers likes to try some of the foods i like and stuck to me when my family and i went to Sally Cotter (my HS's version of harry potter). he also wanted to follow me around and asked me about college life. Owen was worried about Tristan being missing and his (tristan's) heart attack.

Lugia's song

i love pokemon. my brothers and i went thru that phase when we were younger. i like listening to it since it's instrumental music and won't distract me when i'm working on stuff. i like listening to instrumental music when i'm studying since it can help me and not get me distracted by lyrics. its very nice to listen to that since i hate the quiet when i'm working. my family friend is in the high schools band and plays nice instrumental music. here's the link to it: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UkMfBgWi60M

vegetarian

many people like vegetarian food. me as well. my brother likes salads, mom likes vegetarian pizza and I love all types of vegetarian foods (burgers, pizzas, salads, pastas). I was a vegetarian for a week but ate meat again. I'm not saying I can't go back but I prefer eating meat but low fat meat. Mia Thermopolis in the princess diaries is a vegetarian. a character on a TV show is a vegetarian. several people are. my friend is so picky she'd just have the vegetarian options.

black and red

not sure why black and red go together so nicely. but for some reason when I wear red I look awesome (I have black hair). my mom said I should wear black and red for prom with my best friend Evan. I had reddish lipstick and looked nice. my mom got me a red tank top since "red is your color". junior year was my best year since that color is red and I have tons of red stuff.

crimpped hair

I crimp my hair as a way to "teach it a lesson". I'm not big on doing my hair in the morning. I roll outta bed do my meter and go about my day. I also only do my hair crimped is because I'm doing something with my hair when I sleep. I brush it anyways afterward so why not put it into 2 pigtails or crimp it? I'm growing my hair out for a Halloween costume. this helps me do something with my hair on they way of it growing.

contradictions

we all have contradictions in our lives. sometimes the contradictions can cost us our lives. my brother lets me do things such as having long hair and nails as I'm a girl and my brothers don't have that luxury. my brothers on the other hand can do many more dangerous activities that I can't since I have a bad back

carrie

I'm going as Carrie for Halloween. I'm growing my hair as long as I can in order to prepare for this. my hair IS pretty long to begin with. I'm normally into scary stuff to begin with. I think I'll fit right in with Carrie. it might not be the same since I have black hair and Carrie has blonde but I can do it. I need a cheap prom dress, fake flower, fake blood and a sash. I already have makeup, heels and a tiara for Halloween. my mom thinks its fun if I make my own costume. better than a 35 dollar costume likely to rip or for me never to wear again.

selfie

everyone has selfies. I myself have a few. I only took 1 after my friends graduation. I went thru a ton to get that perfect shot. I did my hair, nails, skin up to par. anyways I mentioned I was going to homecoming and had my mother take a few pictures before it. like I said, I'm not a big selfies fan. there's a song that has the words first Lemmie take a selfie.

the walking dead

I've never really gotten into the walking dead but I've seen the behind the scenes videos. one person who I wanted to see die is Sophia. I've seen her death scene. she was there and I've been able to see her die. she is an amazing actor. she didn't go to zombie school. she had a huge bite wound on her shoulder and a prostatic to make it seem like her eyes were sunken in. she kick their heads and went slow since that's what a zombie would do.

wisdom teeth surgery

I'm getting my wisdom teeth come out. I'm so scared. I'm not normally nervous about surgery. I have so many scars its not even funny. everyone says I'll be fine. I sure hope so. I had surgery when I was 10 or 11 years old. I had my tongue untied. I was really young. I couldn't talk for the rest of the week. my tongue is fine but since I haven't oral surgery in 8 or 9 years I'm scared.

history cold case

I saw a few episodes they have on offer. they make it fun while using skeletons and forensic science to gave names to the skeletons they are examining

foot

as most know tonight is my old high schools homecoming. what most don't is my foot is scraped up. I can walk on it but it is SO scarred. my foot healed for the most part but the scars aren't going away for a while. my foot is healing a lot quicker than usual. i can walk on it and my foot doesn't look as bad as when i scraped it.

nails

I'm thinking about doing my nails in a someone what interesting design since I left my red at my dads. I have pink. I'm thinking minor design on them since I have a pink dress but I'm not sure about my hair.

national coming out day

Happy national coming out day. I heard there's something down in DC about coming out today. I'm supportive about coming out since I had diabetes and I was outed since I was sick. I'm glad people at my old high school were so accepting.

cupcakes

my best friend and I made cupcakes yesterday. I got them smashed into my face. we actually spilled frosting on my new shirt. deja vu.

dumb and dumber

isn't there that 1 friend you can act like dumb and dumber around each other? mine is my SBFF (sister best friend) Emily. I once saw an episode of deadly women that the narrator said a pair of friends "were like dumb and dumber those 2". Emily and I are like Dumb and Dumber.

skull and crossbones earring with skeleton ear cuff

my earring I'm currently wearing is a skeleton one. (skull and crossbones with a skeleton hand ear cuff) I am addicted to scary stuff. I can read something until late and not even loose sleep over it. it looks like a cochlear implant would look like but a cochlear implant is from the ear to the head not the piercing to the ear. it looks awesome.

ventriliquism

I'm not sure how I did that but I can throw my voice. I accidentally learned how to do it. I've only done it a few times in my life. the thing is I'm not consciously doing it. meaning I'm trying to get someone's attention and accidentally make it seem like I'm elsewhere. I only remember doing it 3 times, as far as I can remember. once when I 1st did it, once junior year at my 1st allied softball game and once tonight. not sure how I did it but I can. i'm not sure why my neighbor wasn't able to know where i was even when i said, "turn around." either he had 0 clue i was there or he's a bigger idiot than i origanally thought.

