Saturday, March 31, 2018


scoliosis has been a huge thing that makes me who i am. while at times (like when i'm in tons of pain like right now) it sucks. on the other times it's awesome. i can dances like it's nobody's business. i am 1 of the luckier ones in the sense i never needed a brace or surgery. my mom needed a brace growing up (she gave me scoliosis).

tomorrow is april

i can't believe tomorrow is April fools day and Easter. we are speeding thru the semester and seasons. i can't believe we're nearly done with the semester and with that comes finals and then summer. it seemed like yesterday was the start of the semester and my birthday was a couple weeks later.

Friday, March 30, 2018


i hate eating meat. i prefer not eating meat (unless it's chicken or fish) due to a muscle disorder.

Looked different

Once after my birthday I'd gone to church and asked a friend if he'd lost weight because he looked different

Thursday, March 29, 2018

i wonder

i wonder who the boy a friend had in mind for me to marry. maybe that's what i'll pray about tonight.


Adanan sayed is getting a new trial

green river running red

i have so many memories with that book. i read it as an audio book. a friend introduced me to her son while i was listening to it. i also listened to it while at my family reunion. when i got a copy of the book i read it and it totally broke.


when i was in the ward in Kauai i turned my head and reacted since i saw 2 elders there to take me to Sunday school which done on my own if i was given directions. another time i was scared since 1 elder looked at my flashlight and then asked about being in the celestial kingdom

Flying while Muslim

Flying while Muslim or Muslim while flying is an expression referring to the problems Muslim passengers can face on airplanes, during stopovers or in airports in the aftermath of the September 11 attacks. It is constructed in an analogy to the older expression driving while black, which similarly satirizes racial profiling of African Americans by police and other law enforcement. Incidents: An early usage of the phrase is dated mid-September 2001. The issue was brought to media attention in 2006 when six Muslim imams were removed from a US Airways flight after they allegedly engaged in suspicious behavior reminiscent of that of the 9/11 hijackers. In 2009 AirTran Airways removed nine Muslim passengers, including three children, from a flight and turned them over to the FBI after one of the men commented to another that they were sitting right next to the engines and wondered aloud where the safest place to sit on the plane was. Although the FBI subsequently cleared the passengers and called the incident a "misunderstanding", AirTran refused to seat the passengers on another flight, forcing them to purchase last minute tickets on another airline that had been secured with the FBI's assistance. A spokesman for AirTran initially defended the airline's actions and said they would not reimburse the passengers for the cost of the new tickets. Although the men had traditional beards and the women headscarves, AirTran denied that their actions were based on the passengers' appearance. The following day, after the incident received widespread media coverage, AirTran reversed its position and issued a public apology, adding that it would in fact reimburse the passengers for the cost of their rebooked tickets. Southwest Airlines incidents: On November 18, 2015, in two separate incidents, passengers at Midway Airport were allegedly not permitted to fly aboard Southwest Airlines flights when other passengers claimed to be afraid to fly with them because they were speaking Arabic, or appeared to be Muslim. The refusal sparked widespread condemnation on the airline's social media pages and received prominent coverage, in the US and internationally, accompanied by calls for a boycott of the airline. According to The Economist, "in the two Southwest cases, it was the passengers themselves conducting their own vigilante profiling; the airline was merely bowing to their demands." On April 6, 2016, Southwest Airlines removed a passenger from a flight at Los Angeles International Airport for speaking Arabic before pushback. The FBI detained the passenger, searched his belongings and questioned him for several hours. A Southwest spokesperson declined to apologize and defended Southwest's decisions by saying "We will not be apologizing for following our obligation to adhere to established procedures". The passenger, Khairuldeen Makhzoomi, an Iraqi refugee, later said that those actions were "playing straight into the rhetoric of the Islamic State—they fall into the trap" and, "That is when I couldn't handle it and my eyes began to water ... the way they searched me and the dogs, the officers, people were watching me and the humiliation made me so afraid because it brought all of these memories back to me. I escaped Iraq because of the war, because of Saddam and what he did to my father." On April 15, 2016, Southwest removed a Muslim passenger from a flight at Midway Airport after she traded seats with several other passengers. A spokesperson from the Council on American–Islamic Relations called on Southwest to explain their actions and the passenger's husband said "She was humiliated because of her religion and the way she dressed".

Wednesday, March 28, 2018

mental image

i can't get the mental image of someone finding 2 elders to help me find a Sunday school wishing i'd ditched

Tuesday, March 27, 2018


so i tried being helpful to my mom since she's taking 2 of my brothers to a couple college visits. i offered to help them get some food for the trip. i told my brothers eat as much as they could for reasons: 1) time to get to 1 college area and 2) not 100% sure if they were going to stop off for food.

goofball with the camera

that's me: goofball with the camera. i'm usually the 1 taking photos and videos of everyone.

aw you remembered

when i wanted to meet with the bishop he asked about my muscle disorder. i'm thinking like, "you remembered those?" that was sweet he remembered my muscle disorder. nearly everyone who knows about them remembers them.

Monday, March 26, 2018

hell for me

what i find torturous is being nice. the reason: i like doing things myself. there's nothing wrong with a little help once in a while it's overly nice

Sunday, March 25, 2018

can't unsee

if your 1 of the lucky few who has NEVER heard of or seen the human centipede than good. i can't say this enough (and ask anyone who has heard of it or seen it) and ask about their nightmares. it's scary beyond belief. i saw the trailer and i got nightmares from that.

