Thursday, May 31, 2018

Pumpkin spice foods

Pumpkin spice foods: oh how I love thee. I love mine. It’s amazing since I like tasty foods. my mom gives me tons of stuff to the point of my breath smelling like pumpkin spice foods.

Wednesday, May 30, 2018

Healthy food

So my mom and I are trying to lose a few pounds so I promised since I'm at home more often I'd make food for us to eat. I usually do it for myself anyhow since I'm stuck at home more often. My mom likes Chinese food and smoothies and is trying to eat healthier so killing 2 birds with 1 stone

Tuesday, May 29, 2018

Chocolate almond milk

It tastes good. I thought it wouldn't because the unsweetened version isn't that tasty

Monday, May 28, 2018


My mom is trying to get me to join some groups she found online and my dad’s happy I found friends in the LDS church. I don’t mind joining groups outside school and church and stuff but since I’m naturally friendly I make friends very easily. Like I had a cookie and shared with this dude who I didn’t know. That was awesome since I’d made friend that easily. He and I hung out usually by dunkin donuts drinking coffee, talking and occasionally smoking (I sucked the filters). I usually prefer hanging out with people who AREN’T Mormon for a few reasons: they don’t judge me, I don’t feel pressure to express my beliefs and I can “be an example” for those around me. Usually in class I’m not there as a Mormon or a representative OF my church but when it’s not necessary to say what religion I am I don’t. I only mentioned being Mormon a few times since I had the ad for a funny Broadway musical. Some things they believe in I can understand why. Alcohol I don’t like the taste unless it’s super sweet. If I feel like I’d NEED an abortion (like rape, incest or health risk) I’d want 1.

My dads birthday

So on my dad's birthday we got fried chicken and had chocolate cake. I got a large piece since no one else asked for it. The cake was ultra sweet.

Looking for a summer job

Looking thru the want ads are so boring Hate doing it but if I want drug money I'll need a job Want an easy high paying job for my habit

Sunday, May 27, 2018

Friday, May 25, 2018

walking into church crying my eyes out

last summer i had to meet with the bishop and my dad couldn't get me there. i was crying and begged my brother to get me there. i bawled my eyes as i walked in. as i calmed down i caught people up on what i'm doing: i'd passed my exam and i gave up looking for a job.

my favorite character on total drama

my favorite character on total drama is Mal. his introduction is awesome. he was introduced by the full title "the malevolent one". he is a personality of 1 of the characters named Mike who has multiple personality disorder. Mal is the evil personality of Mike. Mal if you've never seen him looks like mike with his bangs cover 1 of his eyes.

i hate my life

so i told an elder goodbye for the time since my mom was there. he looked like i was there to say goodbye to him personally but i wasn't. also i think now that he wanted to meet my mom.

dying my hair blonde

i tried changing my hair color several times. it comes out and i'm left blonde. it was hilarious.

last living grandparent

if they didn't have a good relationship with a parent most wouldn't even bother keeping in touch. on the other hand if it's their kids last living grandparent..... i think (i hope) most people would grin and bear their teeth to have SOME sort of relationship with their kids last living grandparent. my dad didn't. between a trip to china (late 2010-2011) and last December my dad and his dad had a falling out. it's unknown what happened and why but my dad didn't want his dad in his live at that point. unfortunately, my paternal grandfather passed away unexpectedly last December. now they wont be able to make up for lost time. hope that never happens to me and my family

more friends

i love making friends. it's just i'd like to control how i interact with people. like i don't mind sitting with people, sharing hymn books and doing things with people. it's just i'd like to do things on my own terms.

let me come to you

i'm a big proponent of letting people come to me and vise versa. so please let me come to you if i want to.

chicken broth

although i say i'm a vegetarian i love drinking chicken broth. it's tasty, has salt to keep you at a normal level and is a convenient snack.

in love

so in high school i was preparing for my french oral exam. i felt someone was staring at me. i looked up from the paper i was reading and flicked my glasses to my nose. when i finally pushed them to where i could see a guy with his hands near his mouth looking at me lovingly. i said hi and went back to studying.

My aunt and I

I've been super close with my maternal aunt. My whole family is. When we found out about my aunt's breast cancer I was devastated. It was suggested I do family history since I wanted to be a forensic investigator. I cried and then explained my sadness to everyone. Luckily she's ok after her surgeries

Thursday, May 24, 2018

walked miles

i lost 10 pound on weight watchers. because of that i lost 40 pounds off my joints. i was able to walk several miles because of this. i'm going to be sore tomorrow but yay for weight loss.


when i went to the singles ward everyone was excited to see me. i'd went to game night 1 Friday night but had to go to the other ward due to 2 weekends being my dad's since 1 was naturally his and the other my mom was out of town so when i came to game night everyone was happy to see me and then i'd went to the other ward.

Tuesday, May 22, 2018


I still get flashbacks from the church in Hawaii. It was awesome and nice my mom found it. It was also unexpected

Introduce me

Why on earth was it the elders in Hawaii's job to introduce me. I can do it myself. Also getting stuff: if I can I prefer to do it myself

eat WAY too much chicken

i usually can't eat certain meats due to a hormone problem that causes my muscles to cramp really badly. those certain meats along with my back hurting and sitting for too long are risk factors for my muscle disorder. so when i can i eat WAY too much meat when i can. i told my mom, "did you notice how much chicken and turkey i'm eating tonight?" when i we had chicken and turkey since i usually can't eat it.

Monday, May 21, 2018

vegan cookie dough

something i LOVE making and eating. i could eat it all day long. it's generally low calorie, low in fat and an egg less alternative to traditional cookie dough. i don't bake them so i eat vegan cookie dough.

jaw dropped

so i told a couple missionaries how old i was and 1 elder's jaw dropped. he and his companion thought i was like 18-19.


So my aunt once asked me to give her a prayer for her friend who is also Mormon. It took me a long time to give her. Mainly it was about me going, "uuuuuhhhhh". I gave her 1 since I had guidance.

Sunday, May 20, 2018


i mention my friends from the ward all the time to my family and i mention my family all the time to people at both wards. for some reason when i mentioned to my friends about mentioning them to my mom 1 was happy. i'm like, why? i talk about you all a ton.

dump my friends for others

it occasionally seems like i dump certain people for others. if i don't see them often than the ones do see on a regular basis: bye.