Evan and me

just to set the record I'm NOT dating my best friend. everyone has faith that he and I'll end up together. we are friends. he's the autistic one but its not cool how people just assume he and I'll end up together. I'm so sad and upset. anyways, its just an occupational hazard of hanging out with him and people seeing us together. I say I'm going with him and my step-father thinks its a date. like bite me. than my step-dad says he and I are going on a date. I'm like no we are just hang out at a football game together. why am I going on a date with him? he and I are just friends. I like him and I want to be more than friends but it's not fair since Evan has autism.

perfect isn't easy

I love that old Disney song. I should've sung it when I had to touch up my make-up while I'm in Mrs. Hinman's room and freshman were watching me. I wasn't normally covered in that crud but hey, why not. classic and classy, we're not talking lassie. exactly georgette.

Northwest high school football

this year the football team is on fire. we are 6-0. that is insane. do I hear states calling our name again? we've beaten every school by 40+ points. I'm glad to have a school championship twice since I graduated. my best friend's brother was in high school when they went to states prior to 2014. good job NWHS

Handball

I loved team handball. it functioned like a family. I'm very fortunate to have had that did that. even to the point of me being guilty about missing a cancelled practice. I'm not sorry for using the team for guinea pigs. I used them for my sociology experiments. once I was tying my shoe and the team was doing pull ups. they said, "Jackie your turn." we had team lunches, we had some kids ask my post HS plans we are so close.

siblings

I have 3 younger full brothers. they all love me. there is Hunter (2.5 years younger than me), Michael, (5 years) and Bobby (8 years). problem is that 2 of them like forensic science shows. the youngest (Bobby) is only 11. I left a forensic science show on and Bobby was watching it. I was a terrible sister for doing that. it wasn't like Saw or PG-13. Hunter also likes forensic science. as does his girlfriend. I love them dearly but I wish they'd butt outta my life. I'm glad they care but no they have to interfere. when I found forensic science and the allied sports I was like "yes this is something I can do solo." but no my mom, dad, step-dad and babysitter got involved (typical) but the boys (what my family calls my brothers) got into it as well. I was like "NOOOOOOOOOO" because that was something I thought was MY thing.

spray on hair dye

I've gotten attached to spray on hair dyes. they temporarily change your hair color. I used spray on to cover up what I considered a "bad dye job". I did the dye job at home but it came out wrong. I usually use red since its one of the only colors that show up. although a blue paste will work pretty well. junior year I had several colors in my hair for pep rallies

safe spaces for LGBT and holidays

some people who are in the LGBT should have safe spaces and should have club meeting on holidays like thanksgiving, Christmas and Hanukkah. sometimes the person might not be out to their families or they might not have such a great relationship with them if they ARE out to them. its ok to have a great relationship with people

red

all of us have colors we can pull of. I can pull off wild colors. although the best color on me is red. I love the color. although I prefer purple. I've loved purple for as long as I can remember. red looks amazing in my black hair since I'm half Chinese and that's their national color. although a red-rose color is awesome on me. I have this dress I liked. it was black on the top and the skirt was green and it was puffy and poufy and girly and stuff. my mom said my dress needed to be sporty since it was going to be my prom dress and graduation dress. great. I can't wear my homecoming dress? anyways I get a black one which is nice but I felt uncomfortable in it at graduation. at graduation I'm not sure why I didn't do this but at my graduation if I was going in that dress I should've gothic out and worn my black arm warmers, worn dark makeup whatever.

happy Leif Erikson Day

I saw a SpongeBob episode and I guess today is Leif Erikson day. Happy Leif Erikson day I guess. Hinga Dinga Durgen

parents

you become a teenager and you start defying your parents more and more. not saying you don't love your parents but you are making decisions about your life. I've had my share of bad decisions suggested to me via my parents. I love you guys but I'm old enough to make my decisions. one of my parents (I won't say which) suggested I walk around after I got "beautified for prom". no problem except that was the 1st time and I got scared. I still did it but it wasn't my cup of tea. that same parent wanted me to do something semi-embarrassing (asking an acquaintance to my junior prom). they also are having my younger brother to go to homecoming. embarrassing.

blog

my dad wanted me to blog and I decided to start writing short snippy posts and badabing I got tons of page views. its not gone viral but I'm thinking of outrageous posts to continue this trend

LGBT

I've always been very into the LGBT community. so is Archie Simpson. we both accept it and would take a couple minutes to take it in. it's a shocking thing but we both accept it. http://degrassi.wikia.com/wiki/Adam_Torres http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/My_Body_Is_a_Cage https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=COrVstGS_0M Adam has amazing friends who accepts who he is and begs his mother to see him as Adam and "to put Gracie to rest."

candy

despite me having diabetes I still like candy. regular and sugar free. my favorite is anything chocolate and possibly skittles as well. I like hard candies and these candies my step-dad has called sixlets. they are little candies you can put 2 to 3 in your mouth and still have room left to spare. a handful would be like 3 to 5 packs.

skeleton closet

there is a room full of skeletons that the MC campus has named "skeleton closet". that would be awesome if it was actually a closet full of skeletons. I posted about it on social media and someone was like a real closet of skeletons but no its a room of skeletons. that would be awesome if its a CLOSET since the idiom is skeletons in my closet. too bad but the campus called it skeleton closet

break up

can you or should you break up with someone via voicemail? check out this video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nPEXBNOzqEk what should someone do in that situation? my friend did it with her ex as a last resort

ASL

I've been working on my ASL degree. I love ASL. my family mocks it but I love it. I also like teaching my friends ASL. not sure why but my best male friend wants to learn ASL. I have a feeling he likes me and that's why he wants to learn it. although having said that he's just my friend. another friend can understand it as well. my favorite letter to sign is J since it's very visual. As is the name John.

