Tuesday, July 31, 2018

Wing stop

I love wing stop. My dad used to drag me there with the boys. I recently went there with friends.

My friends

I hate telling people about my muscle spasms. I only tell people if I trust them. I wear my medical bracelet in case I collapse, which I haven't in ages and scared me when I do.


I had to renew my flexural a couple months ago because of my severe muscle disorder


I've gotten TONS of presents from the church. That's awesome.


My mom likes donations to my church's functions. Not sure why since 1) she's not mormon and 2) most of the time the people just want me.

behind their back

so i said i'd "pay a friend back" for giving me rides and by "pay them back" i mean give them a thank you in some way (a card, a mug, a gift something). so i got a gift for a friend with small kids and it was a mug with candy since i was taking time away from their family so i gave the family a gift. i'd also given it to them behind their back in order to not have them refuse it. i'm like please accept it. its a thank you gift.

Monday, July 30, 2018


my hair is back in a scunchiee because it's long and it doesn't tangle my hair.

girl's weekend

i'm going for another girl's weekend with my mom in a bit. she wants to have fun with me (i'm guessing taking me to a spa) and get out of the house.

DNA testing

my friend and fellow LDS convert said he wanted to do DNA testing to see who his birth parents are and i'm like don't because 5 unsolved forensic science cases are solved by things like ancestry.com and 23 and me.

E. Dewey Smith

I love this pastor. He gives realistic sermons based on reality. His sources depend on the topic. Like for anti-lgbt sermon he used Leviticus.

Sunday, July 29, 2018


Sushi. Oh how I love thee. Let me count the ways. I love eating you, I love the flavors of sushi, I love the smell of you.

Saturday, July 28, 2018


i was laughing at a memory i had no idea why i was thinking of it. i was remembering my "breaking the norm" outfit. it was me in a Japanese geisha and platforms. it was hilarious. my brother pretended to not know who i was.


i can't wait for the fall semester. i'm taking forensic science classes. my favorite.


when i was not in school i kept my nails in better shape. i'm not able to keep them up since i'm busy. once i told my mom that i my nails were digging into the heel of my hands and that the nail polish is chipped. she told me to cut them and repaint them since i was about to give a talk and needed them to do it.

i don't like mondays

i'm listening to a song called "i don't like Mondays." it's about a girl named Brenda Spencer who shot a school. her reasoning was "i don't like Mondays."

a scoliosis support group

i found a scoliosis support group on Facebook. i needed it since i have scoliosis and like having a community to help me. it helps me able to find other people with my back disorder and hearing their stories. this helps me with understanding how lucky i was in order to not have to deal with (surgery or bracing). my back issues have affected me since i'm unable to have a normal back.

Pumpkin breath

I'm going to get this again in about a month. Can't wait.

Vegetarian BLT

I loved BLTs when I wasn't a vegetarian. I got facon so I could eat it again.

Nonexistent acne

I was told I have great skin and therefore didn't need the acne products but they're nice to have if I'm doing public speaking

Love Kennedy

I love this movie. It's awesome. I saw it at game night which turned into movie night. It was sweet

April Tinsley

A huge break in the April Tinsley murder investigation. John Miller was arrested in connection with the 1988 killing of 8 year old April Tinsley.

Friday, July 27, 2018


So I started getting blessings more frequently about a year ago. I’d gotten them infrequently but now that I’m back in school full time I’m getting more. My mom supports me getting them as needed. Especially since my grandfather was in the hospital and passed away shortly thereafter I’d gotten 1 the day before. My mom said that was good to have in my arsenal.

long curly hair

i don't mind boys with long hair. i don't mind girls with short hair. i personally have long curly hair. 1 elder had long hair before his mission and it looked OK. another elder has curly hair but it's much shorter.

agreed with me

so i mentioned not minding my hair being longer since i'm a girl and my brother agreed. i love my hair longer since it's 1 of the ways people know i'm a girl because my hair is super long.

Boyan Petrov

finally a new case for me to cover. i'm sympathetic to this case as i'm also a diabetic and he dissapeared around the time of my college exams and my mom's birthday and aunt's surgery. Boyan Petrov (disappeared May 2018) was a Bulgarian zoologist and mountaineer, working at the National Museum of Natural History in Sofia. At the time of his disappearance, he had climbed 10 out of the 14 eight-thousanders, all without supplementary oxygen. This achievement makes him the Bulgarian altitude climber with the highest number of successful ascents of peaks over 8000 meters. He was the first Bulgarian to summit four of those mountains - Gasherbrum I (2009), Kangchenjunga (2014), K2 (2014) and Manaslu (2015). Achievements of Boyan: On 20 May 2014 he became the first Bulgarian to climb the third highest peak on Earth Kangchenjunga (8586m), as well as the first diabetic to ascend to such an altitude and without oxygen. On 23 July he climbed Broad Peak (8047m). On 31 July 2014 he became the first Bulgarian to climb the second highest peak on the planet K2 (8611m), which also made him the 35th person to climb three eight thousanders in less than 100 days. His double climb – on Broad Peak and K2 in 8 days, is also a world record. For these remarkable successes the Bulgarian climber was greeted with a video message by mountaineering legend Reinhold Messner. His documentary film about his climbs "3x8000" was broadcast on Bulgarian National Television in December 2014. He reached the summit of Mt. Dhaulagiri (8167m) on 29th September 2017 at 01:00 pm without help of oxygen. Boyan Petrov is a cancer survivor and a diabetic. In 2008 he fell while climbing in the Alps and broke his leg. During the descent of Gasherbrum II in 2009 he fell in a glacial crevasse and was saved by a group of Spanish climbers. In 2013 Petrov suffered another fracture in one of his legs due to a car accident. Despite his injuries, in the following year he achieved a hat-trick by successfully climbing Kangchenjunga, Broad Peak and K2 with internal fixators in this leg. After the descent of K2, he suffered a serious hypoglycemic crisis while in base camp, lost consciousness and was able to recover with the help of Polish climbers. Disappearance of Boyan: Petrov was declared missing on 5 May 2018 while climbing Shishapangma. The search for him was discontinued on 16 May. According to other climbers, he may have fallen into a crevasse on the way to the top.

Thursday, July 26, 2018

Let me sit with you (or sit with me)

Something said often at the singles ward. It was nice at 1st. As I am often shy at 1st when I am in a new situations. My 1st day there someone freaked me out by saying this. I'm like ok. Other times people say sit with us/ me.