Ricky McCormick's encrypted notes

this looks like a for forensic linguistics or something. Two hand-written documents were found in the pockets of murder victim Ricky McCormick when his body was discovered in a field in St. Charles County, Missouri, on June 30, 1999. Attempts by the FBI's Cryptanalysis and Racketeering Records Unit (CRRU) and the American Cryptogram Association failed to decipher the meanings of those two coded notes, which are listed as one of the CRRU’s top unsolved cases. On March 29, 2011, the U.S. Federal Bureau of Investigation issued an appeal for help from the public in obtaining the meaning of the messages. A few days later, they updated their website to note the "outpouring of responses", and established a separate page where the public can offer comments and theories. Murder- Victim: McCormick was a high school dropout who had held multiple addresses in the Missouri/Illinois regions of St. Louis, Belleville, and Fairview Heights, sometimes living off and on with his elderly mother. According to a 1999 article in the St. Louis Post-Dispatch, McCormick suffered from chronic heart and lung problems. He was not married, but had fathered at least four children. He had a criminal record, and had previously served 11 months of a three-year sentence for statutory rape. At the time of his death, he was 41 years old, unemployed, and on disability. Discovery of body: McCormick's body was found on June 30, 1999 near a West Alton, Missouri cornfield by a woman driving along a field road off Route 367. The reason he was 15 miles away from his current address is another mystery, as he did not own a car and the area is not served by public transportation. Though the body had already somewhat decomposed, authorities used fingerprints to identify McCormick. There was no indication that anyone had a motive to kill McCormick and no one had reported him missing, so the authorities initially ruled out homicide, but no cause of death was officially determined at the time. McCormick was last seen alive five days earlier, on June 25, 1999, getting a checkup at St. Louis' now-defunct Forest Park Hospital. Description: News stories in 1999 did not mention anything about cipher messages, which were not announced until 12 years later when the FBI listed the death as a murder, and posted a notice for help on the main page of their website. Investigators believe the notes in McCormick’s pants pockets were written within the three days before his death. The two notes are written in an unknown code consisting of "a jumble of letters and numbers occasionally set off with parentheses" and are believed by the FBI to possibly lead to those responsible for the killing. Dan Olson, chief of the FBI’s Cryptanalysis and Racketeering Records Unit, said, illustrating the significance of the notes, "Breaking the code could reveal the victim’s whereabouts before his death and could lead to the solution of a homicide.” Attempts by both the FBI's Cryptanalysis and Racketeering Records Unit (CRRU) and the American Cryptogram Association failed to decipher their meaning, and Ricky McCormick’s encrypted notes are currently listed as one of CRRU’s top unsolved cases, with McCormick's killer yet to be identified. According to members of McCormick's family, Ricky had used encrypted notes since he was a boy, but apparently no one in his family knows how to decipher the codes, either. The FBI has had so many responses with suggestions for the cipher, that they later requested helpers to not call by phone nor use email. An FBI news release has stated, "This story has generated an outpouring of responses. To accommodate the continuing interest in this case, we have established a page where the public can offer their comments and theories about the coded messages." Criticism: In a 2012 interview by the Riverfront Times (June 14–20, Vol. 36, #24, pp. 8–15) McCormick's "family members say they never knew of Ricky to write in code. They say they only told investigators he sometimes jotted down nonsense he called writing, and they seriously question McCormick's capacity to craft the notes found in his pockets." His mother, Frankie Sparks, said "The only thing he could write was his name. ... He didn't write in no code." His father, Charles McCormick, said "Ricky couldn't spell anything, just scribble." It was also noted that although other contents of the victim's pockets were revealed to the family members, they knew nothing about the notes "until the local evening news broadcast a report on the codes" twelve years later.

Saturday, March 24, 2018


Once a little girl was hugging everyone when she left for the day. Her BFF was like, "wah my best friend is leaving me". The girl hugged her friends, her teachers and her grandma. Before she hugged her grandma a woman was like, "can I have a huggie?" And the little girl ran to her grandma saying "grandma. I don't know this person." The mom gave the woman a hug