Michael Phelps

how many of us heard of Michael Phelps' DUI? well now he's suspended from swimming for 6 months. too bad since he's won all the Olympic medals. too bad Mike. you are my favorite Olympian swimmer.

JB or PB?

as the amazing atheist said "he wouldn't called JB he'd b called PB for punching bag". totally true. Justin Bieber isn't the "tough guy as many people thinks. his "cute" appeal now is replaced with a mug shot. how many of us are happy we had that bet with Canada over who would get Bieber over a hockey game? again the amazing atheist said, "he'd be lucky to get $200 to play at a sweet sixteen in a back yard." I disagree. $200 is WAY too much. I'm more inclined to think he'd get $50 max. how many of us know what butter beer is from harry potter? well apparently JUSTIN can handle it worse than Winky. too bad his butter beer addiction lead to his DUI

homecoming

homecoming is where alumni go back to see their old high schools, colleges and universities. I'm going back since my mother wants me to celebrate my high school's homecoming. I'm not opposed to that but my brother is taking me. talk about embarrassing. blech that's a sweet thing my brother is doing

ASL ALS ice bucket challenge

over the summer i was nominated to do the ALS ice bucket challenge. i decided to sign the entire video. my mom thought it was awesome. my mom shared it and mentioned how i was doing awesomely with the ASL. my friend said it was awesome do deaf participants can watch it too since not every deaf person can lip read. it was awesome since my mom said i should show my ASL teacher the video. I learned a new word for it as well as having me sign it was pretty insane.

1st base

i played first base senior year of high school. i hated it since I'm the only lefty and had it foisted upon me. i got hit 4 times in 1 game and was like the team captain for the game. this 1 kid walked up to me and started talking to me about fumbling the ball. honestly we were only 5 runs ahead so i didn't think it was that important to fumble the ball. the 1st time i played 1st base i taught my preschoolers how to play bocce ball. so i was partially tired. and then had to play softball? oh come on what next? that time my teammates threw me the ball and i was essentially parallel with the floor. i caught it was everyone was like, "good job" to the point of me saying, "good grief" which is my code words for shut it. (i used those code words on my birthday as well.) the time i got hit 4 times was the senior game and i was in the zone and got hit on the shoulder, chest, hand and ear. not fun. least i caught it. that is one of the only times in school I've shown off my high tolerance for pain.

annoying brothers

i saw a meme about going to work. on one side it was with out kids and on the other it was "with kids". normally I'm on the "without kids" side but during my brother's spring break i was on the "with kids" side. i was like, "whoopee work". over the summer my dad got my brothers for a couple weeks and i went to the campus for some peace and quiet. i can't believe my brothers made me do that. another thing is my brother thought MC (the college i go to) had lecture halls but we don't as far as i know of. my brother wants to miss school to follow me around. i need my brothers to not get out of school for that reason. i love them and all but its not cool bro. mom will let the eldest of my brothers for that but not before checking his schedule.

lunar eclipse

not only was there a blood moon there was also a lunar eclipse. i was asleep but i heard it was awesome to have seen. I'm missing out on all these awesome things because I'm too tired to do them. anyways i heard it was awesome to have seen these things. my favorite thing was the blood moon since I'm a Halloween fanatic. it looked like the lunar eclipse is also with the blood moon

Nick Jonas's diabetes

Nick Jonas was just 13 years old when he was diabetes. he dropped to 95 lbs, drinking a lot of water, using the bathroom a lot and was very cranky. when he got diagnosed his blood sugar was close to 800 and was close to a coma (days away). low blood sugar is you faint. high blood sugar is more time to react. it was a miracle Nick didn't lose his vision in the 2 or 3 weeks of having diabetes without knowing it. my friend didn't want me pushed out and Nick didn't want it either. i have an awesome team. people will wonder what I'm doing but they won't interfere with what I'm doing. some people don't know what I'm doing but people are nice. there IS an embrace of the diabetic community. someone said my glucometer looked like a cellphone case but up close she knows what it was. my schoolmates and teammates were very concerned with what was wrong. luckily Nick said there is an embrace of the diabetic community and they are totally right. Nick and i have great support teams.

eating disorders

if you think about food and weight constantly you are not alone. younger and younger people are getting eating disorders. Karen Carpenter and Isabelle Caro are 2 famous people who have eating disorders. if you think eating disorders are only for a girls disorder but what you don't know is boys can get them too. something we need to hear is to open up. some warning signs are: 1) leaving the dinner table immediately after to throw up 2) having loud noises to cover up binging and purging 3) covering up the smells like perfume and cologne 4) skipping meals 5) sleeping more 6) looking skeletal or tired 7) missed periods 8) stained teeth 9) esophagus torn no matter what the statistics say the stigma was bad for everyone. no matter what we need to help everyone who happened to have the disorders. the facts: bulimia is more common but is less obvious, younger and younger children (girls and boys) are being affected and men can be affected too. anorexia can be linked to autism. here is a link for more information: http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/264666.php

blood moon

tons of people heard of the blood moon but I missed it. perhaps you saw it and shares your pictures with this blogger. I heard that the blood is the fall's red moon. it sounds intriguing, since it usually happens in September or October. I love it if it is near Halloween. tons of people saw it and raved about it on twitter

bone dance

its one of the only good songs by Miley Cyrus. it helps learn the skeletal system. a bunch of people sing it and we sing along. we all know the song. in child development class we sung it and people knew all the words. its nice. I'm glad if we could've taught the song the kids would've known it