Pajama bottoms

My favorite pajama bottoms are from Joe boxer. They're pajama boxers and have a winky face on the butt. I prefer them to my pajama sweat pants.


i got yarn so i can make hats. i love yarn. i'm trying to get into knitting again.

Wednesday, July 25, 2018

complaining about my back pain

i'm usually complaining about my back pain. it's my scoliosis and losing weight. i'm of course taking multiple steps to stop my muscle disorder. my muscle spasms are painful because of my weight loss. my friends are understanding. i take TONS of pain killers to stop my back pain as well as melatonin in order to stop my muscle spasms. my back is super painful when i'm losing weight. i also got into an accident which triggered my pain. before this barely anyone knew i had scoliosis.

what i know to be true

when i was walking a dog once i ran into missionaries who asked if I've read the book of Mormon and have heard about the LDS church. i said yes since i'm a Mormon convert. i asked them over once but never heard back. they invited my family to read it and believe what i do is awesome.


one elder is nice to me. he smiled with his tongue between his teeth. when i told him about mentioning him to my mom he smiled hugely. he's a great friend to me. he was stunned when i told him my real age. he's a great boy.

Tuesday, July 24, 2018

Face mask

Something my mom gets me a lot. It leaves my skin baby soft and clean.


Something 1 elder was fond of doing. He was sweet but gave me a weird vibe sometimes


Something I do frequently when I'm expecting company. I did it twice in 2 days (once the night before company was expected and then the morning of). I also vaccumed everywhere I could to make the house nice.

Lake water

Its been raining and the water in the pool has rised to resemble a lake. Its nice. I multiply the time by 3 since it takes more effort to keep myself afloat in that deep of water. I love it this way. My back and joint might not but whatever.

Monday, July 23, 2018

what's happening with my life?

since school let out 2 months ago it's been non stop boring. once a week i get out of the house and go to the kentlands area after weight watchers. now it's boring.

how does this apply to me?

so in Sunday school once i was like, "how does this even apply to me?" since we were talking about the priesthood and as a girl i couldn't hold the priesthood. i was then asked how it affected me. i'm like fine.


i'm supper cranky today. i'm in pain due to stomach troubles and back pain. it sucks since i'm stressed.


I got new comfy platform heels. I'm still trying to get used to walking in them. Not easy with uneven legs. I'm getting better as now I know how they function.

Saturday, July 21, 2018


i often say that "the elders are sweet boys." there are reasons i say that. a few examples are things like "i mentioned a couple elders at the YSA i go to and 1 smiled real big. that same elder smiled with his tongue between his teeth." another time an elder at my baptism was nervous to meet my mom and when i asked him if he wanted to say hi he stood there. i ran over to my mom and got him help get his confidence.


so i went to a party after going to the beaver dam rock quarry. i loved it. when i got in i ran into the party, nearly tripping carrying my bag and a bag of pretzels as a donation for coming in late. i saw tons of friends and hung out with them each.

mama mia and the incredibles 2

i saw these 2 movies in a week. i love them and i talked into them in videos on my channel. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tu-qHimR090 the incredibles 2 review and https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mZqCbZR770g mama mia 2 review)

pizza again

i thought i was smelling things. like what's that smell? than i walk into the kitchen and there defrosting was frozen pizzas. i love pizza. it's awesome.

Friday, July 20, 2018


I'm eating pizza tonight. I love pizza. Its awesome and a comfort food for anyone. I rarely get frozen cheese or any flavor that's not meat laden so that's fine

Wednesday, July 18, 2018


so far this calendar year not much has happened. this past SCHOOL year has been eventful. my grandpa passed away in December, my family went to Hawaii for the 2nd (and possibly final) time, i had 2 "spring breaks" due to the weather, i started going to the YSA singles ward, went to church in Kauai and i stayed for a break the fast in December.


i know how to wear my assets and cover them appropriately. like once i went to a Halloween party and thought, "i can wear the dress tomorrow if i don't mess it up too badly." also i was going to the visitor's center later that day and my mom thought i was wearing the outfit i was wearing while i was working out (walking the dog and sweating). i'm like no i'm going to change.

sheer clothes

i wore a sheer crop top all day. it was nice since today was all hot.

i wish

there are things I've wished for (or wondered about) they've come to pass. other things were like "i wish that was my job" (in reference to shopping for my family). like once my 1st communications teacher asked if shopping for my family was my job and i said i wish. i usually do SOME grocery shopping for my family as well as getting things as needed for my family.