Saturday, May 19, 2018

Overly nice people

I usually meet them via church. Usually people from church are super sweet. Sometimes they are so nice they often kill me with kindness. I don’t mind often; although, at my baptism it was expected since people were there to celebrate my baptism and give me a huge “birthday party”. So far they’ve: offered to walk me out twice, had dinner with me, gave me lunch for the next day, asked if they could serve me several times. I’m super OK with this since it’s awesome. My friends often want to help me out despite being a tomboy. i try giving them stuff to make up for it.

cute baby videos

i love watching videos where babies are the "stars". they're usually very cute. 1 was about a bunch of babies laughing in syncopation. another is a boy laughing at ripped paper.

my long curly hair

My hair is my pride and joy. I love it so much. I take care of it like it’s my baby. I love my hair. I often try new things and my hair styles are no exception. I got my hair cut a month ago and love it. Unfortunately, my hair grows like a weed and its back to the length it was prior to the cut. Also it’s curly so my hair is long and curly and super hard to tame the unruly mess. I wonder why I wasn’t born with long straight Asian hair. I’m born with curls. Not that I don’t love my hair curly I need my hair straighter so I can do more with it than put it in a bun, a pony tail and a head band. I’ve tried straightening it or combing it while wet so it stays straight but it’ll curl the minute it’s dry. I have long bangs. Technically, they’re side bangs but I can braid it so my bangs are long. While I played sports, if my hair was long I tied it back and have ponytails a lot. I loved having my hair long as a kid. I like having my hair as long as it needs to be. My mom said she didn’t get her hair cut as often when she was my age so I’m now forced to have long hair. After my 1st year at university I got my hair cut. A month after I was baptized I got my hair cut. 18 months later I got it trimmed. I love my hair. It’s 1 of the main things I can do to change my appearance. I do my nails but my hair is my pride and joy. I love it more than my nails. I’m often trying out new styles and hair do’s. On my 18th birthday I got myself a new hairdo. It’s a nice gift to me. I loved it. I had to say goodbye to the hair dyed girl I was in high school. I once went months from getting my hair cut in elementary school. Then I had my hair tied when I slept. Something I’ve got to do since my hair is so unruly. Since its super curly I’ve tried to “tame it”. I’ve tried straightening it, pulling it into a bun, wearing headbands, etc. I like having my hair in messy buns as well. Once I had tons of ear jewelry and it’s awesome. I’ve also tried the Elsa braid. It didn’t work since my hair was short at the time. When my hair is in a bun it’s usually in a messy bun since it’s still pretty long and super curly. The ear jewelry I have is earrings (real and fake). Once in church I had 3 earrings in 1 ear (2 real 1 fake) and my hair was in a messy bun and it’s awesome. Of course someone noticed my ear candy. It wasn’t a problem since it wasn’t brought up but my hair can hide earrings but since I like my hair in a bun it’s harder to hide my jewelry. Curly hair is awesome. I love it, despite me wanting it to be straight. I like my hair long and down often. Although when I’m out and about I’m usually having my hair up. Even in church, I’ll have my hair in a bun. Course my hair is super long and curly it’s hard to control a lot. I also tend to use a lot of shampoo on my hair (length and thickness and all). Plus I’ve got bad dandruff so using a ton of dandruff shampoo is super important to maintaining my hair. Even if I cut my hair super short and get a ton of the thickness cut off my hair will grow back to within an inch of its former length within 6 weeks. My long hair is the result of getting it cut super short as often as I can. I often need my hair to be short: college kid and being a tomboy. When I get my hair cut it’ll be itchy for a day and then it’ll be fine. My long hair is super hard to maintain.

best friend

my ex-best friend/ ex-boyfriend graduated yesterday. i texted him and i'd mentioned hoping to go on a mission when i graduate. he seemed interested. i mentioned about my "going away party" in a few years. hopefully we're still on good enough terms he can come.

Thursday, May 17, 2018

lunch "date"

i'm hanging out with a friend tomorrow. we're meeting for dumplings. mom's suggestion. he and i are friends only. he's kind of funny since he saw i was back from "ditching everyone" for a few weeks. (i've got a video on that: i think that's his normal confused face. he's also someone i might've asked to help tutor me since i knew him if i needed help.


i might be hanging out at a dumpling place i love. I've gotta check with my mom since she might have other plans

Wednesday, May 16, 2018


I find it very weird since my friend Brad’s mom introduced since I’m very friendly with Brad but I wasn’t super close to the family prior to meeting them. I was just sitting out in a couch and I wasn’t paying attention since I was listening to green river running red. The mom decided to introduce me to her son since he’d just returned from his mission. He asked me a few questions but didn’t answer my questions. A week later I was asked out by Brad. A month ago I passed on information since I figured they’d like the place I love.

dry skin

i've got horrible dry skin. no matter how much stuff i put onto my skin i'm usually going to have dry skin forever.

rant videos

i love making ranting videos. i can blabber on about what i'm thinking and feeling and then upload it to you tube for other people who hopefully feel the same way to enjoy.


One day a girl was looking thru an old chest and she found an old letter. It was written in calligraphy. It read, Dear Sally, I’m writing this to tell you about my suicide. I’m sorry to tell you about it since I know I’m leaving everyone. I feel like I’m alone in the world. My family disowned me for being transgender and I’m without my family. Julie Smith She thought about the uncle who was disowned. Her uncle was disowned since he was transgender and no one was accepting of it. She wondered why her family hadn’t told her about her “aunt”. She asked about her “aunt” but they didn’t answer her. They pretended they didn’t hear her. She kept asking. The grandma said her “son” has died and they never spoke to him. The girl was so sad that she never got to know her “aunt.” The girl asked to see her “uncle’s” grave. The family refused since they didn’t know where it was. The girl looked up all the possible “Julie Smith’s” online. They found her. She was in an unmarked grave since she did commit suicide. The girl was so upset since she never learned when the “son” was born and passed away as a daughter. The family was unwilling to hold a proper funeral for the woman. The family refused to let the girl set up a proper funeral since she wasn’t a blood relative. A few years later the girl was able to do it without a problem and didn’t bother invite her family. They overheard and tried shutting it down. The state trooper refused to allow the family in. They said the girl had no right to rebury the woman in the family plot. The state trooper said it was in the same plot where the “Jane doe” was being laid to rest so there was no need to care. They were furious since they were taking their inheritance. The trooper explained that it was her money to do it. The family asked to talk with her after the service. She relented. She asked what they wanted. “Why are you reburying the person we excommunicated?” her family asked. “Because she’s my aunt and I love her. You have every right to be pissed off at me but I’m doing what’s right for her,” Sally said. The family excommunicated her as well. She didn’t mind since they hadn’t called her since graduating college. The mom wondered about her “brother” and asked the parents. They were trans-phobic. They asked about why a person would want to change their gender. The mom asked the daughter to teach her about transgender people. The girl explained that some people are: gay, straight, bisexual and transgender. Other people aren’t attracted to anyone. Most people aren’t LGBTQ but it’s something in them. They also don’t have the same rights and it’s OK since it’s not them. The mom said, “Wow I’m surprised about it.” She wanted to learn about it.