Degrassi

my favorite show I'm currently hooked on is degrassi. its very interesting since it tackles controversial issues such as being transgender and gender reassignment as well as suicide. Maya acted out and hooked up with someone. she was upset her ex-boyfriend didn't say goodbye before committing suicide. she acted out since she was upset and didn't know how to deal with his suicide. Adam is transgender and wants to remove his breasts. his mom says, "she respects how Adam feels like a boy." to which he responds I don't feel like a boy I am. if you feel like the other gender it could be that you feel out of body. another issue degrassi deals with is eating disorders. such as anorexia, bulimia and anorexia binge-purge. something that many people think with eating disorders is it's a girls issue but its a unisex issue since both boys and girls can get an eating disorder. Maya's sister got an eating disorder. suicide is huge since people think life is too big to deal with. it hits close to home since my best friend was close to committing suicide through bullying. Campbell Saunders committed suicide since he was home sick, hated hockey, and was unhappy with his life. His team captain on hockey bullied him for Cam's hockey skills and Alli, Cam's tutor, knew Cam had problems. Dallas, the team captain said they should be blamed for Cam's suicide.

weight

lots of people talk about weight: lose weight, what diets are best. with my diabetes I need to lose a few pounds. not that everyone doesn't need to lose a few pounds. but not people with eating disorders, although THAT is another thing. I've got a brother who needs to gain a few pounds. I think the best diet is one you don't know your on it. change the drink, dressing on salads, fewer sugary snacks, more fruit and vegetables etc. also try walking up stairs and walk is another EASY thing you can do to help. with scoliosis I have a bad almost everything. I've been trying to help with my legs but its not easy. I've found some good healthy tips for life: 1) drink water 2) eat salads 3) eat vegetarian foods 4) cut back on the French fries and burgers (I'm not a regular burger fan since its high in fat) 5) eat coleslaw, sweet potatoes, 6) cut back on sugar wherever you can 7) walk up stairs if you can 8) exorcise whenever possible (not always high intensity) 9) eat 3 squares and 3 healthy snacks a day to speed up metabolism 10) get enough sleep 11) cut back on bad foods (coffee, sugar, sweets) 12) try cutting back on bad fat since they are bad if a whole family can help and get into this than it will encourage people to stay on track I know tons of people struggle with weight. myself included.

allied sports

I joined the corollary/ allied sports. it gave me such a huge boost and I love all the people I met and am now friends with. that's the aim for the most part of the allied program: to make friends and have fun while playing games. I have a varsity Letterman jacket that I got because of the allied program. most schools that I know of round Montgomery county have the allied program. I'm very happy to have been a part of that. I know my best friend and I are "inaugural" students in the program. we are "the life and soul of the allied program". the 3 sports I know most schools have is a bocce ball (which is a mix of crochet and bowling) team, an allied softball team (its like softball but played indoors and has modified bases) and a team handball team (mix of soccer and basketball). I got interviewed twice and gave a quote for the allied program. tons of people knew who I was by senior year. its not bad but very annoying. it's very sweet and nice. i love most of the people who were in the program. i think 80-90% of everyone i met outside of NWHS (my old high school) is from this program.

nick news with linda ellerbee: coming out

I like the nick news. I'm very interested in the world and issues related in the issues. I like the issue they are talking about. I'm not very in the bad side of things like coming out. I came out of the diabetic closet. I might not have wanted it but there it is. I understand how difficult it is to struggle with yourself. if you are sure with yourself than be whoever you are no matter what as long as you aren't hurting anyone else.

halloween

the closest holiday is Halloween. I love being in dark clothing and scary stuff. my friends like Halloween. I'm very into the dark and Goth stuff. my hair is dark and my mom likes me in my red stuff. I could wear red stuff and black clothing like vampire stuff. the lace trimmed arm warmers I own go up to my elbow and laces like tying the warmers into a bow. I like dark and red clothing. I like lace trimmed things. Halloween is 1 of my favorite holidays. I like being in costumes and looking new ways. I love dressing up in costumes. a few times people mistook me for a witch (once I was a vampire). then again high heeled wedges, zebra leggings, dark shirt and cape didn't help my cause. once I went as the grim reaper. someone said, "your not going to grim reaper us are you?" my English teacher my junior and senior years in high school said, "leave the little kids alone" which is a good idea. I like a good prank but you have to be careful with Halloween pranks since they could scare someone and possibly scar them for life. my favorite costume is a witch since I have witch like clothing. I wore my witch costume a lot since it is my favorite. my favorite teacher called me "the wicked witch of northwest."

let it go

how many of us have seen that movie frozen? well there is 1 song a ton of people like. it's called let it go. my friend says that song is my theme song since I don't get cold that easily. I don't since I have a high tolerance for pain. I love that song. since I've started styling my hair in a bun I look similar to Elsa the ice queen. the only minor difference is I have black hair. anyways its about not having the restrictions you have when you were in the past. here's the funny thing. in the spring I was at an allied softball game I was begged to fill in. I pulled my hair out of my bun and I should've sung part of it. i should've gone "i'm never going back the past is in the past let it go let it go"

quirks my brothers have

my brother said I stopped aging once I hit 14/15 years old and didn't know what alumni/ alumnus was. that same brother is roughly 6 foot tall and is only 14 years old. I had to share my calculator with the oldest of my brothers when I was a senior in high school. so one day I had a test and he forgot to give me back my calculator so I wind up borrowing one from my teacher. right in the middle of the test he walks right in and everyone is staring like, Who is that and is he there?