Biggby Coffee

Biggby Coffee (pronounced Big-Bee) is a privately owned coffee franchise business based in East Lansing, Michigan. Founded March 1995 as Beaner's by Bob Fish and Mary Roszel, the company changed its name to Biggby Coffee in late 2007. Biggby began franchising in 1999. The company headquarters is located at 2501 Coolidge Road, East Lansing, Michigan. History- Beaner's: The first Beaner's Coffee opened in March 1995 in a converted Arby's restaurant on Grand River Avenue in East Lansing, Michigan. Fish, Roszel and Michael McFall (who was originally hired by Roszel as a barista in the first store) decided to franchise the company and founded Global Orange Development, LLC in June 1998. In August 1999 the first franchise location was opened in Okemos, Michigan and in October of the same year, another location was opened in East Lansing. In the following four years, nine more locations were opened throughout Michigan and Ohio. Biggby: Originally unaware that "beaner" is an ethnic slur for Mexicans, in late 2007, the chain decided to change its name from Beaner's to Biggby Coffee. Biggby was chosen as it was a vocalization of the logo, a "big B", which was a "fun" name. The first store opened under the name Biggby Coffee on October 29, 2007, in Westland, Michigan. The change in name was completed in all stores by January 31, 2008. In December 2007, BIGGBY was awarded MBC Global’s 3rd Quarter Multicultural Achievement Award for completing the name change on a completely voluntary basis. In that same year, the company was named to Entrepreneur Magazine's Annual Franchise 500(R) list, ranked 289 out of the 500 companies profiled. In 2008, Biggby moved up 34 spots to number 255, the second among coffee retailers on the list. Awards and recognition: In September 2011, the company was named the fastest growing coffee chain in America by CNBC, which ranked the chain number one, based on their growth percentage from the previous year. Biggby was ranked above other popular brands such as Starbucks, Dunkin' Donuts and Caribou Coffee. Biggby was also named a top 30 food franchise in the United States by Franchise Business Review in both 2011 and 2012. The report compiled results based on surveys from franchisees in the food sector, representing more than 75 brands and 20,500 franchised businesses. For the year of 2012, Biggby was ranked as number 268 on Entrepreneur Magazine's Annual Franchise 500(R) list, and as a top 500 franchise by Franchise Times Magazine. In 2013, Biggby moved up 67 spots on Entrepreneur Magazine's Annual Franchise list to number 201. In August 2012, Mary Roszel announced her retirement from the company after 17 years. “Words cannot express the gratitude that I, along with the rest of the company, hold for Mary,” Bob Fish said. “She has spent countless hours getting us where we are today, and is one of the most driven and talented people I have ever had the pleasure to work with." In November 2012, Mary was inducted by her Alma mater into Michigan State University's School of Hospitality Business Hall of Fame for her success with Biggby and the inspiration she brings to students at the university today. Expansion: Biggby Coffee had planned to have more than 250 stores by 2010. “We’re aggressively expanding in the Midwest and the Southeast, and we do have a growth plan to continue to double our units every two years,” Biggby President Michael McFall said in July 2008. In March 2011, Biggby listed 122 franchise locations on its website, which had grown to 172 by November 2013. It had stores in at least 8 states: Michigan, Florida, Illinois, Kentucky, Ohio, South Carolina, Texas, and Wisconsin. In July 2011, the company officially released a "new store footprint" that reduced the cost of opening a franchise location by approximately 40 percent. McFall said that despite the economic slow down that limited growth in Michigan and beyond, the new store footprint allows potential franchisees the opportunity to experience both a faster and higher return on capital and can expand current franchisees’ ability to open additional stores. “By streamlining our utilization of resources, including simplifying the contractor process, material sourcing and delivery, we were able to reduce overall costs by $70,000-$80,000 per location. The overall look and feel of the new stores remains the same as stores open prior to the redesign,” McFall said in July 2011. Advertising: Biggby Coffee uses the statement: "B Happy, Have Fun, Make Friends, Love People and Drink Great Coffee" and the slogan: "Biggby Coffee is my happy place" in their advertising. Michigan artist, Wally Pleasant is the voice behind the jingle in the company's radio and television commercials, which he won an Emmy for in 2011.


Folgers Coffee is a brand of coffee in the United States, part of the food and beverage division of The J.M. Smucker Company. Since the early 1990s, it has been the largest-selling ground coffee in the United States. Company history: The precursor of the Folger Coffee Company was founded in 1850 in San Francisco, California, U.S., as the Pioneer Steam Coffee and Spice Mills. The owner, William H. Bovee, saw an opportunity to produce roasted and ground coffee ready for brewing. Before that, Californians had to purchase green coffee beans, and roast and grind them on their own. To help build his mill, Bovee hired James A. Folger as a carpenter. James had arrived from Nantucket Island at the age of 15 with his two older brothers during the California Gold Rush. In the 1850s, kerosene began to offer a cheaper alternative to whale oil, which had been Nantucket's life-blood, resulting in the re-purposing of many of its ships to bring coffee from South America to San Francisco. After working at Bovee’s mill for nearly a year, James had saved enough money to stake a claim in the company and headed out to mine for gold. He agreed to carry along samples of coffee and spices, taking orders from grocery stores along the way. Upon his return to San Francisco in 1865, James became a full partner of The Pioneer Steam Coffee and Spice Mills. In 1872, he bought out the other partners and renamed the company to J.A. Folger & Co. In 1861, James married. He and his wife had four children, and two of the children worked for the family business. In 1889, James died, and his oldest son, James A. Folger II, stepped into the role of president of J.A. Folger & Co at the age of 26. In the 1900s, the company began to grow dramatically due primarily to a salesman named Frank P. Atha. Atha sold coffee in the California area, but proposed to James Folger II that he open and manage a Folgers Coffee plant in Texas. The company grew exponentially after Atha opened the Texas plant. Under the mid-20th century leadership of Peter Folger, the brand became one of the principal coffee concerns in North America, the world's largest coffee market. Procter & Gamble acquired Folger's in 1963 and removed the apostrophe from its name. During P&G’s ownership, Folgers became the number one coffee brand in America. P&G announced in January 2008 that Folgers would be spun off into a separate Cincinnati-based company but reversed itself that June and announced Folgers would be acquired by the end of 2008 by The J.M. Smucker Company. Utilizing a rare financial technique called a Reverse Morris Trust, Smucker purchased Folgers in November 2008 and made it a subsidiary. Brands- Twelve brands of Folgers are available in the United States: -Classic Roast, including Classic "Red Can" and half-caffeine medium roasts -Classic Complements, including Gourmet Supreme (Dark Roast), 100% Colombian (Medium-Dark Roast), French Roast (Medium-Dark Roast), Black Silk (Dark Roast) and Breakfast Blend (Light Roast) -Simply Smooth, a medium roast coffee -Flavored Coffee, including Hazelnut, French Vanilla, Chocolate Silk, and Cinnamon -Folgers Gourmet Selections, a line of varietal and flavored coffees -Instant Coffee, Folgers Crystals available in Regular and Decaf -Singles, single serve packets -Home Cafe Pods, for use with one cup brewing systems such as HomeCafe. -Cappuccino, instant French Vanilla and Mocha Chocolate cappuccino powder -Folgers Flavors Coffee Enhancers, including Caramel, Vanilla, Mocha, and Hazelnut -Folgers Iced Café Coffee Drink Concentrates, including Original Latte, Caramel Macchiato, Vanilla Latte, and Hazelnut Latte -1850 a premium brand launched in 2018 available in Whole-bean, Ground, K-Cup® pods, & Iced Coffee In Canada, Folgers is primarily available as Classic Roast and Mountain Roast. In the United Kingdom, Folgers Instant Crystals are available. Advertising: Folgers is promoted with the slogan "The best part of waking up is Folgers in your cup!" It is well associated with a jingle featured in almost every advertisement since 1984, with lyrics by Susan Spiegel Solovay and Bill Vernick, and music by Leslie Pearl. Over the years it has been rearranged and performed by many famous musicians, such as Ritchie Havens, Randy Travis, Aretha Franklin, and Rockapella. Folgers was known for many years for television ads involving "Mrs. Olson," a Swedish neighbor who invariably recommended a cup of Folgers coffee for the characters in the commercial, who were almost always housewives with various problems making delicious-tasting coffee. From 1965 to 1986, actress Virginia Christine reminded viewers Folgers was "mountain grown, the richest kind of coffee." Folgers promoted their instant coffee in the 1970s and early 1980s ads which took the viewer inside various gourmet restaurants while a voice-over by Bryan Clark whispered, "We are here at (insert name of four-star restaurant), where we've secretly replaced the fine coffee they usually serve with Folgers Crystals. Let's see if anyone can tell the difference!" Clark ended the commercials with the line, "Folgers Crystals...coffee rich enough to be served in America's finest restaurants." One Folgers television ad from 1985 became particularly associated with the Christmas holidays. A student named Peter returns home from college, the smell of freshly brewed coffee awakening his parents and alerting them to their son's arrival. The Cunningham & Walsh spot aired yearly until 1998, then in edited form in 2004 and 2005. In 2009, a similar theme was employed, a son coming home from West Africa and waking up to the smell of coffee. In the mid-1980s Folgers became one of the first NASCAR sponsors that was not affiliated with an automotive, tobacco, or beer company. After a trial season with the Joe Ruttman driven, Larry McClure owned Chevrolet in 1985, Folgers expanded sponsorships with high-profile race teams and popular drivers such as Tim Richmond, Benny Parsons, Ken Schrader, and Mark Martin. In 2006, the advertising agency Saatchi & Saatchi created a viral advertisement, popularly known as "Happy Mornings," in which a large group of cheerful singers and dancers appear at sunrise as the sun itself to wake people up. It has been widely distributed on weblogs and video sites such as YouTube. In 2010, Folgers ran a Folgers Jingle Contest in which fans could submit their own renditions of “The Best Part of Wakin’ Up” jingle through video submissions. The contest ran in 2011 and in 2013, and in 2014, the brand celebrated the 30th anniversary of the famous jingle. The Folger Building: The brick, five-story Folger Coffee Company Building at 101 Howard in San Francisco, California is the former headquarters of Folgers. It is listed on the United States National Register of Historic Places. The building still has a sign saying "The Folgers Coffee Company" on one corner. The Wharton School of the University of Pennsylvania has its California campus on the top floor, where Wharton's MBA for Executives program is offered. On August 2, 2011, the Folger Building was purchased by the University of San Francisco, marking a return to the university's roots in downtown San Francisco. In the news: Abigail Folger, an heiress to the company fortune and a friend of actress Sharon Tate, was one of the five victims who, including Tate, were brutally murdered in the early morning hours of August 9, 1969 by Charles Manson's "family" while she was visiting Tate.

