Monday, December 22, 2014
there is these reports on HLN on police brutality. one example is #ICantBreathe. i can't believe how violent people are becoming now a days. people are become wary of police and their violence. the brutality is insane. a retired cop is taken down town and interrogated. normally, he'd say "I'm a retired cop" and that would be the end of it but nope not today.
i suffer muscle spasms where i spaz on 1 side of my body. i can usually feel it coming. everyone who has come into contact with me while i have my muscle spasms are OK with it. occasionally they will freak out but they will check and see if i am OK. people will freak out but that's normal since everyone doesn't know what else to do. they can't stop it. a couple will try catching me in case i do collapse, which i have not done since i was in elementary school and i am in college now. once before i graduated from high school i politely asked the person who was directly behind me to catch me in case i collapsed. I've only once gotten picked on due to muscle spams. and by picked on i mean I'm being driven crazy and the person acted like i was disabled, which i am not.
Sunday, December 21, 2014
I've had a couple #EpicFailure in ASL. once i accidentally thought my teacher signed Lagoon but it was LOGAN. another is where i jumped from 25 to 30 when we were doing numbers. nobody is perfect. it was pretty funny as i'm an ASL major in college
since i started college my friends and i do a gift exchange. usually its 1 friend and me. depending on who it is and their holiday habits will depend on what i give them. we call it gift exchange since there are 2 of us and cultural sensitivity. the 1st friend of mine i did it with is Jewish and doesn't believe in Santa.
whenever the holidays come around i usually say, "happy holidays." i have friends who celebrate Christmas, Kwanza and haunaka. that's why i say happy holidays since I'm unsure about what they celebrate. my friends and i all use this statement since we are different religions.
Saturday, December 20, 2014
OK so I'd gotten the 5 required stickers for a free drink. I'd gotten to a Starbucks and ordered. by the time i gotten it i was practically salivating over it. i love the drink i ordered. unfortunately, i was salivating in front of 2 of my friends and neighbors (embarrassing).
Tuesday, December 9, 2014
OK so when i was the only 1 alive (this is prior to July of '97), my former house keeper for some reason was on the home phone. i was at a neighbors being babysat. my dad's friend's wife had their daughter and called my house to say that. for some reason my former house keeper mistook that and wrote a note saying, someone has my dad's daughter, which was (and still is true to this point in time) me. my dad freaked and fired the house keeper and yelled at the neighbor watching me. what happened was my dad's friends must have called back and told my father what happened. my dad apologized but fired the house keeper.
Monday, December 8, 2014
so this former team mate of mine is so afraid of stink bugs she avoids them at all costs even moving to the other side of the seat to do so. anyways, my brother flicked a stink bug in no particular direction. so she flipped out and dumped Gatorade all over him. if i hadn't vouched for the little jerk the carpool would've ended then and there. i should've sided with my brother. another time she had Gatorade again and asked if she should do it again. what i should've done is take it from her. that time i was all "No."
words can be a powerful tool so be careful. its not just an LGBT issue it can be anything. if you say something racist, sexist or any type of slur you could be offending someone. my brother said i was using my asperger's diagnosis as well as my back to get out of things. I'm not. if i suffer with Aspergers I'm having trouble with social cues and i don't let my back get in the way since i have scoliosis and try doing everything my brothers and "normal" team mates do. i became suicidal when i overheard that. luckily someone snapped me out of that. i was 1 of the lucky ones. you make fun of someone due to anything you might have self-esteem issues or are otherwise damaged. be careful of your words and who you say them to because you might be hurting someone you know.
Saturday, December 6, 2014
ok so my film as lit class had a makeshift "Grammies" thing for a movie we did. the thing is my friend begged me to dress up and I also had allied softball so I made my outfit for the day something I can transition from school to my extracurricular. my outfit was a dress, leggings and wedges for school and a camisole underneath and sneakers to change into for practice.
so I decided to dress up for Disney day but I also had allied softball (indoor softball) practice that day so I had stuff that I could switch into. so anyways I was dressing in an eeyore costume which I sort of "made" or should I say "make a makeshift" costume. so I am in a eeyore costume and standing in my child development classroom and a cute little girl called me a bunny. I was a blue bunny.
Thursday, December 4, 2014
ok so I did my 1st class, went to a party, went and studied a little bit, went to my 2nd class and then from my 2nd class (both my classes today are down in the center of Rockville) and I rushed over to my old high school and saw the tail end of my brothers concert. and now I am home.
has anyone called people you hate "those people"? well my best friend called people whose names she forgot those people. I'm not saying I dislike her saying that but I grew up with 2 of the guys she called those people. I was hopping mad since those were like my brothers
if something sounds strange or foreign to you should you try it or meet the person before you judge it? hate and prejudice started from this. a few months ago I told my friend about one of my friends and she made him the bad guy and bad mouthed him. no offence to my 1st friend but I'm pretty open minded about things.