Barbie girl

how many of you guys remember that old song Barbie girl? as cheesy as it sounds its something nice I like to blog to. in show choir it was 1 of the songs that was recommended to be sung. although it was vetoed by the choir teacher since there is a line that's not exactly PG. I find that funny since the song is a little kids song

webkinz

how many of you guys collect the little stuffed animals called webkinz? well I did, I haven't bought one in a few years. my most recent addition is a frog I named after my step-sister Courtney. I got pulled out of handball practice so I could hang out with her. I wasn't opposed to that but I felt bad about that since I liked doing it and it felt like people were my friends. anyways webkinz are so cute. my favorite is this dog I named after my friends dog, Lucky. I name these things after friends and pets. I named a cow after my mother (it's brown and something else). if you guys want to go to the site here's the link: http://www.webkinz.com/

ebola viris

most of us have been immunized at birth to most modern diseases but I'm not sure how the heck the disease into the United States since everyone who goes in and out of the country has to go through customs and stuff so I'm not sure how the heck the officers didn't check the guy for a disease and why the person said he only had a minor virus or something and let was released. I'm not sure why the whole medical team wasn't consulted when he said he had something minor. I'm not sure why the guy said he had something minor. that's a little stupid if you ask me. now i hear the guy who had the ebola virus is dead. that's how stupid the guy was and how stupid the doctor was for believing that the guy had something minor. if the guy was admitted to the hospital or emergency room, why leave after saying it was something minor? I've hear the family feels like they are being treated like criminals. we need to learn about how to treat this disease. I've got a link to read about it: http://www.cbsnews.com/news/thomas-eric-duncan-ebola-victim-in-texas-has-died/

Justin bieber VS Austin Mahone

tons of people used to like him before Justin became this "bad boy" who gets in trouble. my favorite (and only possible good song) by Justin is Baby. things went SO wrong as soon as he became famous. after that 1 song his songs and life went downhill. he got popped for a driving violation. I saw a meme during this past winter Olympics in a game Canada VS the US that said, "loser keeps Justin Bieber" glad THAT went viral. Austin Mahone is "the new Justin Bieber". I saw charms for Austin Mahone and I bought them since it was 2 dollars and I got 3 charms. I get more for my money. The lady who helped me choose between 1D charms and Austin Mahone charms didn't like Justin Bieber since she said, "he missed his opportunity". that is very true. Austin Mahone is a great person compared to Justin Bieber. he's a great singer and a million times than the Bieber kid. my stepdad calls Justin "the biebs." I wonder if Austin Mahone and Justin Bieber got into a fight who would win

JD Robb

so I got into this series of books written by this woman named Nora Roberts but her pen name is JD Robb. She writes as herself as JD Robb. She writes futuristic criminal justice books. I saw one checked out of the library and boom I was hooked. I bought a few since my brother maxed out my library card in fines. I love them but I get distracted a lot. anyways I read them whenever I have down time. I love reading forensic science that's what I like. I recommend the series if you are into criminal justice or forensic science, like I am. I got into the series last winter break (January is when I started reading it). most people when they see the series (Nora Roberts as JD Robb) they think, oh it's Nora Roberts since she's a famous writer. she writes as JD Robb and at first I thought it was a man writing butt its a woman writing. my mom says the reason behind the whole pen name is so Nora isn't "restricted" to gender writing roles. the awesome thing is she's Marylander. she was born and raised here. maybe I can get her sign my copies of her books. if you are interested in seeing her website I've posted the web page below: http://noraroberts.com/

my brother's 11th birthday

who remembers their younger sibling's birthdays? well do I have a story for you. back in January my brother celebrated his birthday (his birthday is a few weeks from the holidays so we have to celebrate it after the holidays). so my brother had all the "normal" 11 year old party stuff (candy, cake, soda, movies, Nerf guns, etc.) that same day my step-dad buys me a bag of sugar free hard candies since I'm diabetic and all. I go downstairs where my computer is and within a few minutes my brother comes barreling downstairs asking for 1. I was like, "okay." in a questioning tone. the thing is my brother has NORMAL candy and stuff upstairs and so I wasn't sure why he wanted a sugar free candy. he asked how to open it and commented he can only taste the apple for a couple seconds. I was like, "great awesome. I have an 11 year old freak for a brother." my step-father says that 11 year olds only care about taste but 2 other people say that asking for a sugar free hard candy with normal stuff upstairs is a little weird. he doesn't think its abnormal but to me it is. I gave my brothers friend a hard candy as well. then again he'd tried the foam for butter beer in Florida. my criminal justice teacher and my former girl scout troop leader said it was weird. I think its odd. but then again I think boys are weird

new life

Evan woke up and he finally could be who he sees himself. He watched as he transform into a girl. He felt this as young as he could be. Evan's twin brother wasn't the most understanding in this. he knew his best friend crushed on him so much in high school. he wondered how Jackie would react to this. Evan said well she said she'd be ok with most things. Tee said, "would she be ok with you being transgender?" Evan hoped she would. Jackie and Evan met up. He said he had a secret he needed to tell her. I asked what's up? "I'm transgender" Evan said. "I'm an MtF a girl trapped in a boys body. I've always felt like this." "did you feel like this when we kissed? when we went to prom? the allied sports?" I asked. "Evan, I love you. I understand but I am heterosexual." "Evan said, "I understand if you don't want to be my friend but I thought you'd accept it." "I do accept it Evan I do. does this mean your gay? Bi?" I asked. "I love you," Evan said. "lesbian" I say. "what?" Evan asks. "lesbian. girl likes girls. I love you but I'm not like that. I'm sorry Evan" I say. Evan kissed me and then he cried. I cried for Evan, me, Jevan. Tee asked how she took it. She said, "she understands but since I like girls and am transgender she doesn't want to be my girlfriend like I hoped she might." Tee said he thought that might be the case. Evan cried. The next day, I walk around and run into my family friend Matt. He asks how Evan and I am. I say Evan is no more. He gives me a questioning look. I explain about him and his transition. I also explain what Evan is like now. I start crying into my coffee Matthew had gotten me. Matthew takes my hand in his and holds it until I can stop. Matt kisses me and says it'll be alright. He got me napkins so I could blow my nose. Matthew let me grieve as I needed. I was glad Matt could be my support. Evan will always be my best friend but now he is gone. Matt understood. he held my hand and let me cry on his shoulder. later, Matt saw Tee. he asked a few questions about Tee's "sister". Tee said Evan's going through a rough time. Matt asked Tee if Evan will be OK. I hope so, Tee said. Evan's new name is Evangeline. he asked Jackie to see him as Evangeline and put Evan to rest. I said I accept you.