Tate murders

The Tate murders were a series of killings conducted by members of the Manson Family on August 8–9, 1969, which claimed the lives of five people, one of them pregnant. Four members of the Family invaded the home of married celebrity couple, actress Sharon Tate and director Roman Polanski at 10050 Cielo Drive in Los Angeles. They murdered Tate (who was eight and a half months pregnant), along with three friends who were visiting at the time, and an 18-year-old visitor, who was slain as he was departing the home. Polanski was not present on the night of the murders as he was working on a film in Europe. The murders were carried out by Tex Watson under the direction of Charles Manson. Watson drove, with Susan Atkins, Linda Kasabian, and Patricia Krenwinkel, from Spahn Ranch to the residence on Cielo Drive. Manson, a would-be musician, had previously attempted to enter into a recording contract with record producer Terry Melcher, who was a previous renter of the house along with musician Mark Lindsay and Melcher's then-girlfriend, actress Candice Bergen. Melcher had snubbed Manson, leaving him disgruntled. Murders: On the night of August 8, 1969, Tex Watson took Susan Atkins, Linda Kasabian, and Patricia Krenwinkel to "that house where Melcher used to live" and told them to "totally destroy everyone in it, as gruesome as you can". Manson had told the women to do as Watson would instruct them. Krenwinkel was one of the early Family members and one of the hitchhikers who had allegedly been picked up by Dennis Wilson of the Beach Boys. The occupants of the house at 10050 Cielo Drive that evening, all of whom were strangers to the Manson followers, were movie actress and fashion model Sharon Tate, wife of film director Roman Polanski, who was eight and a half months pregnant; her friend and former lover Jay Sebring, a noted hairstylist; Polanski's friend and aspiring screenwriter Wojciech Frykowski; and Frykowski's lover Abigail Folger, heiress to the Folger coffee fortune, and daughter of Peter Folger. Polanski was in Europe working on a film project; Tate had accompanied him, but returned home three weeks earlier. Music producer Quincy Jones, a friend of Sebring, had planned to join him that evening, but didn't go. When the murderers arrived at the entrance to the Cielo Drive property, Watson, who had been to the house on at least one other occasion, climbed a telephone pole near the entrance gate and cut the phone line to prevent telephone access to the house. At that point it was after midnight, August 9, 1969. The group backed their car to the bottom of the hill that led to the estate, parked, and walked back up to the house. Thinking the gate might be electrified or rigged with an alarm, they climbed a brushy embankment to the right of the gate and dropped onto the grounds. Just then, headlights approached them from farther within the angled property. Watson ordered the women to lie in the bushes. He then stepped out and ordered the approaching driver to halt. 18-year-old student Steven Parent had been visiting the property's caretaker, William Garretson, who lived in the property's guest house. As Watson leveled a 22-caliber revolver at Parent, the frightened youth begged Watson not to hurt him, claiming that he wouldn't say anything. Watson first lunged at Parent with a knife, giving him a defensive slash wound on the palm of his hand (severing tendons and tearing the boy's watch off his wrist), then shot him four times in the chest and abdomen, killing him. Watson then ordered the women to help push the car further up the driveway. After traversing the front lawn and having Kasabian search for an open window to the main house, Watson cut the screen of a window. Watson told Kasabian to keep watch down by the gate; she walked over to Parent's AMC Ambassador and waited. He then removed the screen, entered through the window, and let Atkins and Krenwinkel in through the front door. As Watson whispered to Atkins, a sleeping Frykowski awoke on the living room couch; Watson kicked him in the head. When Frykowski asked him who he was and what he was doing there, Watson replied: "I'm the devil, and I'm here to do the devil's business." On Watson's direction, Atkins found the house's three other occupants and, with Krenwinkel's help, forced them to the living room. Watson began to tie Tate and Sebring together by their necks with rope he had brought and slung up over one of the living room's ceiling beams. Sebring's protest – his second – of rough treatment of the pregnant Tate prompted Watson to shoot him. Folger was taken momentarily back to her bedroom for her purse, out of which she gave the intruders $70. After that, Watson stabbed the groaning Sebring seven times. Frykowski's hands had been bound with a towel. Freeing himself, Frykowski began struggling with Atkins, who stabbed at his legs with the knife with which she had been guarding him. As he fought his way toward and out the front door, onto the porch, Watson caught up with Frykowski and struck him over the head with the gun multiple times, stabbed him repeatedly, and shot him twice. Watson broke the gun's right grip in the process. Around this time, Kasabian was drawn up from the driveway by "horrifying sounds". She arrived outside the door. In a vain effort to halt the massacre, she falsely told Atkins that someone was coming. Inside the house, Folger had escaped from Krenwinkel and fled out a bedroom door to the pool area. Folger was pursued to the front lawn by Krenwinkel, who caught her, stabbed her, and finally tackled her to the ground. She was then dispatched by Watson, and they stabbed Folger 28 times. As Frykowski struggled across the lawn, Watson murdered him with a final flurry of stabbings. Frykowski was stabbed a total of 51 times. In the house, Tate pleaded to be allowed to live long enough to have her baby, and even offered herself as a hostage in an attempt to save the life of her unborn child. At this point either Atkins, Watson, or both killed Tate, who was stabbed 16 times. Watson later wrote that as she was being killed, Tate cried: "Mother ... mother ..." Earlier, as the four Family members were heading out from Spahn Ranch, Manson had told the women to "leave a sign ... something witchy". Using the towel that had bound Frykowski's hands, Atkins wrote "pig" on the house's front door in Tate's blood. En route home, the killers changed out of bloody clothes, which were ditched in the hills along with their weapons. Investigation: In initial confessions to cellmates of hers at Sybil Brand Institute, Atkins said she killed Tate. In later statements to her attorney, to prosecutor Vincent Bugliosi, and before a grand jury, Atkins indicated Tate had been stabbed by Tex Watson. In his 1978 autobiography, Watson said that he had stabbed Tate and that Atkins had never touched her. Since he was aware that the prosecutor, Bugliosi, and the jury that had tried the other Tate–LaBianca defendants were convinced Atkins had stabbed Tate, he falsely testified that he did not stab her.