One day

There was a woman who was living her life. Her name was sally. She was estranged from her family since she came out as transgender. One day she got a phone call. It was from her brother Louis. It was about their parents. “What do they want now that they haven’t wanted from me that they haven’t gotten out of their system?” she asked referring to the last time they saw her the day she came out as transgender. “Sally, they’re dead,” Louis said. “Not funny,” she retorted. “Sally, their funeral is in a week. I’d love it if you came,” Louis said, “you can stay at my place. I’ve got a nice studio apartment in the basement of my place. It would mean a lot to me if you came.” “I’ll think about it,” Sally relenting. She did think about it for a few days and decided to go. “Aunt Sally,” her Brother Louis’ kids greeted her. “Hi rug rats … I mean kids,” Sally said, “hi Louis. Where’s Jo?” “She’s at the store. Let me show you to your bedroom. Kids, get out of the way of your Aunt Sally’s suitcase. Can you let us have a minute alone? Kids,” Louis said. “Yeah I can’t relate,” Sally said, “transgender and all?” “Right, this way,” he said, “I’m glad you came here Sally.” “Same… I guess,” Sally said dully. “You ok?” he asked. “Well I haven’t exactly been back here since…. Well you know,” she explained. “Right; Yeah I’m sorry for that,” he said. “I’m not surprised you all didn’t accept me. It seemed like it came out of nowhere,” she said. “I’m so sorry Sally. I’d like to make up for it. My wife was explaining to me that people who come from traditional families aren’t as accepting and that many people are who they are. I’d like that to change between us, Sally. I’ve already called Lucy and Shane and they’ve come around somewhat,” Louis explained. “That’s nice but I’m living the best life I can right now. Maybe I can take some time off, not right now since I’m in the middle of a modeling contract but maybe in the future to try and be a real family,” Sally said, “Sorry mom and dad had to die in order for us all to come back together. “I’d like that, maybe you can come and take care of my kids some times,” Louis said. “Of course; I’d love to reconnect to you all,” Sally exclaimed. In the end Sally, Louis, Shane and Lucy all kept in contact. They weren’t the perfect family but they had a better understanding of themselves.


I ran out of allergy medicine. I'm able to recognize allergies in others since I'm an allergy sufferer myself

Ankle injury

My back makes me have more leg and ankle injuries but it's awesome since I taught myself to do things sans legs. I can do so many things even with an injury

Tuesday, May 15, 2018

mention my family

whenever i'm in church i often mention my family, though i rarely say their names. it would be like this: "my brother suggested i do this" or "my brother said that". it's like "my brother, my brother, my brother, my mom my dad" on repeat.

Monday, May 14, 2018


on my last day in Hawaii i spent some of it window shopping. i went to a thrift store as well as others. it was awesome. also i'd gone to institute and church while in Hawaii.

you get a candy bar?

yesterday i was approached by my new home teacher asking if i'd gotten a candy bar. i dug thru my bag and said, "yup i did."

can i please take my shower?

last summer when i nearly convinced my brother and dad to go to a why i believe i was taking a shower. in the middle of it my brother was trying to figure out what sports star was going to be there. i was like, "can i please take my shower? i'll tell you all in a minute."

Sunday, May 13, 2018

Rod Blagojevich corruption charges

In December 2008, then-Governor of Illinois Rod Blagojevich and his Chief of Staff John Harris were charged with corruption by federal prosecutor Patrick Fitzgerald. As a result, Blagojevich was impeached by the Illinois General Assembly and removed from office by the Illinois Senate in January 2009. The federal investigation continued after his removal from office and he was indicted on corruption charges in April 2009. The jury found him guilty of one charge of making false statements with a mistrial being declared on the other 23 counts due to a hung jury after 14 days of jury deliberation. On June 27, 2011, after a retrial, Blagojevich was found guilty of 17 charges (including wire fraud, attempted extortion, and conspiracy to solicit bribes), not guilty on one charge and the jury deadlocked after 10 days of deliberation on the two remaining charges. On December 7, 2011, Blagojevich was sentenced to 14 years in prison. The investigation became public knowledge when a federal judge revealed that Blagojevich was the "Public Official A" in the indictment of Tony Rezko. The case gained widespread attention with the simultaneous arrests of Blagojevich and his chief of staff, John Harris, on December 9, 2008, at their homes by federal agents. Blagojevich and Harris were each charged with one count of conspiracy to commit mail and wire fraud and one count of soliciting bribes. The case involved sweeping pay to play and influence peddling allegations, including the alleged solicitation of personal benefit in exchange for an appointment to the United States Senate as a replacement for Barack Obama, who had resigned after being elected President of the United States (see bribery). United States Attorney Patrick Fitzgerald noted that there had been no evidence of wrongdoing by Obama. After the arrest, Illinois elected officials began calling on Blagojevich to resign. The 50 members of the U.S. Senate's Democratic caucus called on Blagojevich to not appoint a senator and pledged not to seat anyone he attempted to appoint. Legislators introduced bills in both houses of the Illinois General Assembly to remove the Governor's power to appoint a senator and require a special election; however, no such bill passed. Blagojevich did eventually appoint Roland Burris to the seat. Despite attempts to keep Burris from taking the seat in the U.S. Senate, he was eventually allowed to take the oath of office. Within days of Blagojevich's arrest, Illinois Attorney General Lisa Madigan filed a motion with the Illinois Supreme Court seeking to declare the Governor "unable to serve" and strip him of the powers of his office. The court denied the request. Meanwhile, Speaker of the Illinois House of Representatives Mike Madigan (the Attorney General's father) announced that on December 16 he would begin impeachment proceedings. The state House impeached Blagojevich on January 9, 2009, and the state Senate convicted him on January 29, thereby removing him; they also disqualified him from holding further office in the state. Background: Blagojevich had been under investigation for corrupt activity for four years, as part of a broader federal investigation by Fitzgerald, code-named Operation Board Games, that had been going on for three years. To date, 15 people have been charged in connection with the investigation. Blagojevich had long been suspected to be a target of the investigation, but it was confirmed by U.S. District Judge Amy St. Eve that he was the "Public Official A" referred to in the federal indictment of Tony Rezko. Just before the 2008 U.S. general elections, federal investigators were granted authority to tape Blagojevich's conversations. On December 8, 2008, in a press conference, Blagojevich claimed, "whether you tape me privately or publicly, I can tell you that whatever I say is always lawful and the things I'm interested in are always lawful." He further stated that "if anybody wants to tape my conversations, go right ahead, feel free to do it. I appreciate anybody who wants to tape me openly and notoriously; and those who feel like they want to sneakily, and wear taping devices, I would remind them that it kind of smells like Nixon and Watergate." After a meeting between Blagojevich and Jesse Jackson Jr. regarding the Senate seat, when asked his thoughts on being the subject of federal tapings, Blagojevich stated that he didn't believe there's any cloud that hangs over him that he though there's nothing but sunshine hanging over him." Illinois Governor Rod Blagojevich and his Chief of Staff John Harris were arrested at their homes at 6:15 a.m. on December 9, 2008 by deputies of the United States Marshals Service on behalf of the Federal Bureau of Investigation (FBI). Blagojevich and Harris were each charged with one count of conspiracy to commit mail and wire fraud and one count of soliciting bribes. The case involved sweeping pay to play and influence peddling allegations, including the alleged solicitation of personal benefit in exchange for an appointment to the United States Senate as a replacement for Barack Obama when the later resigned after being elected U.S. President. United States Attorney Patrick Fitzgerald noted that there had been no evidence of wrongdoing by Obama. The cases are part of a broader federal investigation by Fitzgerald code-named Operation Board Games that had been going on for three years in which 15 people have been charged by Fitzgerald. Before the scandal, Blagojevich considered himself as a contender for the 2016 presidential election, but was willing to pursue an interim position as a Cabinet member, United States ambassador, or a high profile corporate titan instead. The governor viewed his statutory power to appoint a replacement for Obama in the U.S. Senate as convertible currency of the form that could assure this future. Soon after the Presidential election, it became very clear to Fitzgerald from his wiretaps that a sale of the Senate seat was imminent; Fitzgerald immediately pressed for Blagojevich's arrest. After the arrest, the prosecution began proceedings to obtain an indictment from a grand jury; this process was granted an extension to April 7, 2009. A federal grand jury in Illinois returned an indictment against Blagojevich and five other defendants on April 2, 2009. Blagojevich is the seventh Illinois Governor to have been arrested or indicted; and became the fourth, following Dan Walker, who has been jailed since 1971. As well as the allegations concerning the Senate seat, Blagojevich has also been charged with: -Attempting to extort the owners of the Tribune Company to fire Chicago Tribune editors who criticized the governor's handling of state affairs. -Abuse of power concerning release of US$8 million of state funds to Children's Memorial Hospital expecting to obtain a $50,000 campaign contribution. -Seeking graft in the form of $2.5 million in campaign contributions (through 2008) from companies and individuals who have received state contracts or appointments. On January 2, 2009 Governor Blagojevich's federal security clearance was revoked by the United States Department of Homeland Security. -In June 2009, it was determined by the judge overseeing the case that the Blagojevich trial would start on June 3, 2010. In the wake of the scandal, reform measures are being proposed. Wisconsin Senator Russell Feingold, who then served as the chairman of the United States Senate Committee on the Judiciary's Subcommittee on the Constitution, Civil Rights and Property Rights, had stated that he would introduce a constitutional amendment requiring vacant Senate seats be filled by special elections, as the House of Representatives requires; however, nothing ever came of it.