Tuesday, December 2, 2014
my favorite food in the universe is sushi. its protein rich, full of antioxidants, is generally low in sugar for the most part and can generally fill me up for a long time. unfortunately, too much of the good can be bad, like too much vegetables raise blood sugar. but I try rounding the bad out with the good. for most people who eat healthy does that. I love California rolls. its very tasty and its protein rich foods. I'm very into every type of sushi. my favorite thing in sushi is avocado and crab meat. with me being diabetic, I need to have to be careful since I'm working on the carb heavy food that is sushi. like I said using fats and protein to round it out is good.
I've watched a video about an 8 year old anorexic named Dana. I'm very shocked. how can an 8 year old get anorexia? more younger and younger kids were getting anorexia. its shocking since younger and younger girls are getting an eating disorder. my brother would be horrified since he says anorexia is disgusting.
Monday, December 1, 2014
I'm kind of sad the semester is almost over. I know it might sound very lame but its kind of true. I'm going to miss my daily routine of getting up and going to school every day or nearly every day. I'll have to find something to do over winter break other than stay home every day. my friends are going to be on break as well so maybe i can hang out with them. or there are these parties I'm always getting invited to so maybe I'll finally go to one. my mom agreed to let me and Emily go but since it was in DC she changed her mind. i used to be invited to tons of parties but now I'm not so sure. i hope i can use my student ID and some cash i can get and get into a party. just gotta find a party dress.
Sunday, November 30, 2014
I used to be terrified of heights when I was younger. now I'm better but when I look down and I'm TERRIFIED. when I was at Hershey park one time I went onto a rollercoaster called the Fahrenheit. anyways I told my mom and she didn't believe me that I was going on that type of a ride since I was such a chicken around heights prior to going on that roller coaster.
I'm in love with my braided hair. I have my braided hair whenever I sleep in order to crimp my hair. with my hair being as thick as it is braiding them is essential to crimp it. I had my hair in a braided fashion in order to try out a Degrassi character's hairdo. its really pretty. I like my hair crimped.
I love Taylor swift. she writes the best music. my mom jokes I know all the songs by her. I don't want to say that but it is possible I do. I like music and I'm into singing. I'm into country crossover music. I like her music. I'm very into her music but I don't know if I know ALL her music.
Shippers are people who want certain people to be in the romantic type of a relationship. I like the nice type of shippers. the type of people who are open-minded to change. my best friend Emily was a violent Jevan (Jackie & Evan) shipper. so violent she wanted me to have no contact with a friend and neighbor of mine. tons of people are Jevan shippers since he and I look cute together and compliment each other. girls ship us, boys ship us. parents, teachers and coaches ship us. toms of people were excited when Jevan was going to prom in 2013. it was nice but kind of embarrassing as well as slightly intrusive.
diets are bad. you put all the weight back on afterwards. mostly, just get good foods. like water, diet sodas or juice versus full calorie and full sugar sodas. exorcise a little more, eat a little bit less, watch your calories, watch the sweets, don't eat before bed, sleep a little more etc.
the most famous sufferer of Anorexia was Isabelle Caro. She agreed to do it since people were suffering from it and she wanted to save 1 person. if she could do that then her job is done. its very interesting and very happy to show that. I'm very happy she happened to do that. I love her strength.
I'm very excited since tomorrow is the 1st day of December. I was happy when October 1st came. tons of people were excited about October since September is way too long. December is very excited since college exams and break comes as soon as we are done with exams. its also my baby (youngest) brother's birthday.
I saw this episode of intervention. it was about a pair of fraternal twin girls and how they became anorexic. it was so sad since they are competitive. one of them did karate and invited the other to her class. they did that and didn't separate and find their individuality. that really contributed to their anorexia. it shows twins need to separate and grow individually.