stupid fanfic

Me and my best friend went to prom together. We loved that so much we hung out more. Then he gets a feeling and then he asks me out. He gets down on 1 knee in full view of our friends and asks me to be his wife. He says he wants to be with me forever. He's in love with me since went to senior prom together. he asks me to come up when he is up at the podium for the student speaker. everyone awe's. I sarcastically laugh and then say shut up. I tell Evan we'll talk later. I storm off the stage and retake my seat. everyone wants to see my promise ring. I listen to the rest of Evan's speech and try to forget what Evan said to me. as I walk across the stage I see my friend and neighbor, Matthew. he claps for me. at the right moment he gets up and he waltzed over and hugged me and kissed me. he says, "good luck in the future. come back for me." he walks back to his seat. Emily walks up and gives me a great big hug. we discuss the possibility of my marriage. I walk across the stage and graduate Northwest high school. that night I am up late thinking about the days events. Evan calls me. he asks if it's hit that we are high school graduates. he asks about his proposal. I told him I thought about it and I told him I'm not really ready for a commitment like that yet. he asks if its about the guy I kissed at graduation. I said no it has nothing to do with him. I just said I don't want that type of commitment. Emily and I are at a store and asked which boy I should choose and she says whoever I want as long as I am happy. I say, "wow you've come a long way dude." She says, "well I want you to be happy." We try on dresses. She says "wow red DOES look awesome on you." I say, "le duh. its because of my dark hair." I explain since I am also half Chinese it would help since red is the national color of china. Emily likes it on me. I say since I have a ton of red pep rallies my junior year was no problem. We choose a red dress for me and a green one for her. I get some red accessories for my hair and green for her hair. I tell her I think I might have a green ribbon I could loan her for her fashion show. We meet up with Alex, Matthew and Evan at the fashion show. Emily and I change into our 1st outfits. Evan and Matt can't take their eyes off me. Alex intently watches Emily. more and more guys come in and can't take their eyes off a certain black haired model. Evan gets up on stage and sings to me. He finally asks me to marry him for real. He stands up and kisses me on the lips. I wake up with a start. I check my blood sugar. my dad comes in and asks if I'm ok. my blood sugar is ok but I had a bad dream. He says, "well get something solid in your body and try doing some yoga." I get something to eat and then I do the sun salutation. I feel better. my friend calls me right as I go down for the downward dog. I grab it, answer it and put it on speaker. "hey Jackie. how are you?" asks the person on speaker. "hey Fernando. you caught me in the middle of the sun salutations. I'm going down to the downward dog." Fernando says, "oh sorry. I can call you later." I explain he was on speaker so I can still do the sun salutations and still talk. He and I talk for a few minutes. he asks why I was doing the sun salutations. I explain I had a bad dream and my dad the doctor said to eat and do some yoga since it's low impact. he asks is it a blood sugar thing? I say, nah my blood sugar is fine but I had a bad dream. my dad gets night terrors. its totally normal. I kind of use it as a white noise. Fernando goes "oh" like he gets it now. I go through the sun salutations one more time. I say I'm done with the sun salutations. he asks if I feel better. I say much. he says he has to go to work. I say have fun. I text Emily. I say I had a bad dream. She asks the same one? the one with Evan and the proposal? I say, Yes. She says well? are you going to do? He HAS asked you when you are awake. I say, I don't know. I also dreamt Matt asked to wait for him. Emily says, wow. torn between 2 lovers. Who are you going to choose? I don't know Em. honestly I didn't since I had feelings for both boys. I'm going to have to figure this out aren't I? Yes you are she replies. no way around it? I ask. nope no way around it, she says. you want to know the WEIRD part? we were in a fashion show and Evan proposed for real, I tell her. Emily says, that actually happened. Really? I ask, wow. I wonder how that happened. how I dreamed what happened yesterday. Matthew calls. I tell Em I have a call and I'll talk to her later. I pick up. He asks if he and I could meet for some coffee. I say, "uh sure. what's up?" Matt says, "I'll explain when we meet up." I tell Emily that Matt and I are meeting up for something. She asks what. I say I wasn't sure. Matthew meet me at Starbucks. He gets me coffee and pushes my seat in. I say, "like a true gentleman." He says, "I need to tell you something.... serious. I haven't told your brother this but can you keep it between you and me?" I ask, "it's not illegal is it? sorry just covering my bases." Matt says, "no. I'm ...... transgender." "right" I say, "and I'm the king of Siam." He looks at me ticked off. "dude, you've been my friends with my family for a while, wouldn't we have known?" I asked. "well I've been able to hide it for a while. now I'm crushing on cute girls. I'm just ready to come out. your brothers aren't 100 open and as nice as you are," Matt says. He also explains he's attracted to me. He says his "package down there" is prosthetic. He can't do it totally on his own. as I let it sink in I tell him my favorite motto, "Love, peace and rock and roll was the motto in my household growing up. doesn't bother me." we hug and kiss. he asks me if I've chosen between him and Evan. I say I haven't. I say I'm not ready for that to be more as friends. I'm not saying I won't eventually. I say I need to be ready. he says that's fine with him. Emily and I are at the same Starbucks later that day as I tell her what our friend told me. "So Matthew's transgender? wow. never thought that was possible." Alex and Evan come with our drinks, Alex hands Emily her drink and asks her to read what's on the cup. "Emily Abramson, I love you marry me?" Emily reads. She looks for Alex and sees him kneeling with a ring. Emily accepts and kisses Alex. Evan tries the same thing I say, "nice try Evan." Mrs. Deming comes into Starbucks and says hi to me and Evan. I tell her the squealing girl is my buddy who just got proposed to. I introduce Emily to Mrs. Deming. Matthew comes over and I introduce Mrs. Dalton to Matt. they shake hands and Matthew hands me a drink. I say, "I hope its not another cheesy proposal." "cheesy proposal?" Matthew asks. I explain what Alex did to Emily and what Evan just did. Matthew says, "Jackie, I know you and that Evan guy have a special relationship but will you marry me?" as he says this he pulls out an engagement ring and gets down on 1 knee. I look down at Evan's ring he'd given me at graduation. I say, "I need some air." Mrs. Deming comes with me and asks who I'm going to choose. I say I'm not sure. I've pretty much been running on borrowed time with both. I think I'm going to give Evan his ring back in a "quiet fashion". I ask Mrs. Deming to have Evan come outside. I quietly say, "I'm sorry Evan. I'm going to marry Matthew. I love you." Jackie walks back into the Starbucks and asks if Matthew will still take her to be his wife. he says yes. I pull him up and we kiss. I say, "Everybody Jackie and Matthew are officially engaged to be married." Evan cries. a few months later, we see Jackie walking up the aisle and Matt cried to see his beautiful blushing bride. he made the right choice. he Came out to her as transgender and then she accepted his proposal. they said their vows. As Jackie looked at her SBFF, fellow happily married woman and bridesmaid Emily she smiled. Jackie and Matt kissed.