i love pizza. i'm hopefully getting some tonight. of course a few slices will do since i'm not 100% hungry. maybe the aroma of will make me hungry. it's super tasty.

Cute boy

He’s the 1 I think about 24/7. I can do little without thinking of him. He’s so cute. He’s interesting since he introduced himself. I think I’m falling for him. I like thinking about kissing him and hugging him a lot. He’s such a cutie.

Saturday, May 12, 2018

game night

i went to game night last night. it was awesome. my friend talked me into it and it was awesome. i laughed until i nearly threw up.

small frame

I've got a tiny frame since i inherited the Asian body frame from my dad. i'm starting to see it since i started weight watchers. my Asian-ness is more coming out since i'm losing weight and my body is becoming more shapely. i'm wearing my sports bras and my chest isn't as pronounced. the dress i'm wearing in the picture down here is a free size purple dress and just to show you how small i am i added a matching purple Vans belt. my brother wears an "extra large" free size sweatshirt which fits him perfectly. i put quotation marks around the words extra large to show it's not really an extra large.

Thursday, May 10, 2018

Video diaries

I started doing them for my YouTube channel. I loved doing them. I usually don’t edit them since I don’t have editing tools like other you tubers. I love my channel. No one else usually is in my videos since I don’t have their permission to do so. Usually they’re short videos on what I’m thinking. I used to have longer (a minute is what I considered long) video. Now the longest is 5 minutes where I do my nails. I usually ask for requests but not now. My most recent upload is on why I converted to the LDS church.

smiled and stared at

so yesterday after my exams i was smiled and stared at since i appeared to be a high school aged girl out on the town in the middle of the day.

My nails

I love my nails. I usually make them a lot. Once I had to cut them before a sermon I was given. Once I decided to keep the nail color different since I had too much free time. My mom hated certain colors but loved it. I of course love the colors she hates since that’s mandatory for kids to like things their parents hate.

serious dandruff

i've got horrible dandruff. i also need to remove as much of it as i can.

good girl

so i was with a bunch of my friends (i was a freshman in high school and was still super close with all my friends from middle school) and then i saw some neighbors and waved to them. then i looked over at my friends and ran over to my friends from school avoiding my neighbors. later i found out they wondered what movie i was seeing


my exams were yesterday. it was awesome since it's over with. it's sad since i didn't want the semester to end.

my talk

when i gave my talk i should've gotten extra credit for it since i was re-taking a communications class. it was awesome since my family came.

funny story

so once at a relief society dinner i bent over to pull my blouse down and i saw 2 sets of legs. i turned around and 2 sister missionaries came over and asked if i'd be in the area in the coming day and i said yes. they said they'd try to stop by. i said ok

Wednesday, May 9, 2018


i told my mom i'd go to the mall tomorrow after a meeting. since it'll be raining it'll be a good place to get out of the house. plus i need to go shopping since my body is becoming smaller and taught. plus most of my wardrobe is old

my mom

my mom found the LDS church in Hawaii. i couldn't believe it. i was excited and decided to go. i was shocked and stunned she found it. i was also happy she found it.