Friday, March 23, 2018

Thursday, March 22, 2018

Oak Grove Jane Doe

Oak Grove Jane Doe is an unidentified murder victim found dismembered in the Willamette River south of Portland, Oregon near Oak Grove over a period of several months in 1946. Media at the time referred to the case as the Wisdom Light Murder, as the initial discovery of the woman's torso occurred near the Wisdom Light moor in April 1946. Portions of the woman's body were recovered from the river over the following six months, with her head ultimately being discovered in October 1946. The case received national media attention, appearing on the front page of numerous news outlets, but her identity and killer remains unsolved. In 2004 her murder case was formally reopened, but remains a cold case. The evidence as well as the woman's remains were lost by law enforcement some time in the 1950's, rendering contemporary DNA testing impossible. Discovery: On April 12, 1946, three people walking along the bank of the Willamette River near Oak Grove, Oregon (south of Portland) discovered a burlap sack floating in an eddy offshore. Inside, they found the torso of a caucasian female, along with clothing and curtain sash weights. Initially, the individuals who found the sack believed it was a "sack of drowned kittens." The following day, April 13, the woman's right thigh and both arms were discovered in the river in similar burlap packaging, floating above Willamette Falls, approximately 6 miles (9.7 km) from the location where the torso was discovered. Sash weights were also discovered in the package containing the arms and thigh, and it had been wound with telephone wire. The hands had been severed from the arms, and the foot severed from the leg, neither of which could be located. Two fishermen made the discovery, and told authorities they had noticed the burlap package floating in the area at least 30 days prior, but did not immediately find it suspicious; however, after reading of the discovery of the torso downstream, they returned to the area, and found the package still floating against the falls' lock system, after which they notified law enforcement. Three months later, in July 1946, the woman's left thigh was discovered floating under the Oregon City Bridge near McLoughlin Boulevard. In September, "what appeared to be fragments of a human scalp" were discovered near Willamette Falls. The following month, on October 13, 1946, a package containing the woman's severed head was found near the location her torso had been discovered by a married couple from Oak Grove. The hands and feet of the woman were never recovered. At the time, the murder was referred to by the media as the Wisdom Light Murder, based on the fact that the torso had been discovered near the Wisdom Light moor. Investigation- Initial: Dr. Warren Hunter, a pathologist from the University of Oregon medical school, examined the torso upon its April 12, 1946 discovery, and estimated it was a female "past middle age...about 50." It was also believed that the torso had been placed in the water no more than 36 hours prior to its discovery. Prior to the pathologist's analysis, local newspapers had reported the body was of a girl in her "teens or early twenties," resulting in a barrage of phone calls to law enforcement from concerned parents. The pathologist concluded the woman was between 5 feet 2 inches (1.57 m) and 5 feet 4 inches (1.63 m) tall, weighed approximately 140 pounds (64 kg) to 150 pounds (68 kg), and had light brown hair. The lower portion of the torso showed burn marks, possibly from a blow torch, leading police to believe the victim had been tortured. The day after the torso was discovered, on April 14, 1946, a false confession was made by a man from a telephone booth in Milwaukie; the man claimed to have known the woman's identity, as well as the location where she had been dismembered. Law enforcement however determined the call was a prank, and dismissed any connection to the murder. On September 9, 1946, it was reported by the Albany Democrat-Herald that law enforcement were investigating a possible connection between the remains and Marie Nastos, a 47-year-old woman from Seattle, Washington, who had gone missing on August 24, 1945 en route to Seattle after a trip to Wenatchee. Nastos matched the physical description of the victim, standing at 5 feet 2 inches (1.57 m), weighing approximately 120 pounds (54 kg), and having brown hair. Upon the discovery of the victim's head in October 1946, it was revealed the woman wore dentures. The cause of death was determined to have been blunt-force trauma to the head. After death, the victim was dismembered—potentially via saw—and disposed of in the river. Law enforcement at the time investigated a potential connection between the woman and two missing persons cases in California and Indiana, but were unable to make a connection between the two. In July 1951, agents from the Federal Bureau of Investigation interviewed convicted murderer Roy Moore from his prison cell in North Carolina; he purportedly recounted in detail his murder and dismemberment of a woman who he claimed to have disposed of in the Molalla River, but provided no information linking him to the Oak Grove Jane Doe. 2004 reopening: In 2004, the case was formally reopened by the Clackamas County Police Department. In a 2017 interview with Portland Police Bureau cold case detective John Krummenacker, it was revealed that evidence in the case—including the location of the woman's clothing, jawbone, dentures, and other remains—were unknown. It is believed the evidence was lost sometime in the 1950's. In the 2016 book Murder and Scandal in Prohibition Portland: Sex, Vice & Misdeeds in Mayor Baker's Reign it was written that "no new leads" have surfaced in the woman's murder, and "there is little hope of ever being able to solve the case" based on the lack of living witnesses and the loss of remains and other physical documentation. Theories: Crime writers J.D. Chandler and Joshua Fisher speculated that the identity of the woman was Anna Schrader, a married Portland woman who allegedly had an affair with William Breunning, a married police lieutenant. In 1929, Schrader and Breunning had a heated argument in which a gun was fired; Breunning stopped Schrader by jumping on top of her, and turn broke several of her ribs. In April 1946, around the time the body was discovered, The Oregonian ran a notice seeking Anna Schrader, who had disappeared; she had previously told friends she was considering moving to Minnesota, but as of 2017, no public records of residence or her death are known. Local crime writer Theresa Griffin-Kennedy also stated that the Jane Doe's remains matched the physical description of Schrader.

Wednesday, March 21, 2018

Where is Emily?