Saturday, November 29, 2014
on thanksgiving I said I was thankful for everything in my life, which is true. I'm so happy that everyone was educated enough to help me. I don't have a SET group of friends but I know people and help them as well. I wasn't in the upper tied (the in crowd) but I was very close. on the wedding cake model there is the in-crowd as the top layer. I was in the frosting ring on the outside of the upper tier
Thursday, November 27, 2014
everyone is ballsy to a point. I've been ballsy since I was like 17 years old. I've been ballsy by going into the English office without permission, walking onto NWHS without a guest pass, not dressing conservatively at my old high school. I've gotten more ballsy since I did all those things. I saw a post that said, "good girls are bad girls who are bad girls who don't get caught" and not a ton of people believe it but I think its true since I am an example of that.
my BEST friend Evan Angert was the student speaker at the Northwest high school (NWHS) graduation in 2013. He's my best friend. he shared his personal story of dealing with autism. he told us not to use any excuses. Evan's own twin brother, Trevor said it made Trevor realize how stupid all the excuses Trev made and Evan didn't. the next year I went to the 2014 graduation. the student speaker wasn't as good. it was a hard act to follow. She mentioned the song, Let me take a selfie. she mentioned all the things that happened that year and said to look foreword. I can't remember much else since it was so boring.
I'm half Chinese. very few can tell I'm part Chinese since I look white or Latina. I'm Chinese thru my father. most people mispronounce my last name as Zoo. I'm often having my last name mispronounced and when I graduated high school I have a yay moment since I FINALLY got my last name pronounced correctly
I rarely watch the twilight zone. a person comes into a hotel to visit his old haunts. I'm scared of inhumane things that are being shown in this episode. some people don't like horror but I do. I like the black and white coloring of this series. this series is a way of good way of using lighting to show the fear.
Wednesday, November 26, 2014
Eli and Drew get into a physical fight. Eli and Clare are not by from Clare's pregnancy. Eli punches Drew in the face and then says he (Eli) is mad at Clare. Jonah make Becky realize who she is mad at: Luke. Luke tries apologizing but Becky says its Luke's fault Becky's life isn't good. Becky said she'd forgive him but not yet.
I have frequent teeth pain due to my wisdom teeth surgery. I can chew but it often need pain killers and soft foods to help numb the pain in my teeth. I'm able to grin and bear it half the time. its only when my teeth can't chew. I'm happy my teeth can help me most of the time.
I've gone to a couple. I've always been into it since I like showing off. once my brother had me get his if he got any. I came freakishly close to running up for him. I like going to have school spirit. I also like going since I can show off.
apparently I look nice in black. that could be due to my skin tone or my hair, I don't know why. black is slimming so my dad said I should wear black to make me look skinnier. I had black everything once. I was running in black dress which is hilarious. try running in dress shoes. my Letterman jacket, jaguar sweatshirt and sweat pants as well as my juicy sweats are black. I have black uggs. black isn't the ONLY color I own but its about 50% of my wardrobe.
some families are homophobic and aren't accepting of a gay or transgender person in their family. in the book series of pretty little liars Emily the youngest girl starts a relationship with a girl. when her family finds out they are livid and push her into a reform program to become straight again. it doesn't work. she is sent to her aunt and uncles house. she runs away and they finally accept Emily for who she is. how can you not accept your kid for who they are? no matter the religion it isn't fair. you should be happy your kid finds someone they love.
I love my letterman jacket. its brand new. I'm a varsity letterperson from high school. some kid at the football game was in a boys varsity jacket. my dad wanted me to get a boys letterman jacket. my brothers and I agreed that I should get a girls jacket. the girls have a hood and boys get leather sleeves. both are nice but I'm thinking I possibly should've gotten a boys jacket. I like the girls though.
pink and blue are male and female colors. I'm a girl but I like blue since I happened to be a girl. some school administrator said, why can't he come to school dressed as a girl. I can't send my kid to school as a girl when he's a boy. pink and blue aren't able to see a transgender as whoever they perceive themselves. its not in the bible that people who are bad. it isn't bad since I'm OK with it. I'd kiss Adam Torres, who is an FtM. he's adorable.
I'm wearing my hair in side bangs. my hair is long. I had my hair in a shag cut and I really want my hair back. my hair is going to be long and insane. I put my hair into a bun and then I happened to try teaching it a lesson. I love my hair long but it isn't a crazy way. in my hair I'll be able to work on my hair. its insane. I like my hair long but its insane since I have to wear my hair long. it is high maintenance.