forensic files

So one of my friends thought I would like this show called forensic files. She's right and now I am obsessed with it. Something I don't like is my family thinks they can watch these shows with me. I can't believe my family thinks that. it's my alone time since I get very little with my brothers around (I have 3) and am surrounded by my family constantly. I don't mind at all but some of the material in the show is graphic. one of my favorite parts of the show is when the narrator says, "prosecutors believe" and the narrator says what prosecutors believe is the truth. sometimes it's not the truth and once the person had been incarcerated but was innocent. at the end is where the prosecutors say what they REALLY investigate. they use real techniques. once when mom, Jeff and Hunter were watching it they were talking when it came on. I said, "shut it." that way I could hear what was going on during the show. had it been anything else I wouldn't have cared. since I was watching my show it was annoying to listen to them do that. the thing is I like my "me time". I need it since I'm hardly alone and constantly need it. it also relaxes me since I like cold hard facts and prosecutors show these cold hard facts. I once wrote a paper on forensic files and it was apparently so good my peers thought it was my major. I'm not saying its out of my realm of possibilities for a major. I love forensic science and all the shows that goes along with it. I like forensic science and maybe I'll use those skills in a science lesson since my mom wants me to get a teaching major. some of my friends are watching them as well. they seem to like it. I once put it as my status "forensic science right?" one of my best friends is now hooked as well as I am. my family likes it much to my annoyance. I'm not mad more annoyed since I don't want them to be hooked to the same things I am. they'll occasionally watch them with me. my brother would walk in and ask what the case was. my brother asked me if some criminals who commit heinous crimes should be allowed for a parole hearing. one time I said I was doing a criminal justice class and my former classmate said I was "living the dream." I was like yeah, my ASL dream not a forensic science dream. another former classmate asked if I was still doing forensics. I also said criminal justice holding a JD Robb book to my old English teacher saying what class I had next. another classmate said my essay was really good and that's why they thought it was my major.

adam torres

one of the characters on Degrassi is Adam Torres who is a transgender character. every day his reflection was someone he didn't know. finally his mom and step-dad allow him to transition into who he thinks he is. his mom still sees him as a girl. I think a lot of kids (not just trans kids) go through the "who am I? why am I hiding my true identity?" phase. it isn't uncommon since I went through that. Adam is loyal and sarcastic. he has other qualities that make him who he is and I'm glad we can look past him being transgender. what if we all looked past the main characteristic of us and focused on our positive qualities? wouldn't it be a better world if we did that? Adam is by far my favorite character on the show. one reason is because he is relatable. Adam tried hiding his FtM secret. in "my body is a cage" part 1 and 2 we see the struggle of being different for anything. I had a secret I wanted to be hidden. I was diabetic and struggling with it. it's not that weird having a secret people want to hide. Zoe Riveras is dyslexic and wanted to hide it. when we see Adam try to be his birth (and legal) name and gender Drew realized this is detrimental to Adam's health (mentally and physically). he self-harmed as his birth gender as a way of letting the anger out. Adam thought it would be easier if he went by that but he found strength to be who he truly is. when I found the strength to accept my diabetes and be who I am, from team handball. they were my friends and made sure they can help me. during the senior game I was playing badly and everyone made sure I happened to be my person who I am. I don't know if I am a "girly girl" or a "tomboy" because I know how to be girly but I also know how to give a dig, a noogie, a wet Willie and a wedgie. apparently, someone in my ASL class says those things are "important life skills".I have 3 brothers. that's probably why I know those things. I'm probably somewhere in the middle. Clare asked if Adam knew the difference between being transgender and a tomboy or lesbian as his reasons for not being a girl is "I hated wearing dresses and having long hair." he said he's known since he was 4 or 5 he was meant to be a boy. some people say people "just know" as their explanation for things and that's what Adam's explanation for that. one of my friends say, "I'm a cross between a girly girl and a tomboy." one of my coaches says I'm a girly girl and another says I'm a tomboy. that's why I asked my friends. I'm happy I happened to have those "important life skills".on thing is that I have those are cool. I love Adam since he's relatable. my friend did a project and mentioned a character on Degrassi and I happened to help her with it and I'm glad to be happy to help her. something I'm very happy about the Degrassi show is it has sensitive issue like the transgender thing. I'm very glad my friends were supportive.