One New Year’s Eve someone tells a story and the suspects’ story has an airtight alibi. But where is Emily? Does she even exist? Or is she a figment of several people’s imagination? Here is the incredible story of 2 girls a mix up and a question, “what happened that faithful new year’s eve?” It was late. Sometime near midnight. A witness sees someone they say is talking to a girl. The girl has fire red hair. The suspect talking to the girl is about taller than the witness and blonde. They talk. Both know a boy from Northwest. The next morning the boy they both know storms into the suspects’ room shouting, “What’d you say to Candy?” The suspect claims their innocence saying they never talked to Candy. The boy says, “of course you know her. You talked to her. You hung out with her last night.” The girl with the streaked hair proclaims her innocence. The witness says it’s the girl with the streaked hair. The witness tells investigators it’s the girl with the blonde streak. The girl swears up and down it’s not her. She claims she has an air tight alibi: her best friend. They were together all night. The mother of the suspect also is told the girl with the streaked hair is the one who talked to Candy. Can the girl with the blonde streaked hair prove that she was the one who had the alibi? Or can’t she? Will justice prevail or will an innocent girl be framed for something she didn’t do and stuff her didn’t say? What is the truth about that New Year’s night in 2011 and who was with “Candy” that night talking? Where is this “Emily”? Was she there as the suspect now claims? Or was she made up to give the suspect an alibi? Pick a side and we’ll see if you are right. What evidence is there to help the prosecution’s claim of the blonde streaked girl talking to his friend? How reliable is the eye witness’ account of the blonde streaked girl talking to her? What about the defenses claim of the air tight alibi? Was there even an alibi? Does the defense team have any tricks up their sleeves? Are there any witnesses to the streaked girl’s story? Can that story be corroborated at all? Is it all biased on hearsay and eye witnesses? Was there someone else talking to “Candy” that night back in 2011? What really happened when the eye witness is wrong? Is the eye witness wrong and is the suspect right? What really happened back on that fateful night back in December 31st 2011? Is there really a need for such a fuss when the person was wrong? When will it happen again? Will it happen again? Most cases with eye witness are falsely identified. The prosecution claims its one person while another says it’s not them. They claim it. They have false convictions because of it. The prosecution will convict because of bad eye witnesses. The witnesses will convict due to several factors such as: relationship with the suspect/ victim. In this case the witness sees it and informs the suspects’ mother and brother. The brother wants to get information out of the suspect but can’t get anything out of her. The suspect tries her mother. The mother says that she (the suspect) was with “Candy” talking that night. The suspect can’t believe it. Did she really ditch her friend and talk to this “Candy”? She refuses to believe it. She claims unless she was in the restroom or her friend was in the restroom she was with her friend all night. There was that unaccounted for time; that “window of opportunity” that the suspect COULD have talked to her. The defense team said that she (the suspect) was here they left each other to “take care of their business”. They also claimed that her friend had some qualms with meeting and hanging out with new people. They claimed the friend wanted to go upstairs and watch Harry Potter but the suspect made her go down stairs and hang out with others. The friend was reluctant but gave in. The brother thinks this is a ploy to have an “alibi”. The only problem was that the brother, the mother and the alleged suspect knew her alibi. The mother made the suspect stick to her. She stayed true to her word. She stuck to her friend like glue and had her do things out of her friend’s comfort zone. She helped alleviate the girl’s qualms. But what really happened in the unaccounted for times when the girls had to “take care of business”? Did the witness tell the truth or mix up the people? Was the suspect really a suspect or was she not even an element in this? How much taller was this girl with the “blonde hair” than the witness? Where was the suspect’s friend? Was there even a friend? If the witness actually mixed up then who was talking with “Candy”? Did the lighting affect who the person is? It certainly can confuse people. As can time of day, how many people are in an area and how attentive a person is. Here is the account from every angle. Sometime during the night there were 2 girls talking. One had red hair and the other one had dyed blonde hair. I thought it looked like one of my former charges. I thought I saw her talking to one of the boys’ girlfriends. She was taller than I am. I thought she was Jackie. I told her mom that “Jackie was talking with Candy.” Jackie’s mom told Hunter that his sister was talking with one of his friends with the party. Then Hunter opened Jackie’s door demanding to know what she’d said to Candy. Jackie claimed she knew nothing of what happened. “My brother abruptly opened the door and yelled, ‘what’d you say to her last night’?” Jackie tells me. “I say, ‘what? You aren’t making any sense. I was with Emily ALL NIGHT stupid’.” Naturally her brother doesn’t believe her and tells her to tell him what he was talking about with Candy the other night. Jackie swears up and down she never talked to her let alone spent any significant time with the girl. She says she may’ve seen her in passing but nothing else.

Claremont serial murders

The Claremont serial murders is the name given by the media to a case involving the murder of two young Australian women, aged 23 and 27 and the disappearance of a third, aged 18 in 1996 and 1997 in Claremont, a wealthy western suburb of Perth, Western Australia. All three women disappeared in similar circumstances after attending night spots in Claremont, leading police to suspect that an unidentified serial killer was the offender. Background of the case: The case began with the disappearance of Sarah Spiers, 18, on 26 January 1996, after she left a nightclub in the centre of Claremont. Her disappearance was described by her friends and family as out of character and attracted massive publicity. Spiers had apparently called a taxi from a phone booth but was not present when the responding vehicle arrived, and her fate is unknown. Some months later, on 9 June 1996, Jane Rimmer, 23, disappeared from the same part of Claremont. Her body was found in bushland near Woolcoot Road, Wellard, in August 1996. On 14 March 1997, Ciara Glennon, a 27-year-old lawyer, disappeared from the Claremont area. Her body was found on 3 April, near a track in scrub off Pipidinny Road in Eglinton, a northern suburb of Perth. After this murder police confirmed that they were searching for a serial killer. Each of the women had attended a pub called The Continental (later renamed The Red Rock and now known as The Claremont Hotel) and/or the nightclub Club Bayview. Possibly related cases: It has been suggested by Liam Bartlett, a journalist, that Sarah Spiers was not the first victim. He wrote that police have told the father of a fourth missing woman, 22-year-old Julie Cutler, that his daughter was probably a victim of the Claremont killer. Cutler, a university student, from Fremantle, vanished after leaving a staff function at the Parmelia Hilton Hotel in Perth at 9:00 pm, one night in 1988. Her car was found in the surf near the groyne at Cottesloe Beach two days later. Her fate is also unknown. Investigation and speculation in the case: The Western Australian Police established a special task force to investigate the case. It was given the name "Macro". Several phases have elapsed in the course of the continuing work of the task force. Initial suspicion focused on the taxi-drivers of Perth because of the women last seen in circumstances where they may have been seeking taxi service. There had also been a predisposition to this possibility because of reports from late 1995 of possible improper conduct by some drivers. A massive DNA-testing exercise was carried out to cover all of the taxi drivers licensed in Western Australia; a group of more than two thousand. A thorough review of the character/background standards for drivers was conducted and led to drivers with any significant criminal history being de-licensed. Training for drivers and examining standards for license eligibility were raised. Stricter standards were also applied to verifying that decommissioned taxi vehicles were stripped of any insignia and equipment that could be used to falsely purport that a vehicle was a taxi. While this had the beneficial side-effect of improving the quality of the taxi service and enhancing the confidence of the public in using it, the investigation itself does not appear to have progressed. In the next major development, a junior officer of the Western Australian Public Service was targeted by police as the prime suspect, after he attracted their attention during a decoy operation. The suspect made himself known to the media and asserted his innocence. He was subjected to a high level of overt surveillance, apparently with the purpose of prompting a confession. Although this continued for several years, the suspect maintained his innocence and appears to have intact alibis. The police declared late 2008 that he was "no longer a person of interest". It was reported that police also investigated whether Bradley John Murdoch, the convicted killer of British tourist Peter Falconio may have been involved, although Murdoch was serving a custodial sentence from November 1995 until February 1997. One of the tactics used by the Macro Task-force was the distribution of questionnaires to "persons of interest", including various confrontational enquiries such as "Are you the killer?" The utility of this approach was disputed and the choice of persons to whom they were sent was controversial. One was a prominent civil libertarian and local government figure, Peter Weygers. He was mayor of the Town of Claremont at the time of the women's disappearance/demise and was involved in some disputes with the victims' families concerning the duty of care of the local authority in securing the district. He also was leasing a premises to a taxi-driver who attracted police attention to himself by claiming to have transported Sarah Spiers in his taxi shortly before her disappearance. Weygers' premises were raided by the police and he and his tenant were obliged to give samples for DNA testing.[20] As with other avenues of investigation, nothing was to come of it. In October 2006, it was announced that Mark Dixie (AKA Shane Turner), who was convicted in the United Kingdom for the 2005 murder of 18-year-old model Sally Anne Bowman, was a prime suspect in the killings, and the WA Police's Macro Taskforce requested DNA samples from Dixie to test against evidence taken during the inquiry. However, WA Police Deputy Commissioner Murray Lampard was later quoted as saying "Dixie was closely investigated at the time and eventually ruled out as a suspect." In a memoir titled The End of Innocence, published in 2007, Estelle Blackburn, a Western Australian journalist and author, speculated that her former partner, who had assaulted and threatened many times to kill her, may be the killer; claiming that he had performed maintenance on taxi vehicles and often had overnight access to them. This was further explored in a two-part episode of the ABC's television programme, Australian Story, in November 2007. Arrest in the case: A man was arrested on 22 December 2016, with regard to the wilful murder of both Jane Rimmer and Ciara Glennon. According to a report by ABC News, the man is believed to have no previous link to the case. The man, Bradley Robert Edwards, was subsequently charged with both murders on 23 December 2016. He has also been charged in relation to two other alleged attacks, one against a 17-year-old girl in Claremont in 1995, and the other against an 18-year-old woman in Huntingdale in 1988. On 22 February 2018, Edwards was also charged with the wilful murder of the third victim, Sarah Spiers. Media of the case: -The End of Innocence, published in 2007 by Estelle Blackburn, -ABC's television programme, Australian Story, in November 2007. -The case was also covered by Casefile True Crime Podcast on 20 August 2016.