Saturday, July 14, 2018

Make an iced mocha

I've always wanted to make an iced Mocha. I love them and I drink them a lot. Especially around Christmas (peppermint mochas)

Friday, July 13, 2018


what i find annoying is elder say they want to meet with me but then disappear on me. not sure why but whatever. the last ones asked if they'd seen Mormons before and i'm like yeah since i am 1.


i'm going to game night (something i like doing, it's fun and i see my friends). it's annoying since i can't drive myself and i'll be disappearing. i love it since we have so much fun there.

coffee and donuts

i used to love krispy kreme. my family love it since they are amazing and many kids love it since there are donuts being made in a window.

Thursday, July 12, 2018

cracking up

what would've happened if either: my dad called me while i was giving my talk or if i sung i believe from the book of Mormon musical

skirts with pockets

i LOVE skirts and dresses with pockets. they're awesome since you can put things in them and not need to carry things like a shoulder bag. several skirts and dresses i own have pockets and are awesome. those are my favorites since i don't NEED a bag.

baggy clothes

i love baggy clothes. i'm not ashamed of my size but i like looser clothes since i have a bad back and often want to hide it. when i met some people i was in tons of baggy clothes. i was (and still am) ashamed of having scoliosis but I've come to slightly accept it. in looser clothes i'm able to hide my scoliosis and body frame. i love loose baggy clothes but they need to fit properly. once someone opened a couple doors for me because i looked uncomfortable.

supressing hunger

i've had tons of caffeine in my system today. too much of which will suppress your hunger. especially if it's iced

Wednesday, July 11, 2018


i'm suffering gas. i eat so many beans and that's why.

Starbucks card

I got myself a 30 dollar Starbucks card. I did it myself by answering quizzes on survey junkie. I’m hoping that this will be a good way to earn rewards and not have to have much human contact. As a person who suffers Asperger’s syndrome I’m not into having personal interactions so having a Starbucks app I’ll be able to go in, pay for it with my phone and get out. Minimize the time I’ll need to spend in a Starbucks. I like spending time in Starbucks but I don’t like having to talk to people. I often talk to my friends and spend time with them but I’m super shy and can’t handle uneasy interactions.


i got back on my board. i'm so scared i went out for a short bit

Tuesday, July 10, 2018

Back feels horrible

My back feels awful. I've been losing weight on weight watchers and now my spine and muscle spasms are worse than they have ever been. Granted its likely because I'm not carrying around as much weight but my back should not be hurting this much. Also my muscle spasm medication is super potent. Literally I took 1 Saturday night and passed out on Sunday night (granted I was super tired). I'm just wondering when it'll be over. Little pain, no more muscle spasms nothing.


When I say I can't drive due to a medical issue I have to explain what my muscle disorder is and why I suffer it and all that stuff I prefer not telling people. Its humiliating I have to depend on people because I can't drive. People say its fine. I feel like a burden because of it.

Amber alert

Maryland child Kingston Perry 9 year old and. Latina Perry 18 month old kidnapped with birth father Dwight Perry Car description: 2016 4 door Toyota. Any information call 911 IMMEDIATELY *update* all parties are found alive and ok