college

in august of 2013 I started college. I love it so much. it's so fun. my mom and step dad aren't helping me by putting pressure on me by saying I've got to get to 15 credits a semester per year in order to graduate within a 2 year time span. I'm trying to go as fast as I can. I've got some friends. people are so sweet to me. I've gotten good grades. I've been on several sports teams. one of my friends were supportive in me with whatever I do for sports. one person says I should cheer lead. I'm glad I should be a full time student and will cheer lead. maybe I can cheer lead and get a cheer leading scholarship to somewhere. my family isn't dependent on an athletic scholarship. although it would be amazing if I got a scholarship to somewhere on a cheer leading ride. I'm not a cheerleader but I'm glad I could if I wanted. I love high school and going to college. whenever I go back onto northwest territory is like I never left. people still recognize me. it's not as though I'm invisible but it's annoying. once when I went to go see the fall play I stuck myself in a row where I hoped no one would've noticed me but someone did. all during I got "caught" by everyone who recognized me. something that's fun in MC is that I can meet new people and enjoy being unknown for a little bit. I can join as many or as few clubs as I want. I can be who I want to be in MC. I joined the people's alliance last semester but stopped going since I'm not as into it. plus I'm not going since my friend's boyfriend isn't there to give the 2 of us a ride home. what's funny is I was "the ghost voice" for a second and a half talking about the club I joined. it was funny watching people looking around for "who the fuck is talking". the funniest second and a half of my life. I went back for a few football games and people again recognized me. one thing was that my friend and neighbor didn't realize I was back. I saw him do some silly things. my teachers and advisers saw me and we talked. once I had to sneak over to the Clarksburg side. I still cheered for the northwest team. I love hanging out with her. Laura I met on Facebook and I saw she played on the allied sports for Clarksburg. Northwest high school territory is where northwest high school is going to be. it's fun to be recognized. once when I raced over to a football game someone said, "there's Jackie." its like "okay I've thrown being anonymous out the window." I've always thought that was the mentality of people at NWHS. it was insane with college now. Tuesday I'm going to a game on NWHS allied softball game and people pleaded me to help them team. it was nice since I was graduated and people on the team were short 2-3 players. it was hilarious to see them try and beg me to play on the team again. one thing I like is how people begged me to play again. another thing is I loved seeing the team play. Sanket (or as his nickname 6-pack) was pitcher and was funny. His expression lit up when he realized I might be able to play again. everyone begged me to play. Although I'd have bruises and abrasions on my hands as well as sweated through my outfit that day. plus I had no physical on file and there is the thing that I graduated. I wonder why people on the team was so desperate to have a graduated player on the team. they must be so desperate for players that's why they had to beg a graduated player to play on the team. people shouldn't be that desperate they resort to that. my outfit I was afraid to sweat through was leggings, a camisole and a thin t-shirt. I had on proper shoes but I'd have sweated through it. I also didn't have anything I needed (a softball glove). like I said I'd have bruises and abrasions on my hands unless someone gave me a lefty glove. I can't believe people are going to these extremes to beg me to play instead of being a spectator. Sanket's expression turned into a "will you play today?" and partially excited expression. I was like "absolutely not." I was pulling out my bun and then I happened to have my hair down. Isaiah was like, "Jackie play catcher." I was all "absolutely not." mostly because I was laughing and wanted to see them play. when I went to go grab water the 1st time people were asking if I was going to leave. I was like, "no I'm going to grab water. I'm not leaving. no worries." people thought I was leaving. why would I stay for warm ups and half an inning, then leave? my mom is going to have me try and do stuff for MC. I understand I'll only have 1 shot in order to do this but I want to take my time and see how this goes. I guess I'm comparing me enjoying MC while I'm still here in MoCo and enjoying my HS until I leave when I do. one of the kids who I had a class last semester he was at MC for 5 years due to him retaking classes. some kids he went to high school are getting master's degree if they are going to college for that amount of time. I understand that having college for 5 years is a long time but having a college degree will help with getting a good job. a ton of people want bachelor's and masters degree in places. I didn't get into stuff until sophomore year in high school/ mom doesn't realize that. I didn't start going to stuff on my own accord (with out it being a class assignment) my sophomore year when I went to basketball game. Mom says I get discounts for stuff at MC since I'm a student. I understand that. one thing is I'm not sure I want to go and do stuff a Montgomery college if it's a commuter college. Mom says she understands how hard it is to be in that situation since her college was a commuter college (she lived near college). its not the same for me since all the kids I see do have some stuff but unlike me I have a letterman jacket that is for 1 school and I live near a rival school. its isolating since I don't drive. also since I'm not interested in the activities there. some people have jobs and then people aren't at school 24 hours. I'm not saying I can't get a job but I need to have a fun time.