Tuesday, March 20, 2018

Another break

I've got another short "break" after my real spring break. No classes till Monday. Yay.

Saturday, March 17, 2018

the 1st time

the 1st time i got my eyebrows and upper lip waxed i hated it and never wanted it again. that was over a decade ago and i hated it. i felt like a candle. now i'm OK with it despite it annoying.

go to McDonald's

a couple times i went to McDonald's and heard my favorite song by my favorite artist. once it said, "go to McDonald's". i'm like OK and i got something small and i heard the song. another time i went and forgot my book and my favorite song played.

St. Charles County Jane Doe

The body of a white girl aged 2 to 3 years was discovered inside a suitcase that had been thrown into Lake Alton in West Alton, Missouri, in St. Charles County on February 1, 1968. The child's remains were recovered by a fisherman who had hooked his line on the suitcase, which had been wrapped in clothesline and weighted with barbells. The girl had long, blond hair; her eye color could not be determined. She was about 2 feet 8 inches tall and weighed between 35 and 40 pounds. Distinctive features noted on the remains were an abnormally large tooth and a scar near one of the eyes. Her body had decomposed somewhat and had been in the water for an estimated "few weeks" after her death. After an image of the child was constructed by the National Center for Missing and Exploited Children in September 2015, the body was exhumed on September 24, 2015, from an unmarked grave to obtain DNA information. It was later announced that the DNA testing was unsuccessful. She was identified then as a homicide victim, but authorities declined to explain what method was used to kill her. Exhumation would yield a more accurate estimation of the girl's age at the time of her death. If her skull were still in reasonable condition, it could be studied to create a more accurate image.

Wednesday, March 14, 2018

Tuesday, March 13, 2018

Harry potter phone case

For some reason everyone loves my Harry potter phone case. I mean yeah its a cool phone case but why is my case more interesting than others?

muscle disorder

i was born with it and i've got to check if i can get a drivers license and maintain 1.


i often yell "eat the veggie tray" to my brothers. it's funny since it sounds like a tray is made out of veggies