Monday, July 9, 2018

Murder of Logan Tucker

Logan Tucker was a six-year-old boy who became the victim of a murder where no body was found. this is truly sad since little kids being murdered have no chance in life. Events prior to Logan's murder: In 2002, Logan lived with his mother, Katherine Rutan, his four-year-old brother Justin, and his mother's roommate, Melody Lennington. Prior to Logan's disappearance, the Oklahoma Department of Human Services had taken custody of Logan and Justin after Katherine threatened to harm them. They were returned shortly afterwards. Katherine claimed she had seen Logan playing with matches. She said he was dangerous, and that she was afraid he would hurt his younger brother. Three days before Logan went missing, Katherine told the OKDHS that she wanted to give up her parental rights of Logan and Justin. DHS agreed to take custody of the children and place them in a residential treatment center, but they did not have an opening for several days. Katherine was furious when she found out they would not take Logan immediately. Logan's disappearance: Melody Lennington, Katherine's roommate, last saw Logan on the evening of 22 June 2002, when she put both children to bed. She said she awoke between 3:00 and 4:00am to the sound of Logan screaming and crying. She went back to sleep, and at 6:00am, she asked Katherine where Logan was. Katherine said Logan was sick and she had placed him in the basement. Later Katherine said DHS had taken Logan away or that he was with his father, or in a psychiatric hospital. OKDHS did not take Logan and were not scheduled to do so until the next morning. Logan was not at any of the other places Katherine named. Witnesses said after that day Katherine looked relieved that Logan was gone, and even started selling his clothes and belongings. Logan's grandparents reported him missing on July 7, 2002, after getting evasive answers from Katherine about where Logan was. Investigation into Logan's death and conviction of Logan's mom: When authorities searched Katherine and Melody's apartment, they found blood stains and masking tape with hairs stuck to it in the basement. On 22 August 2002, Logan's brother told FBI agents what happened the night Logan went missing. He said his mother took him and Logan out to the country. Justin said Logan was in the back seat of the car pale and hunched over, but not crying or talking. Justin had also asked Katherine why she needed the plastic she was carrying, and she responded, "to bury Logan." She then left Justin in the car, taking Logan with her. He said his mother told him to stay in the car because there were snakes out there. Justin said his mother had a shovel and some plastics. She crossed a fence and went out into the field. She later returned without Logan. Logan's body has never been found. He is presumed to have died on the night he went missing. Police believe Katherine buried Logan in the woods or field of Woodward County, or possibly dumped him in Fort Supply Lake. Katherine was convicted of first-degree murder in September 2007, and the jury recommended a sentence of life in prison without the possibility of parole. Rutan was formally sentenced to life without parole in October 2007.

Sleep in WAY too late

Its extremely rare for me to sleep in past 10 am. Today I woke up around 11:30. I must have been super tired for me to do that. Got 12 hours of sleep

Sunday, July 8, 2018


so i was singing the closing song and my dad texted me saying, "good job." i mouthed thank you.


i love belts. they can make baggy clothes fitted, tighter and show off my shape. i wear a belt on a denim dress to GIVE it a shape


i dislike alcohol. i'm into my sodas, coffee and teas. i don't like the taste of alcohol since it tastes bitter.

new recruits

a friend asked if i got any new recruits for my religion. i'm like no


i'm super tired since i exercised in the pool to the pool.

the stairs in the pool

so basically when i was about to get out but i happened to try get out of the pool but i kept slipping back into the pool. it was hilarious.

Thursday, July 5, 2018

Water down

I used watered down or loose meanings of words. Like if I say "I ditched a ward for a month" or "I ditched her" or "she's a military brat" I mean them in the nicest way possible. Like if you say someone's a "military brat" that means 1 (or both) parents are in the military. If you "ditch" someone that sounds rude and if I say "I ditched them or I ditched a ward for a month" I mean I was MIA due to XYZ.


I "ditched" both wards for a month or so and I use the word "ditch" very loosely since I didn't have a choice in the matter. My parents are divorced and thru 1 reason or another I wasn't present at either ward for a month or so at different times.

Criminal justice classes

So I'm doing forensic science/ criminal justice classes as part of my general education degree as I love them and talk a ton about it to my friends.

Forensic science stuff

I've got TONS of forensic science books, have taken TONS of forensic science classes and just enjoy the subject since its awesome. My mom likes it as well.

Hair ribbons

I have WAY too much hair stuff. My mom keeps complimenting my hair saying it's so pretty. I love my hair since I can do TONS with it. My hair is my pride and joy and cutting it off will make me cry.

I hate my life

What I said when I was in pain on Sunday, what I say if I'm on the spot and whenever something doesn't go my way

Nice boy

I'd mentioned my friend Danny to my mom and told her how nice he is since he helped me get to and from game night, split the bill for sushi and general sweetheart.

want a boyfriend?

a friend from my old ward asked if i wanted a boyfriend. i said yes but a kid my age

tied back with a ribbon

last Sunday my hair was tied back with a ribbon. it was long and very pretty.

driver's lisence

something i'm DREAMING of getting. why can't i just get 1? I've got a muscle disorder. i had 1 on Monday and lose control of 2 extremities (namely 1 arm and leg on my left side). it's triggered by: my back hurting, excessive amounts of caffeine and certain meats. now here's the problem: i can't tell when they're about to happen and can't stop them. i wear a medic alert bracelet in case i lose consciousness, which i don't do but this disorder could leave me dizzy, confused and tired.

Why me?

When I was in Kauai my mom found a ward for me to go to. She told me to try and find an activity to go to. I got slightly special treatment as I'm a pretty young girl


My hair is super long and as a way to cope with the heat I put my hair in pigtails. They're so long sometimes they look like ponytails. Super cute. My bangs are as long but not as consistent as my ponytails since I often have a midpart hait

Wednesday, July 4, 2018

Something is REALLY wrong

So I looked up kids resent their parents and not only did I see articles related to my search I saw numerous other related searches. Which made me think, wow this is a problem. I thought I might get a couple articles on my search and maybe a few other possible searches but not as many as I saw. Which makes me realize a few things: 1) I'm not alone in my struggle and 2) parents are doing things wrong if we're having tons of articles and alternative searches.

Tuesday, July 3, 2018

sit here

my friends from church are often saying sit here. i'm like ok. even if it kills me i'm still like ok.

eating healthier options

so my mom says she's planning on eating a strict diet plan. i'm all for it since i'm trying to lose weight too. i offered her to make more healthy options she can take into work since she is too busy. i need healthier options since i'm usually a flexitarian with an emphasis on vegan options.