Lyle Stevik

breaking news: Lyle Stevik was the alias used by a formerly unidentified man who committed suicide by hanging in 2001, in a motel in Amanda Park, Washington. The man was seen alive prior to his death, including at the hotel where he died. He had checked into his room as Lyle Stevik, possibly using a name based on the name of a character from Joyce Carol Oates' novel You Must Remember This (1987). On May 8th, 2018, it was announced that "Lyle" was identified after almost 17 years, and that the discovery was made with assistance from a non-profit organization called the DNA Doe Project. The man was 25 years old when he died, and had previously resided in California. His relatives requested for his identity to be withheld. Circumstances of the death/ suicide: Stevik checked into the Quinault Inn, a motel in Amanda Park, after arriving to the area by bus. The clerk stated that the man might possibly have been Canadian, as he was described as speaking in a similar accent. When registering for his room, he wrote the alias and the address of a different hotel, a Best Western establishment in Meridian, Idaho. The hotel was located, but none of the staff members recognized the deceased. He was also seen walking back and forth at the side of a highway near the motel, but it is uncertain if it was before or after he paid for his room. He requested and received a second room after complaining about noise from outside. He may have used the name of a character from the novel You Must Remember This, authored by Joyce Carol Oates. In the story, the character who bore the same name, though spelled as "Stevick," tried to commit suicide. It is possible that his family may have been unaware of his disappearance and suicide, due to estrangement, as no missing person reports appeared to match the decedent. Death of "lyle": He checked into the motel on Friday, September 14, and his body was found on Monday, September 17, despite an initial report stating that he only stayed there for two days. He had used his belt to hang himself inside of a closet. The belt was secured by the bar used to hang clothes. He initially had paid for one night and had then left money to pay for the remaining nights. He then left a note reading, simply, "suicide". Upon discovery of the body, it was noted that the man had closed the blinds in the room and lined the closet in which he hanged himself with pillows. He had left a note at the bedside table that contained $160 in $20 bills with the words "for the room." It has been speculated that he may have committed suicide due to depression, or to quicken the pace of a fatal disease, although the autopsy showed there were no signs of one. It is also possible that the man was native to a non-English speaking country. An investigator stated that it appeared as if the man was "seeing if he could spell" the word "suicide," as a piece of paper was located in a trash bin. He had no luggage; all he had with him was a toothbrush and toothpaste. He wore a blue shirt in a plaid design, a gray T-shirt underneath, blue jeans, and black boots. He paid at the desk for one night's lodging, but stated that he planned to stay for "a few more days". Post-mortem examination for "Lyle": Stevik was light-skinned but was thought to possibly have been of Native American or Hispanic heritage, as he had black hair and green/hazel eyes. It has also been stated by the local coroner's office that he may have been of an African admixture. Examination of his DNA concluded he was at least a quarter Native American and one-quarter Hispanic or Spanish. He did have some dental work done in his life, as his teeth showed evidence of previous treatment with braces. He had an old scar from a removed appendix. A mole was noted on his chin, along with the fact that he had attached earlobes. The examination also indicated that he had lost a large amount of weight, up to 40 pounds (18 kg). This was estimated after the examiner noted that the size of the man's jeans were fairly large in comparison to his body. His age was estimated to be between 20 and 30 years old, placing an estimated birth date from 1971 to 1981. He may have been up to 35 years old, however, which would increase this estimation to as early as 1966. He was later buried in an unmarked grave at the Fern Hill Cemetery in Aberdeen, Washington. Investigation into his death: Because Stevik was deceased for only a short time before his body was found, his fingerprints, dental characteristics, and DNA were easy for examiners to obtain. These identifying markers were placed in international databases, including CODIS, but no matches had been made. It is believed that he came to the area from Port Angeles or Aberdeen, locations from which buses traveled to Amanda Park the same day. He was not, however, recognized by either of the bus drivers. Two men who are currently missing, Alexander Craig and Steven Needham, have been ruled out as possible identities of Stevik. In April 2007, Stevik was listed as the profile of the month for "Missing from the Circle," a public service initiative launched by Lamar Associates, a law enforcement advisory organization based in Washington, D.C., to help solve cases involving missing or unidentified Native Americans. Identification: In 2018, DNA analysis performed by the "DNA Doe Project" linked the unidentified man to individuals living in New Mexico and Idaho. It was announced by the Grey's Harbor Sheriff's Office on May 8th, 2018 that Lyle Stevik had been identified via DNA analysis performed by the "DNA Doe Project". He was from Alameda County, California and was 25 years old at the time of death. The Grays Harbor County Sheriff's Office notified the man's family, who had believed him to be alive and assumed the man did not want to associate with his family. His family had a set of his fingerprints that were taken in grade school, as part of a children's identification program. The Sheriff's Department compared those prints with the postmortem prints taken in 2001, and made a positive identification. His family has chosen not to identify him publicly.

Flamingo tote bag

So I got an oversized tote bag with a Flamingo on it. Its awesome. my science teacher thought it was funny. he was like it has a gigantic flamingo on it. was that the only 1 available?

Tuesday, May 8, 2018


I had some in Florida. I loved it. I ran into my brothers while in was drinking some.


I got new earrings as a gift for studying for my exams

Monday, May 7, 2018

Dress up

I've got to dress up for my science exam on Wednesday. That'll be fun.

Tube top

I'm making a Chrochet tube top for sale. I need the money for my dental work and possibly my missionary fund.

timed me

so after i got dunked at my baptism i went to get changed and my mom helped. we came out in less than a song (less than 4 minutes). someone said if they'd known that ahead of time they would've timed me.

door opened for me

the elders who gave me a blessing last week opened the door for me. not unusual since many people at church HAVE done this, despite me wanting to do a dramatic entrance.

19 kids and counting

i never used to watch that show often. i occasionally watched it and heard about it but my favorite show at the time was unsolved mysteries. something that i never understood is their conservative views. i get it, america is a free country and you can do what you want but i'm like, why would you let a predator (i.e your son) come and touch his sisters and think it's OK? they're more concerned with modesty than safety or their pedophile son.


I followed a cookie recipe and made a batter similar to a cake. Oops.

Sunday, May 6, 2018

earful of piercings

this morning in church i had an earful of piercings on my right ear. 2 were real 1 wasn't. on my left ear i only had 1 piercing (that's real). when i had my hair in a bun you could see them all.