Monday, March 12, 2018

Disappearance of Charity Aiyedogbon

Charity Aiyedogbon is a Nigerian businesswoman who vanished without a trace on 10 May 2016 in Abuja. Her whereabouts remain unknown. Background of the case: Charity was a businesswoman who owned a joint venture called Chavid Limited (a combination of her name "Charity" and her husband's name "David"), which consisted of a fashion-design business and a restaurant, also located in Abuja. She was a mother of four children, estranged from her husband of 15 years, David Aiyedogbon, and was living in a rented apartment. Besides her business activities, Charity was also active on Facebook prior to her disappearance, where she was popularly known by the name "Deepdeal Chacha De Hammer" and was a member of a Facebook group "FEMALE IN NIGERIA" (FIN). According to information from her Facebook friends, her last known update on social media was made on 11 May 2016 in the form of a photograph of herself sitting in a vehicle with the words "going on a road trip" at about 9:11 AM. Investigations into her disappearance: It became apparent that Charity had previously received threats to her safety from some undisclosed individuals in the days before her disappearance. Her friends revealed that the threats prompted her to contract a technician to install CCTV cameras in her apartment. After her disappearance, all attempts to contact her though her mobile phone were unsuccessful. Charity's case was reported to the Gwarimpa Police Division in Abuja. Investigators gained access into her Abuja apartment with the help of her landlady and some security personnel. Further investigations revealed that there was no indication that she had planned to go on any trip, as she had no bag packed and every item in her apartment was in order. A pot of stew was still on the cooker. Investigative efforts to retrieve her call logs revealed that the last call from her phone was made on 9 May, to a number registered to an individual named Rabi Mohammed. The last received call from another number showed the same date. The Federal Capital Territory Police Command arrested some suspects in connection with her disappearance (who were later released), while her vehicle and two mobile phones were recovered. Aftermath of her disappearance: A Nigerian lawyer, Emeka Ugwonye, accused Charity's estranged husband David of being involved in her disappearance. However, no concrete evidence could be found to implicate him. David later sued the lawyer for defamation. Some have gone on further to question the professionalism and claims of the lawyer. Charity's eldest daughter, Juliet, received backlash on social media for planning to proceed with her wedding while her mother was recently declared missing. However, the wedding was postponed indefinitely as a result of further controversy following Ugwuonye's claims about her missing mother. Various support groups have emerged to bring justice for Charity The dismembered corpse of an unidentified woman discovered in Abuja was rumoured to belong to Charity. However, no DNA test has been conducted by the police to confirm her identity. To date, no conclusion has been drawn regarding the dismembered body. Charity is still declared missing.

Sunday, March 11, 2018

disappearing act

i did a disappearing act on my friends several times. namely since i have a divorce schedule.

why me?

why am i always the center of attention when i don't want it?

not missing much

if you don't drink or smoke your not missing much. it's OK but not something i'd do often. if you do drink or smoke: more power to you.

Saturday, March 10, 2018

i don't know how that happened

i don't understand how i convinced my dad to take me to the singles ward. i know how i did it. i mentioned my friends and he agreed to me.

Cassie Bernall

Cassie René Bernall was a student killed in the Columbine High School massacre at age 17. It was initially reported that Bernall had been asked whether or not she believed in God before being shot during the massacre, though further examinations of witness testimony revealed that Bernall was not asked anything before she was shot. In September 2000, Bernall's mother, Misty, released the book She Said Yes: The Unlikely Martyrdom of Cassie Bernall. In it, Misty describes her daughter's turbulent teenage life, spiritual conversion and Christian faith. Biography: Cassie was born to Misty and Brad Bernall on November 6, 1981. Along with her brother Chris, she was brought up in a Christian home. According to her parents, Cassie rebelled as a young teenager and began using drugs and alcohol. Her parents state that at one point Cassie became suicidal. Her mother found letters in Cassie's bedroom discussing her thoughts of killing her parents, and they decided to send her to a new school, Columbine High School, for a new start. A year and a half before her death, Cassie decided to go on a weekend church retreat and restored her faith. Cassie's father Brad said "When she came back from that retreat, she was an entirely different person. We had gotten our daughter back." Death: Cassie was killed by Eric Harris during the Columbine massacre on April 20, 1999. According to witness Emily Wyant, who was hiding under the same table as Bernall, Harris slammed his hand down on the table above them and said "peek-a-boo" before fatally shooting Bernall. Cassie's family wasn't informed of her death until two days after the massacre. Controversy surrounding martrydom claims: Craig Scott, a student who was also in the library during the massacre, told investigators that he had heard one of the shooters ask a victim whether or not they believed in God during the shooting, and the victim answer "Yes." Scott said that he recognized the voice as Cassie's, however he did not see the exchange happen as he was hiding under the table at the time. Investigators later took Scott back into the library and asked him to point to where he had heard the exchange come from. He did not point to where Cassie had been in the library, but rather pointed to where Valeen Schnurr, another student that had been shot in the massacre, had been hiding. Valeen Schnurr had been shot and was on the floor of the library when one of the shooters, Dylan Klebold approached her. She said, "Oh, my God, oh, my God, don't let me die." Klebold asked her if she believed in God. She said yes, and he asked why. She responded "Because I believe and my parents brought me up that way." Klebold reloaded but did not shoot her again, and Schnurr ultimately survived the massacre. Some media publicized the story of Cassie being asked about her belief in God before her death. The story persisted even decades later. In 2015, Rick Santorum brought up the myth during a Republican presidential debate, saying "16 years ago this country was tremendously inspired by a young woman who faced a gunman in Columbine and was challenged about her faith, and refused to deny God." She Said Yes: The Unlikely Martyrdom of Cassie Bernall: In October 1999, Cassie's mother Misty Bernall authored a book She Said Yes: The Unlikely Martyrdom of Cassie Bernall. The book reached No. 8 on The New York Times best-sellers list. In the book, Misty Bernall reaffirmed the story that her daughter was asked if she believed in God before she died, despite being told by investigators that the question had not been asked. Cassie's friend Emily Wyant, who was next to Cassie in the library when she was shot, also told the family that the question had not been asked. Among doubt, the Bernalls issued a statement standing behind the accuracy of their book, saying they had spoken to 4 witnesses who had told them that Cassie had defended her faith before being killed. However, the book ultimately leaves it up to the audience to make up their own mind about what happened. Legacy: Bernall’s presentation as a Christian martyr has led to her serving as the inspiration for several songs, including Flyleaf's "Cassie" and Michael W. Smith's "This Is Your Time". The video for "This Is Your Time" includes a short clip at its beginning of Bernall talking about her beliefs.


i got a sympathy card from my visiting teacher back in December and my mom opened it on accident. i just got the card today despite it being back in december

Friday, March 9, 2018

wouldn't have to pay them

when i mentioned my friends from church helping out we "wouldn't have to pay them". i'd like to give them some type of compensation.

excuse to party

since my baptism was an excuse to party it was fun. i loved it since i had little to do.