The Springfield Three

The Springfield Three refers to an unsolved missing persons case that began on June 7, 1992, when friends Suzanne "Suzie" Streeter and Stacy McCall, and Streeter's mother, Sherrill Levitt, went missing from Levitt's home in Springfield, Missouri. All of their personal belongings, including cars and purses, were left behind. There were no signs of a struggle, except a broken porch light; there was also a message on the answering machine that police believe might have provided a clue about the disappearances, but it was inadvertently erased. In 1997, Robert Craig Cox, a convicted kidnapper and robber, claimed that he knew the women had been murdered and that their bodies would never be recovered. Neither their whereabouts nor their remains have been discovered. Victims: Sherrill Elizabeth Levitt was age 47 at the time of her disappearance. She was 5 feet 0 inches (1.52 m), 110 pounds (50 kg), with short light blonde hair, brown eyes and pierced ears. She was a cosmetologist at a local salon and a single mother, and was described as being very close to her daughter, Suzanne Elizabeth "Suzie" Streeter. Streeter was 19 years old, was 5 feet 5 inches (1.65 m), 102 pounds (46 kg), with shoulder length blonde hair and brown eyes. Her distinguishable marks included a scar on her upper right forearm, a small mole on the left corner of her mouth, and pierced ears (left ear pierced twice). Stacy Kathleen McCall, was age 18, was 5 feet 3 inches (1.60 m) and 120 pounds (54 kg), with long dark blonde hair and light colored eyes. Disappearance: Suzie Streeter and Stacy McCall graduated from Kickapoo High School on June 6, 1992. Streeter and McCall had been reported to be last seen at around 2:00 a.m. on June 7, when they were leaving the last of the few graduation parties they had attended that evening. At some point during the night, they were also seen in Battlefield, Missouri. The pair planned to spend the night at their friend Janelle Kirby's house, but when they decided Kirby's house was too crowded, they instead left to go to Streeter's (and thus Levitt's) home at 1717 East Delmar Street to retire for the night. It is assumed they arrived, because their clothing, jewelry, purses and vehicles were all present at the house the next day. Sherrill Levitt, Suzie's mother, was last heard from at approximately 11:15 p.m. on June 6 when she spoke with a friend on the phone about painting an armoire. The alleged timeline of the three is suspected to be convoluted, as the friends who last saw Suzie and Stacy the previous evening were also the first to arrive at the Levitt home the next day. The following morning around 9 a.m., Kirby and her boyfriend visited the house after Streeter and McCall failed to show up at her home; they had planned to spend the day at a water park, and were supposed to leave from Kirby's residence. Upon arriving, Kirby found the front door unlocked and entered the home, but found no sight of Streeter, McCall, or Levitt; each of the women's cars were parked outside. She also reported to police that the glass lamp shade on the porch light was shattered, though the lightbulb itself was intact. Kirby's boyfriend innocuously helped her sweep the broken glass off the porch, which police later determined may have destroyed potential evidence. Inside the house, Kirby found Levitt and Streeter's dog, a Yorkshire Terrier named Cinnamon, who appeared agitated; while inside, Kirby also answered a "strange and disturbing call" from an unidentified male who made "sexual innuendos". She hung up and immediately received another call of a sexual nature, again hanging up the phone. Several hours later, McCall's mother, Janis, also visited the house after failed attempts to reach her daughter by phone. Inside, she noticed all three women's purses were sitting on the floor of the living room, and also saw her daughter's clothing neatly folded from the night before. Levitt and Streeter's cigarettes were also left inside the house. Janis frantically called police from the home's telephone to report the three women missing; after placing the call, while checking the phone's answering machine, she listened to a "strange message", but it was inadvertently erased from the tape. Police were "very interested" in the call and believed it "may have contained a clue". They also did not believe it was connected to the prank calls Kirby received. McCall's parents contacted police in reference to their daughter's disappearance from Levitt's home more than 16 hours after the women were last seen, and other worried friends and family called and visited the home the following day. Police later estimated that the crime scene had been corrupted by ten to twenty people who visited Levitt's house. Upon the officers' arrival, the scene showed no signs of a struggle, except for the shattered porch light. Police also noted Levitt's bed had been slept in. All personal property was left behind including purses, money, cars, keys, cigarettes, and the family dog. Later developments: On December 31, 1992, a man called the America's Most Wanted hotline with information about the women's disappearances, but the call was disconnected when the switchboard operator attempted to link up with Springfield investigators. Police said the caller had "prime knowledge of the abductions" and publicly appealed for the man to contact them, but he never did. Levitt and Streeter were declared legally dead in 1997. However, their case files are still officially filed under "missing". Investigators received a tip that the women's bodies were buried in the foundations of the south parking garage at Cox Hospital. In 2007, crime reporter Kathee Baird invited Rick Norland, a mechanical engineer, to Springfield to scan a corner of the parking lot with ground-penetrating radar (GPR). Norland found three anomalies "roughly the same size" that he said were consistent with a "grave site location"; two of the anomalies were parallel, and the other was perpendicular. Police spokesperson Lisa Cox said that the person who reported the tip "provided no evidence or logical reasoning behind this theory at that time or since then." She also said the parking garage began construction in September 1993, over a year after the women's disappearances. "Digging up the area and subsequently reconstructing this structure would be extremely costly, and without any reasonable belief that the bodies could be located here, it is illogical to do so, and for those reasons SPD does not intend to. Investigators have determined this lead to not be credible." Darrell Moore, a former assistant at the Greene County Prosecutor's Office, said the tip came from someone who either "claimed to be a psychic or claimed to have a dream or vision about the case". Suspect: In 1997, Robert Craig Cox, imprisoned in Texas as a convicted kidnapper and robber and the suspect in a Florida murder, told journalists that he knew the three women had been murdered and buried, and claimed their bodies would never be recovered. In 1992, Cox had been living in Springfield and, when interviewed then, had told investigators that he was with his girlfriend at church the morning after the women disappeared, which she corroborated. However, she later recanted her statement and said that Cox had asked her to say that. Cox also stated that he was at the home of his parents the night of the disappearance, and they confirmed that alibi. Authorities were uncertain if Cox was involved in the case or if he was seeking recognition for the alleged murders by issuing false statements. Cox stated to authorities and journalists that he would disclose what happened to the three women after his mother had died. In media: The case remains unsolved in spite of upward of 5,000 tips from the public. In June 1997, a bench was dedicated to the women inside the Victim's Memorial Garden in Springfield's Phelps Grove Park. The case has been featured on 48 Hours, Unsolved Mysteries and America's Most Wanted. In March 2011, Investigation Discovery aired "The Springfield Three" on its Disappeared TV series.

unused to

so i made a video on YouTube about how i'm unused to guys opening the door for me (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eLcG3UsaS6E). i didn't refuse a guy opening the door for me i was just unused to having someone open the door for me.

pain killers

my back is in TONS of pain. my back's been bugging me since i'm losing weight. I've got to take TONS of pain killers. my weight isn't helping me to need pain killers since i'm in constant pain. i'm drinking more water to try and help me lose weight. unfortunately, it hurts my joints since my back is issues.