Disappearance of Sky Metalwala

On the morning of November 6, 2011, Sky Elijah Metalwala of Redmond, Washington, United States, disappeared. Reportedly sick, his mother Julia Biryukova said she put him and his older sister in the car along a Bellevue street to go to a nearby hospital; along the way she stated that she ran out of gas, leaving Sky in the car while she went to get help. When she returned, he was gone and has not been seen since. The situation was reported to police, who soon came to doubt Biryukova's account since her car was found to have enough gas in its tank and was in working order. It also shared similarities with an episode of Law & Order: Special Victims Unit that had been rebroadcast in the Seattle area the night before. Shortly before, Biryukova had decided to withdraw from a mediated custody agreement that was the last stage of an acrimonious divorce from Sky's father, Solomon Metalwala. Solomon has remained active in assisting police with the investigation, believing Sky's disappearance was related to the custody dispute. Biryukova has been less cooperative with the police, although she claims to have no more idea than her ex-husband of what happened to Sky. Although there have been allegations that she neglected Sky when he was in her custody, and state child-welfare agencies have tried to remove a child she had with a later husband with a history of abuse, police have made a "strategic decision" not to charge her with child endangerment for leaving her son in the car on the day he disappeared, to keep their options open if they learn more about Sky's fate. Background of the case: Both of Sky's parents were immigrants to the United States. Solomon Metalwala is originally from Pakistan; Julia Biryukova is a Ukrainian born in Russia, where she later claimed to have been subjected to shock therapy in mental hospitals during her childhood as punishment, in addition to regular disciplinary beatings by her parents, with serious negative effects on her self-esteem as a result. Solomon had been running a convenience store when the two met. Biryukova met her future husband at age 15, in 1997, three years after emigrating from Russia. At that time she was a student at Bellevue High School. Metalwala, then 21, invited her to a party. The two began dating, and she worked at a restaurant his family owned in Seattle's Pioneer Square neighborhood. By 1999, when she finished high school and was naturalized, the couple bought a Bellevue condominium to live in. While Biryukova and Metalwala enjoyed work and many leisure activities together, there was some friction between them. Police in Kirkland were called when the couple were seen arguing loudly at a local gas station over their plans for the evening. The man gave his name as Sulaiman Metalwala, supposedly Solomon's brother. Biryukova later told a clinical psychologist she saw that by this point she had learned that her boyfriend could be "very controlling" and she became emotionally dependent on him in turn. Nevertheless, in 2003, she married him in a brief ceremony in his mother's kitchen. Later she said his family gave her the choice of either doing so or never seeing him again, since they claimed he was facing imminent deportation, for reasons that are not known. Biryukova later claimed that she did not tell her family the real reason the two had wed until 2010. In 2005 Metalwala converted to Christianity; he and his wife began attending a church in Kirkland. Biryukova believed that her in-laws blamed her for this, straining their relationship with her and causing more problems in their marriage. Within two years they were experiencing financial problems as well, when a competing deli opened next to their restaurant, cutting into their earnings. their first child, Daughter Maile, was born in 2007. Business further declined in the Great Recession that began in 2008. Despite those setbacks, the two bought a home in Kirkland that year for over $800,000, in addition to the mortgage payments they still had to make on their Bellevue residence. Sky was born in 2009; a psychiatrist Biryukova saw prescribed her antidepressants while she was pregnant although she said she did not need them. By then lenders were beginning to foreclose the family's properties and they were in arrears on many of their bills. They had to move out of the Kirkland home and into the smaller Bellevue residence. Solomon claimed in later court papers that at this time, his wife's psychological problems began to manifest themselves, causing him to begin eating outside and sleeping on the floor to comply with her obsession with keeping the condominium clean. The board cited the couple several times for violating noise regulations; at one point they awoke their neighbors with vacuuming after 11 p.m. She, in turn, alleged he became controlling and angry. When the boy was two months old his parents left him alone in their car in a Target parking lot for almost an hour on a day when the outdoor temperature was 27 °F (−3 °C). Both parents were arrested after police had them paged to their car and charged with reckless endangerment. They claimed they had been inside only for 20 minutes and did not want to wake him, but the store's security camera video footage disproved them. After they agreed to take a parenting class, charges were dropped several years later. Divorce of the parents: On Biryukova's 29th birthday, in early 2010, she was briefly committed to a mental hospital for the first of three times, after telling Solomon she had dreamed of killing the children. There, she was diagnosed with severe obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD); however psychiatrists did not believe that rendered her unfit to parent a child and she would later deny that she had been so diagnosed. Shortly after she got out, her husband filed for divorce. Later Biryukova would be committed again. After the couple separated she texted her husband claiming to have suicidal ideations, which she later claimed she had done just to get his attention. Upon her admittance to the third hospital, she was found to have a Global Assessment of Functioning score of 15, suggesting she was a danger to herself and others; it had improved to 40, meaning slight impairment, by the time she was released. After that release, Solomon and his brother took Biryukova to University of Washington Medical Center where she checked in voluntarily. While she was there, their lender foreclosed on the condominium. Solomon moved with the children to his parents' home in Kirkland. The couple vigorously contested the divorce. Biryukova alleged in her filings that Solomon had been abusive and that she feared for her life. He claimed that the allegations were fabricated, and said her mental problems made her unstable, incapable of keeping food in the house or letting her children sleep in beds due to her OCD. Child Protective Services investigated a claim that Solomon had injured his daughter but supposedly[clarification needed] ruled it unfounded; nevertheless Solomon was prohibited from seeing his children for a year while it was investigated. At different times in the case, both sought protection orders against each other. In September 2010, the court awarded Biryukova full custody of both children. She refused to let them see Solomon, who did not have any visitation rights. He continued to press the issue in court, along with some other issues such as property they both owned. She offered to forego alimony and child support if he let her move to Arizona with the children, but he refused. These disputes continued for over a year. In November 2011 the court hearing the case ordered the couple into a week of mediation to resolve their issues. The session was reportedly a success, with the two eventually agreeing that Biryukova would have custody of both children while Solomon had full visitation. However, on November 3, shortly after the agreement had been signed, Biryukova called her lawyer and, saying she had felt pressured into the session, decided to void it. Disappearance of Sky Metalwala: Biryukova says her son woke up sick in their Redmond apartment on the morning of November 6. She put him and his sister in the car she was driving at the time, a silver 1998 two-door Acura Integra, and headed for Overlake Medical Center in Bellevue. She later stated that around the 2600 block of 112th Street N.E. in that city, a long section of the road that follows a tall concrete noise barrier around the curve of the Washington State Route 520 expressway, just west of its interchange with Interstate 405, she ran out of gas. Biryukova parked the car on the side of the road and left Sky strapped into his car seat inside while she took Maile to find assistance. An hour later, she reached a Chevron station a mile (1.6 km) north of where she parked. Instead of buying gas or having someone bring it to her car, she called a friend, who gave her a ride back to her car. When she returned, Sky was gone. She called police to report him missing. They in turn contacted Solomon before noon that day. Investigation into the disappearance of Sky Metalwala: Searchers combed a 20-block radius of the car but found nothing. Police soon came to doubt Biryukova's account. Her car, when tested, proved to have adequate fuel in its tank and operated normally. In an hour wandering the neighborhood before she got to the gas station, she apparently made little effort to seek help from residents. She had left her home with a purportedly sick child but not taken her wallet, purse and phone. No gas can was found in the car. When questioned further about this, Biryukova took her Fifth Amendment rights and refused to take a lie detector test. Biryukova did, however, give investigators permission to search the car, her computer and her home. There was no sign of Sky at or near the latter location. Her car was unlocked and did not show any signs of forced entry. Police searched Solomon's house, too, and found nothing. After a lie-detector test he took the night after the disappearance proved inconclusive, Solomon took another one the next day, although neither he, his attorney, nor the police shared the results with the public. Police also soon learned about the 2009 incident where she and Solomon had been arrested after leaving Sky in the car unattended. During the investigation both of them admitted to having left the children by themselves for long periods of time. Detectives would not confirm whether, according to some reports, Biryukova had done so during the lengthy mediation hearing the week before Sky went missing. There were some questions about whether Sky had even been in the car that morning to begin with. Motorists who had passed the parked Acura did not report seeing anything unusual, not even a child in it. At Biryukova's apartment complex in Redmond, neighbors said she and her children rarely went out, and none of them had seen Sky for at least two weeks. Solomon was not aware of anyone having seen his son other than his ex-wife since an April doctor visit. However, Maile told the police that Sky had indeed been in the car that morning. The theory that Sky's disappearance might have been arranged by Biryukova drew more credence when police learned of strong coincidences between her story and a recently aired episode of the popular crime drama Law & Order: Special Victims Unit. In the episode, titled "Missing Pieces", a young couple claims their baby son has been abducted when their parked car was stolen. It is later learned that they buried the boy believing they accidentally killed him and made up the abduction as a cover story. The episode, first broadcast two weeks earlier, had been rerun the night before Sky vanished. "I know that there are several folks up in the operations center of the command post that have taken a look at that episode," Major Mike Johnson of the Bellevue police told reporters, "and have commented that it is strikingly similar in nature." Through his attorney, Solomon told People that Law & Order was his wife's favorite show. Biryukova's presence on the Internet also aroused interest. On her Facebook page, she had posted many pictures of Maile but almost none of Sky. During the previous months, she had also posted a profile to, a dating website for women seeking "sugar daddies," wealthy men willing to support a younger woman financially as part of a romantic relationship. She sought "financial stability," as well as $3,000–5,000 in cash per month. Investigators stated publicly that they did not believe Biryukova's story and suspected criminal activity had occurred. However they did not formally describe her as a suspect or person of interest, nor did they charge her with child endangerment despite the circumstances of the case and her past arrest, along with her then-husband, for leaving Sky in the car unsupervised. The decision not do so, they said later, was a "strategic decision"; in order to secure a conviction, police and prosecutors would have to prove that they believe Biryukova did in fact leave her son alone in the vehicle for an unreasonable length of time. But if evidence later emerged suggesting Sky had been murdered or kidnapped that implicated his mother in some capacity, evidence that suggested he had never been in the car to begin with, arresting her on charges that she had indeed left him there could make a prosecution for the more serious charges impossible, a police spokesman said. Later, Solomon's lawyer told the Seattle Weekly another reason for the inaction: If police did arrest Biryukova, she and her attorney would be able to review all the evidence the police had accumulated up to that point, which neither they nor Solomon wanted her to be able to do Subsequent developments in the case: Two weeks after Sky disappeared, Biryukova finally discussed the case with the media. ABC News obtained an email address that her relatives said was hers and used it to contact her. She reiterated that she had no idea where the boy was and called her ex-husband a "sadistic Muslim Pakistani" who was not telling the truth himself. About the case itself, she said her lawyer had instructed her not to discuss it with anyone; she ignored a specific question about whether she had indeed run out of gas that morning. The network was unable to confirm whether it was indeed Biryukova who had responded to them, as she was known to be staying with relatives at the time. However, Solomon told them it sounded to him like the way she would have talked. "Obviously she's just trying to maybe get me kind of riled up," he said. After reviewing the emails, ABC shared them with the Bellevue police, who could not comment on them but believed they might be of some value to their case. The state's Department of Social and Health Services (DSHS) removed Maile from Biryukova's home in the wake of her brother's disappearance and placed her into foster care. Solomon was granted twice-weekly visitation while petitioning the court hearing the divorce to grant him custody, which it did after removing the remaining protection order. The divorce was granted in January 2012. In 2015, on the case's fourth anniversary, Bellevue's new police chief Steve Mylett appealed publicly to Biryukova to talk to them again. "I am convinced you hold the key to finding Sky," he said in a local newspaper. While the previous year the department said it had exhausted all the leads that had been reported to it, at that time Mylett claimed Solomon had shared some unspecified new information with them that might prove useful. Images of Sky that had been digitally age progressed to show how he might appear at that time were distributed along with the original photos. Biryukova's remarriage and third child: Around the time of the fourth anniversary of the disappearance in 2015, it was reported that Biryukova had not only remarried the previous year but borne her third child by her new husband in July. DSHS workers were trying to have the infant removed from her care. DSHS was most concerned about Biryukova's mental health, given her OCD diagnosis and past hospitalizations, following a complaint from the person who delivered the child. They also found the father, Alan Morgan, a convicted felon, problematic. Authorities in Florida had taken a child from his home there. The month the two were married Biryukova reported him to the police in Redmond for allegedly assaulting her and got a no-contact order; she nevertheless visited him regularly in jail in Issaquah, where he was when she gave birth, under assumed names. Both claimed to investigators they did not live together despite giving them the same address; Biryukova said at one point she did not even know who the father was even though his name was on the child's birth certificate. Theories: No trace of Sky was found in the surrounding neighborhoods, so it is believed he did not wander away on his own. In the absence of any new information or useful leads, and with Biryukova's account still considered doubtful, theories of Sky's disappearance have assumed his mother's connivance. If he is alive, it is believed that either she let someone else take him that day, or earlier, with Sky's presence in the car an invention. "She concocted that hospital story and when she realized no-one believed it, she hired an attorney," Leslie Clay Berry, Solomon's attorney told the Seattle Weekly in 2013. Solomon believes that his son is alive, just perhaps not in the U.S. In spring of 2011, after the visit to the doctor that was the last independent record of Sky's presence outside of Biryukova's household, he recalled that her estranged father came from Ukraine to visit her. He wondered to the Weekly if the older man could have taken the boy back to that country with him at the time. But he admitted that by 2013 he did not know how that could have happened. Terry, his attorney, believes more definitely that Sky was never in the car that morning. Nor would police have been expected to find any evidence in the apartment. "She's a clean freak, and she probably bleached everything out," she said to the newspaper, pointing to Biryukova's OCD. Unlike her client, she is doubtful about the outcome of the case. "I don't think he's alive," she said in 2013. "Solomon doesn't like when I say that, but that's what I think." While she believes Biryukova is responsible for his death, she allows that it could have been merely the result of negligence rather than a deliberate act of malice.