Brabant killers

this is 1 i've never heard of. The Brabant killers (also the Nijvel Gang (Dutch: De Bende van Nijvel, French: Les Tueurs fous du Brabant Wallon) are believed responsible for a series of violent attacks that mainly occurred in the Belgian province of Brabant between 1982 and 1985. Twenty-eight people died and 40 were injured. The actions of the gang, believed to consist of several people who assisted a core of three men, made it Belgium's most notorious crime spree. The active participants were known as: The Giant (a tall man who may have been the leader); the Killer (the main shooter) and the Old Man (a middle aged man who drove). The identities and whereabouts of the "Brabant killers" are unknown although one may have been killed after the last known robbery. Failure to catch the gang was a major impetus behind the reform of the Belgian police. There have been many theories of ulterior motives behind the crimes. Method of operation: Some evidence police found indicated the gang were professional criminals involved in drugs and burglaries. On the other hand, odd elements were also evident: -Robbery proceeds were modest relative to the extreme risks; -The killings escalated dramatically in 1985. Bystanders were shot dead in the parking lot before the gang entered the supermarkets; other victims, including children, were shot from as close as a foot away while cowering on floors; -Firearms were a particular interest; the 12-gauge pump shotguns used were loaded with a rare, heavy buckshot; -Cars used, often Volkswagens, were stripped of distinctive trim; vehicle modifications indicated a mechanic's expertise; -The getaway driver was highly skilled; escape routes were fast and non-obvious, often to forested areas where the cars were burned. -The gang is believed to have had at least one outside helper on its last raid. The weapons the gang used were found in 1987 in a channel about 30 km outside Brussels. Ulterior motives- Official complicity: The last gang robbery (despite patrols checking the supermarket every twenty minutes) led to rumors of them having some kind of inside knowledge and possibly complicity by individual gendarmes in the attacks. Nearby Gendarmerie vehicles (which had an Uzi in a compartment) did not engage or pursue the gang. The Belgian "stay-behind" network SDRA8 (Gladio) — operating as a secret branch of the Belgian military service — was suggested by some to have links to the gang. Some units of the stay-behind network were made up of members of the Belgian Gendarmerie. One theory was that the communist threat in Western Europe was taken as justifying Operation Gladio being activated. However, the Belgian parliamentary inquiry into Gladio found no substantive evidence that Gladio was involved in any terrorist acts or that criminal groups had infiltrated the stay-behind network. The Belgian Gendarmerie were abolished in reforms that came as a result of a perceived lack of satisfactory performance in the Brabant killers case, and that of Marc Dutroux. Westland New Post: The NATO 'Stay Behind' explanation for the Brabant incidents was explored in a 1992 BBC Timewatch series named 'Operation Gladio', directed by Allan Francovich. The program centered on a by-then defunct private Belgian far right anti-communist organization named Westland New Post. The leader, Paul Latinus, said he was working with government agencies along the same lines as Gladio. Many people believe Latinus fabricated contacts with secret government agencies to boost his prestige among WNP followers. The main WNP connection to the Brabant killers was that members — including some Gendarmerie — recalled being ordered in the early eighties to covertly surveil and compile a report on security arrangements at various Belgian supermarkets. Some of the markets were in a large chain that was the main target of the later killings. WNP had a genuine intelligence operative advising on covert techniques; NATO behind-the-lines units are known to have used the planning of robberies as a training exercise. Michel Libert, the former second-in-command of Westland New Post, has never denied passing on the covert-supermarket-surveillance orders. He has denied having anything more to do with the matter. He said he was not told by Latinus what the purpose was behind the assignments. In 1983 Libert had been staying with Marcel Barbier, a WNP member, when the latter was arrested for using a weapon in a street fight and became a suspect in a double murder at a synagogue a year earlier. When police then began investigating WNP, Latinus told them that Barbier and another WNP member were behind the synagogue murders, and that Latinus had helped Barbier get rid of the murder weapon as well as other pieces of evidence. Barbier was the only person convicted for these murders; his co-accused, who was acquitted, but later convicted, of a similar double murder of diamond merchants, appeared in a Belgian TV program in 2014, where he alleged WNP was behind the Brabant killings. This claim was based on WNP apparently having compiled information on the premises raided. Libert was arrested as a suspect soon after the program was broadcast, but released without charge after 48 hours. Other speculation: Various conspiracy theories link the killings to political scandals, suggesting they were done to disguise a targeted assassination. In one version, connecting the killings to illegal gun-running mafias and legitimate businesses, a banker by the name of Léon Finné, who was shot by the gang in Overijse, was supposedly targeted deliberately. Possible suspects: Notorious professional criminals, including Patrick Haemers and Madani Bouhouche (both deceased) have been indicated as likely suspects. Haemers's height made him an apparent fit for the Brabant gang's 'Giant'. On the other hand, his known crimes lacked the gratuitous violence and small-time takings that were the Brabant killers' hallmark. Bouhouche was an ex-policeman convicted of two murders and linked to several notorious crimes of the era. Investigation: In 1983, on the basis of a forensic examination of a weapon, authorities charged the gun owner (a former municipal policeman) and several other men with the Brabant killings. Police said they obtained statements from the men under interrogation. However, the Brabant killers' Orhain raid (Oct. 2nd, 1983) occurred while the accused were in detention. It later came out that a German laboratory had concluded that the examined weapon (a pistol) had not been used in the robberies. Charges against the "Borains," as the men were known, were eventually dropped. The law enforcement agencies hunting the killers made many mistakes during the early years of the investigation. Among them were the mishandling of fingerprints believed to have belonged to one of the killers. These fingerprints were either destroyed or simply lost. The investigating magistrate was criticized for lack of professionalism in handling evidence and not considering alternatives to his theories about the case. He was later replaced. Current lines of inquiry: One suspect was C.B., nicknamed "The Giant". He was a police officer and member of the elite group Diane during and after the crimes. He passed away on May 14, 2015, before which he allegedly confessed to having committed the crimes to his brother. His brother only revealed the confession two years after the death, in October 2017. There were also a riot gun, other gun, bullets in a basket labelled "Gendarmerie-Politie", indicating it used to belong to the police, found in a canal, probably linked to the Brabant killers. Barring an extension to the statute of limitations, the gang members would no longer be punished for the crimes. The limit was due to run out November 10, 2015. The period was extended with 10 years in October 2015.