Monday, July 2, 2018

check on me

so an elder who is a close friend asked how i was from yesterday and i said, "still sore" and then showed him the ibuprofen bottle i carried in my bag. that was sweet of him to do that. considering i'm not sure how he feels about me.

how to stay modest

so my standards of "modesty" are as follows: -stay covered -wear light/ bright colors -don't show excess skin (unless necessary) when it comes to swim suits here are a few things to keep in mind: -who will be where your swimming -how old/ new is your swim suit (trust me I've had accidents. long story short i went to a party on saturday and my top was loose so....) -how tight/ loose will your suit fit?


i'm super nervous about moving wards fully since i love my old ward and so does my dad. my dad was the main reason for staying in the old ward. now i'm possibly going to try staying at the old ward.

Mummy Juanita

Momia Juanita (Spanish for "Mummy Juanita"), also known as the Inca Ice Maiden and Lady of Ampato, is the well-preserved frozen body of an Inca girl who was killed as an offering to the Inca gods sometime between 1450 and 1480 when she was approximately 12–15 years old. She was discovered on Mount Ampato (part of the Andes cordillera) in southern Peru in 1995 by anthropologist Johan Reinhard and his Peruvian climbing partner, Miguel Zárate. "Juanita" has been on display in Catholic University of Santa María's Museum of Andean Sanctuaries (Museo Santuarios Andinos) in Arequipa, Peru, almost continuously since 1996, and was displayed on a tour of Japan in 1999. In 1995, Time magazine chose her as one of the world's top ten discoveries. Between May and June 1996, she was exhibited in the headquarters of the National Geographic Society in Washington, D.C., in a specially acclimatized conservation display unit. In its June 1996 issue, National Geographic included an article dedicated to the discovery of Juanita. Discovery: In September 1995, during an ascent of Mt. Ampato (20,700 ft, 6309 m), Johan Reinhard and Zárate found in the crater a bundle that had fallen from an Inca site on the summit. To their astonishment, the bundle turned out to contain the frozen body of a young girl. They also found many items that had been left as offerings to the Inca gods strewn about the mountain slope down which the body had fallen. These included statues and food items. The body and the items were transported to Arequipa, where the body was initially kept in a special refrigerator at Catholic University. Two more ice mummies, a young girl and a boy, were discovered in an archaeological expedition led by Dr. Reinhard and Prof. Jose Antonio Chavez in October 1995, and they recovered another female mummy on Ampato in December 1997. Owing to melting caused by volcanic ash from the nearby erupting volcano of Sabancaya, most of the Inca burial site had collapsed down into a gully that led into the crater. Reinhard published a detailed account of the discovery in his 2006 book entitled, The Ice Maiden: Inca Mummies, Mountain Gods, and Sacred Sites in the Andes. Scientific analyses- Body: As Reinhard and Zárate struggled to lift the heavy bundle containing Juanita's body on Ampato's summit, they realized that her body mass had probably been increased by freezing of the flesh. When initially weighed in Arequipa, the bundle containing "Juanita" weighed over 90 pounds (40.82 kilos). Their realization turned out to be correct; Juanita is almost entirely frozen, making her a substantial scientific find. Like only a few other high-altitude Inca mummies, Juanita was found frozen and thus her remains and garments were not desiccated like those of mummies found in other parts of the world. She was naturally mummified, instead of being artificially mummified, such as is the case with Egyptian mummies. Her skin, organs, tissues, blood, hair, stomach contents and garments are extremely well-preserved, offering scientists a rare glimpse into Inca culture during the reign of the Sapa Inca Pachacuti. Analysis of her stomach contents revealed that she ate a meal of vegetables six to eight hours before her death. Health- Clothing and adornments: Juanita was wrapped in a brightly coloured burial tapestry (or "aksu"). Her head was adorned with a cap made from the feathers of a red macaw, and she wore a lively woollen alpaca shawl fastened with a silver clasp. She was fully clothed in garments resembling the finest textiles from the Inca capital city of Cuzco. This, in addition to evidence of excellent health, suggests that she may have come from a noble Cuzco family. These were almost perfectly preserved, providing valuable insight into sacred Inca textiles and how the Inca nobility dressed. Tools and equipment: Found with her in the burial tapestry was a collection of grave goods: bowls, pins, and figurines made of gold, silver, and shell. Genetic analysis: According to the Institute for Genomic Research (TIGR), the closest kin they could find in the database in 1996 were the Ngobe people of Panama, but the later research has shown her to share genetic patterns found in people from the Andes. Scientists at TIGR examined two mitochondrial DNA D loop sequences and found that Hypervariable region 1 (HV1) was consistent with mitochondrial haplogroup A, one of the four Native American gene groups. Hypervariable region 2 (HV2) included a unique sequence not found in any of the current mitochondrial DNA databases. Her haplotype is 16111T, 16223T, 16290T, 16319A. In accordance with the genetic world map and genetic patterns, her HV2 DNA sequence was also related with the ancient races originally from Taiwan and Korea, which supports the theory that Paleo-Indians had Pacific links. Cause of death: Radiologist Elliot Fishman concluded that she was killed by blunt trauma to the head. He observed that her cracked right eye socket and the two-inch fracture in her skull are injuries "typical of someone who has been hit by a baseball bat." The blow caused a massive hemorrhage, filling her skull with blood and pushing her brain to one side. In popular culture: -Mummy Juanita was mentioned in the episode "Mummy in the Maze" of the television series Bones. -Her story was told on the historical documentary series Mummies Alive. -She inspired Episode 204 of Buffy the Vampire Slayer titled "Inca Mummy Girl".


i convinced my mom to buy me vanilla almond milk (the sweetened kind) and she was hesitant thinking it was unsweetened but i'm sure once i open it it won't last a while.

Muscle spasms

When I was about 18 months old I'd started having these episodes where I'd lose control of 2 extremities. Years later I told my mom I'm tired and collapsed and my mom said it was holding a kid on a string. At the age of 5 (right after we'd gotten 1 of my brothers out if the NICU) I was admitted to the ER. I spent the night there and the doctors performed a battery of tests but couldn't find anything. At age 12 I was re-tested for epilepsy but nothing came of it. A year later I was diagnosed with scoliosis and my dad, who's a doctor found a lump on my shoulder. When my back was x-rayed it was found out to be true: I've got a lump on my arm and scoliosis. Age 16 I was recommended to take flexiral 3x a day but my parents were like no way. Also my dad thinks my muscle spasms and back are linked. Thankfully by: losing weight and changing my diet have helped my muscle spasms but I still live in fear from the childhood trauma of bullying and being unsure who I can trust.