Saturday, May 5, 2018

take 1 in

so my brother once said, "take 1 in." it was like 6:15 am on Halloween and i was like, "OK." interestingly, i was learning about being persuaded in communication class and my teacher said my brother convinced me. i'm like, "sure whatever floats your boat."

throw out my expectations

i keep saying "no" to things at church. i never expected: to have my parents accept my baptism, ask if i'm serving a mission, go to a sacrament meeting, etc. it's amazing.

black nightgown

i have a black nightgown i LOVE. i'm wearing it now. i wore it once while watching general conference once.


I lost 5 pounds via weight watchers and I was able to do over an hour of yard work without being in pain. Granted I took some pain killers before starting but it was for other things.

Friday, May 4, 2018

Kidnapping of Sherri Papini

i heard about this case and have been following it since i found it. Kidnapping: Sherri Papini was abducted on November 2, 2016, while out jogging a mile from her home in Redding, California. Papini was 34 years old at the time. She was found three weeks later on Thanksgiving Day, November 24, having been freed by her captors at 4:30 that morning still wearing restraints, on the side of County Road 17 near Interstate 5 in Yolo County, about 150 miles (240 km) south of where she was kidnapped. The case garnered major media attention, but no arrests have been made and authorities report the investigation is ongoing as of April, 2017. Timeline: Sherri's husband Keith Papini first became concerned when he returned from his job at Best Buy on November 2 and could not find his wife at home. He eventually used the "Find my iPhone" application to locate her cell phone and ear buds at the intersection of Sunrise Drive and Old Oregon Trail (40.6950511°N 122.318494°W), about a mile from their home. According to Shasta County Sheriff Tom Bosenko, in interviews Papini said she was held by two Hispanic women who took steps to keep their faces hidden from her, either by wearing masks or by keeping Papini's head covered. Papini was branded on her left shoulder during her captivity but details of what the brand includes have not been revealed. According to a statement by her husband Keith Papini, Sherri was physically abused during her captivity, had her nose broken and her hair cut off, and weighed 87 pounds (40 kg) when she was released. The sheriff said that this is still an active investigation and that authorities are "looking for a dark-colored SUV with two Hispanic females armed with a handgun." The sheriff indicated that there is sensitive information that is not being released at this time. Detectives have authored close to 20 search warrants and they said they’re examining cellphone records, bank accounts, email and social media profiles. Investigators have declined to discuss what prompted them to file the search warrants or why detectives have traveled out of state. According to Bosenko, Keith Papini "has been cooperative and even volunteered for a polygraph, which he passed." However, Bosenko has not ruled out Mr. Papini as a suspect in the abduction, stating "We are keeping an open mind and looking at all avenues." Keith has been reported as possibly compromising the investigation with his statements to the media after Sherri was found. Authorities decline to comment on specific details of the ongoing investigation but report they are actively pursuing the case. In November, while Papini was still missing, authorities executed more than 12 search warrants in Michigan. The FBI has provided assistance in the case.