Thursday, March 8, 2018

know how to party

people from the LDS church know how to party. when i was baptized so many people came and there was so much food and everything. the days after i was woozy since i was recovering from the party... i mean baptism.


I've been struggling with a cold. it stinks since I've also got a bad back, diabetes and muscle spasms. luckily taking herbal remedies (such as herbal tea) and fresh air helps.

new home teacher

yesterday i found out about my new home teacher from my visiting teacher. yay. new home teacher.

Wednesday, March 7, 2018


i'm on spring break a of now. yay. i can sleep in


when i spoke last weekend a guy was really paying attention to me when i spoke.... again. guess i'm super pretty

Monday, March 5, 2018


why is it that public speaking makes people want to puke?

public speaking

i did some yesterday in church. it was nice but i was running on adrenaline. i was nervous and excited at the same time.

Saturday, March 3, 2018

a blessing

when i met with the bishop last summer i was upset since my dad forgot to get me and i'd missed the sacrament being given. i'd explained this along with i did instead of being in sacrament meeting (mainly crying and filling everyone in on what i was up to). unfortunately, my dad had the audacity to call me and apologize that his alarm didn't go off.... in the middle of the meeting with the bishop. when the meeting ended the bishop gave a prayer and asked for a blessing on me and my medical team on how they handle me. that makes me sad since i have family who also have issues.

Friday, March 2, 2018

Tomasz Mackiewicz

Tomasz Mackiewicz alias Czapkins is a Polish mountain climber. He went missing on January 27, 2018, near the summit of the 8,126 m high Nanga Parbat, known as the "Killer Mountain", in Pakistan. Early life and expeditions: Born in Działoszyn, Poland, Mackiewicz married twice and had two children from his first marriage and two from the second marriage. In 2008, Tomasz was awarded Colossi the feat of the year award along with Mark Klonowski for an extensive traverse of Mount Logan. In 2009 he summitted Khan Tengri 7,010 m as a solo climber. He tried several times to summit Nanga Parbat in winter. While climbing with Klonowski in 2015, he reached a height of 7,400 m and in 2016, along with the French climber Élisabeth Revol, he reached an altitude of 7,200 m on Nanga Parbat. Disappearance: On January 25, 2018, while attempting his seventh ascent of Nanga Parbat, known as the "Killer Mountain", in Pakistan, at 8,126 m , Mackiewicz along with French climber Elisabeth Revol had reached 7,400 m from the Diamer side. As the weather turned bad due to a snowstorm, Revol noticed Mackiewicz's bad condition and started taking him down. According to Revol, he could not walk, see or even communicate. She secured him from the wind, called for help and started her trip down the mountain. Mackiewicz had developed severe frostbite, altitude sickness and snow blindness while Revol had mild frostbite on five toes. Another Polish team that was attempting a nearby summit of K2 was called for rescue. On January 27, 2018 the rescue team, including Denis Urubko and Adam Bielecki, were dropped off by a helicopter at 4,900 m on the mountain. The team rescued Revol at 6,026 m and brought her to safety. Mackiewicz, who was believed to be at his tent at around 7,400 m, could not be rescued due to bad weather and a snowstorm. Ludovic Giambiasi, Revol's partner, wrote on a Facebook post: The rescue for Tomasz is unfortunately not possible - because of the weather and altitude it would put the life of rescuers in extreme danger, It’s a terrible and painful decision. ... All our thoughts go out to Tomek's family and friends. We are crying. Revol was later carried to Islamabad for treatment. Tomasz most likely died within 24 hours, but the cause is unknown and he has not been found since his disappearance.

forced me

when my grandpa passed away my mom made me: go to church and watch the Christmas devotional despite me wanting to become a zombie for 2 days until i had to go back to school. i was dragged to church and i told my mom i wanted to watch the devotional.

First Presidency's Christmas Devotional

First Presidency's Christmas Devotional (changed in 2014 from First Presidency Christmas Devotional) is an annual broadcast from Salt Lake City from the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, held on the evening of the first Sunday of December to begin the Christmas season. The first Christmas Devotional was held in 2009. Traditionally the meeting consists of music from the Mormon Tabernacle Choir and the Orchestra at Temple Square. In the past, the speakers consisted solely of members of the First Presidency, but of late this has changed. In 2015, for instance, one speaker was pulled from each of the Presidency of the Seventy, the Relief Society General Presidency, the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles, and the First Presidency. my mom made me watch this when i was bawling my eyes out when my grandfather passed away.


my plastic knitting needles are in. now i can try knitting again. maybe i'll make a better scarf.

Thursday, March 1, 2018


when i came up for my talk everyone cheered. it was like the spirit made everyone cheer me up. i nearly hissed for it.

big party

when i had my baptism it turned into this huge party with 30 people there and i was like. huge party. it lasted several hours (well maybe 3). it was great since my mom was there.


i'm not sure what's going on. i'm taking a ton of vitamins, getting adequate sleep (even getting MORE sleep thru napping frequently) and drinking coffee to get my energy levels steady.