Thursday, May 3, 2018


1 of my ex-best friends has a relative who has diabetes but never tested his blood sugar in front of my friend so he was curious about what the relative had to go thru. i'm like OK sure you can see.

pass on information

once i passed on information to a family i liked and thought they'd like great wolf, a place I've been several times and am fond of. 1 of their kids likes something offered there and since it's a family vacation spot i figured they could ALL benefit from it.

meet me day

last Sunday at the Montgomery village YSA it seemed like everyone was my BFF and i met a ton of people. i liked it but it was annoying. i usually like being alone.

Murders of Lauria Bible and Ashley Freeman

i've heard about this case and i'm shocked since they were my age when i 1st heard about it. Laura Jaylene Bible and Ashley Renae Freeman disappeared between the evening of December 29 and early morning hours of December 30, 1999, from Freeman's home in Welch, Oklahoma. Firefighters arrived at the Freeman home shortly after 5:30 am on December 30 when a passerby reported a house fire at the residence. After the fire had been extinguished, the bodies of Freeman's parents, Danny and Kathy, were recovered. Both had been shot to death. However, law enforcement was unable to find any trace of Lauria Bible or Ashley Freeman in the rubble of the home. On April 26, 2018, it was reported that Ronald "Ronnie" Dean Busick had been charged with four counts of first-degree murder in the killings of Bible and of Danny, Kathy, and Ashley Freeman. Disappearance of the girls: On December 29, 1999, high school friends Lauria Jaylene Bible and Ashley Renae Freeman spent the evening together celebrating Freeman's sixteenth birthday. Bible received permission from her parents to spend the night at Freeman's home. Earlier that day, the girls had spent time at a local pizza restaurant with Kathy Freeman. At approximately 5:30 am on December 30, 1999, a passerby called 911 reporting that the Freeman home was engulfed in flames. Law enforcement determined the fire had been an arson. Inside the home, the charred remains of Kathy Freeman were discovered lying on the floor of her bedroom; she had been shot in the head. Initially, no other remains were relocated, leading local law enforcement to believe Dan Freeman had killed his wife and fled with both teenage girls. Lauria's parked car was in the driveway of the home with the keys in the ignition. On December 31, Lauria's parents Lorene and Jay Bible returned to the scene, hoping to find additional clues law enforcement may have missed. While walking around the rubble, they discovered what appeared to be another body, and called police. The second body was determined to be that of Dan Freeman, Ashley's father; like his wife, he had also been shot in the head. After this discovery, the scene was reexamined, but no sign of Lauria Bible or Ashley Freeman was found. In 2010, the Freeman family initiated court proceedings to have Ashley declared legally dead. Investigation prior till 6 weeks ago- Suspects and confessions: In the decade following the disappearance of Bible of Freeman, two convicted killer—Tommy Lynn Sells and Jeremy Jones—confessed to murdering them, but subsequently recanted their admissions. Jones had claimed that he murdered Dan and Kathy Freeman as a favor for a friend over drug debt, then took the girls to Kansas, where he sot them and threw their bodies into an abandoned mine. Searches of the mine Jones identified proved unfruitful, however, and Jones subsequently admitted he had fabricated the story in order to get better food and additional phone privileges in prison. In a 2001 profile on Unsolved Mysteries, it was mentioned that rumors had circulated among locals that the Craig County Police Department had been feuding with the Freemans at the time over the death of their son, Shane, who was shot by a deputy after stealing a car. While his death was ruled justifiable, the Freemans had threatened to file a wrongful death lawsuit. Dan Freeman's brother, Dwayne, claimed that Dan had confided that deputies had tried to intimidate him. 2018 arrest of Ronnie Busick: In April 2018, it was reported that Ronald "Ronnie" James Busick, age 66, had been arrested and charged with four counts first-degree murder for the deaths of Lauria Bible, Ashley Freeman, Kathy Freeman, and Danny Freeman. Two other suspects—Warren Phillip “Phil” Welch II and David Pennington—were also identified. According to The Washington Post, "at least a dozen" witnesses claimed all three men bragged about raping and murdering Bible and Freeman, and went so far as taking Polaroid photographs of them. Several witnesses alleged that the three men killed the Freemans over drug money, and that Bible and Freeman were held captive in Welch's trailer for several days before being murdered. A female witnesses who lived with Welch a short time after the disappearances of Bible and Freeman stated in a provided a sworn affidavit that "she heard conversations between the three men where they disclosed that the murder victims had owed them money," and that Welch kept a briefcase containing the Polaroid photos which showed both girls "bound and gagged with duct tape and lying on a bed," with Welch lying next to the girls in some of the photographs. According to the affidavit, Welch, Pennington, and Busick had claimed to have raped and tortured the girls before disposing of their remains "in a pit" or mine shaft in Picher, Oklahoma. Law enforcement also stated they believed the girls' remains could have been "dumped in a cellar that was later covered in concrete." In a public address, the Bible family issued a statement in which they stated they had been aware of the alleged Polaroid photographs "for years": "At this time all focus is on finding Lauria and Ashley. We welcome all information leading to their recovery. Until they are home with us, this will never be over." After his arrest, Busick told reporters he wished to speak to the Bible family. On April 26, 2018, Lauria Bible's mother, Lorene, confirmed she spoke with Busick, but that he denied knowing the whereabouts of her daughter or Freeman. Media coverage: The disappearances of Bible and Freeman were profiled in 2000 on America's Most Wanted, and in a July 3, 2001 segment of Unsolved Mysteries. The case was later featured on the series Vanished with Beth Holloway. In 2013, it was profiled on the documentary series Disappeared on Investigation Discovery.

personalize it

when i was working on my talk it was suggested i "personalize it". i took the advice and it was amazing. people said they put themselves in my parents shoes when i'd told the story of me being lost in the kentlands at night in middle school.

Worn out

I didn't know walking a few miles, which I've done on numerous times previous in heat can wear someone out so much. I've been taking a 5 minute break before reaching my final destination. Man am I tired.

Wednesday, May 2, 2018


When I say something he listens If there’s a free chair near me and I say hi he sits next to me He asks me questions and listens if i smile and hold out my hand for something he give me something

my skateboard

my most prized possession in the world. i had to dig it out from under tons of stuff i'm not even sure we use as often

get the show on the road

so back in December i got a blessing from a friend. we caught up for a bit and then they mentioned their daughter who is new to "looking after herself" (in this instance i mean she can keep herself busy and stay by herself) and can only do it for a little while and i'm like "OK lets get this show on the road so you can get back to her."


so my lesson went awesomely. i was told that my blessing was the highlight of the elder's day. i was happy. that was awesome since i wanted a blessing

take me with her

a few times my mom would say she's "taking me with her" to spa treatments. i'm like OK. i can do my own fingernails since i'm pretty good and i'm able to do them on my own.