I don't know how the heck I got into plaid but now I am into it. my dad once asked me why I stole something from my brothers closet. the shirt I was wearing is a unisex or intersex type so girls AND boys can wear it. the thing with plaid is its unisex no matter what. there is plaid shirts, plaid skirts and kilts and everything.
how many of us has heard of the slender man murders? the 12 year old girls who tried killing their friend. they stabbed a girl 19 times. she was lured to a perpetrators house thinking it was a birthday party sleepover. one of them said it was weird they didn't feel remorse over the thing. luckily, the girl survived but that is insane. slender man as many of us knows is a tall faceless person who terrorizes people, mostly kids in the woods. they thought they could be Slender man's proxy. unfortunately, they didn't know Slender man is an internet meme. http://time.com/2817524/slender-man-murder-charge-waukesha/
some people think the mother daughter bond is unbreakable. sometimes it is. in the book Carrie by Stephen king Carrie gets telekinesis and her mother is a schizophrenic. her mother abuses Carrie like crazy since Carrie is sinning in her mothers eyes. in Margret white, Carrie's mom's eyes everything about being a girl is sinful. Margret calls breasts dirty pillows and only girls who are bad get the period. When Carrie makes her prom dress its a strapless and her mother says that she can see her chest and everyone else will too. I wore a strapless and my main concern was whether or not it would fall down since I don't have a bra on.
within the last year alone 4 kids have gone missing. what is WRONG with people these days? one set of kids is from where I'm from in Maryland. the mom is in a psychiatric hospital and suffers from some sort of mental problem. she is a suspect in her kids disappearance. as Jennifer Mosley from Ned's Declassified would say "what is your deal?"
2 in a million is about a kid who killed his parents and sister because he was in financial debt and wanted his parents money. the reason he killed his sister is because he wanted all the money for himself. that is defiantly greed and some sibling animosity. I'm not on good terms with all 3 of my brothers but they will love me one day. not a good idea to have a sibling and rich parents.
I went to Northwest high school. the mascot was a jaguar. I like Jag swag. I have a Letterman jacket since I'm a high school Letterman. I went to 2 playoff games the 2 past years and we won both times I went to the games. so I have: 2.5 uniforms from the allied sports (2 full uniforms and a tee-shirt), a sweatshirt and a Letterman jacket. I'm into jaguar stuff. I wore jaguar stuff. when I was going to northwest high school side some QO kids said we hate northwest. I yelled back, "we hate QO."
I'm not that religious but I'm also not the best person to ask for a recommendation since I can be stuck in some rigid thoughts. I don't think people should condemn homosexuality. they were born that way. why else would they have suffer all the abuse they did? one of my favorite classmates sayings is "take me as I am."one of the LGBTQ people uses it as protection since the person uses it in case they run onto a homophobic person.
my mother is always on me to go on an adventure. I'm always willing to do that so long I choose where I can go. my mother always wants me to do things that I haven't before so I can get the new experience. once I ran over the town center in German town. I wasn't as "street savvy" as I am now. plus I had gotten "made over" for prom. my toenails were mostly wet and I was in thin flip flops so not an easy task. I was able to do it but like I said not as street savvy.
I had a 2 hour nap today since I'm so tired. I'm glad to have my time to sleep. sleeping is nice especially since I'm not often getting tons of sleep. one time I went off coffee for a couple days and got more sleep since I wasn't all caffeinated up. good on that
the forensic files episode I watched is called gold rush. a guy gets into an accident and gets scars. he kills a girl who isn't pregnant but says she is. he says its a suicide but it was a homicide since Sheila was right handed and didn't have good knowledge of the gun.
there is something wrong with someone being a 13 year old and saying she is 19 years. they thought a girl was 19 but she was only 13. she was killed since people who did drugs thought the 13 year old girl stole cocaine. they killed the girl due to that. they found a piece of chewing gum. a suspect chewed the same type that was there at the site where the girls body was. gum can have a copy of people's teeth. this is interesting since people are unaware gum can do that. it was 1 of the only things that connected the people to the girl.
I've mentioned pain tolerance: I have a very high one. there is something called intolerance. especially about LGBTQ issues. my favorite quote about that is Adam asking about the bible and science. he says, "you'll say look past the bible for a mollusk but not about a play about 2 guys in love?" and says, "because of intolerance like yours I've been thrown out of washrooms, beaten up bad."
everyone talks about the LGBT (lesbian, gay bisexual transgender) community disgusting. what I find disgusting is fully grown men flirting with girls who just turned 18 years old. that's just disgusting and WRONG. hello they are barely 18 and you ask them out? Ew. find someone your own age stupid. than again they COULD be pedophiles who do that. I'm talking about grown men who are taking advantage of girls who are barely legal. that might not be punishable by law but that in my moral standards is just as gross.
my ASL professor is interesting mix. he can be happy and jokey one minute but make him mad and he gets mad. he's also a little weird. like once he tried to get me to ride the bus with him. I live equidistant between both stations but its creepy I think to have a professor and student ride a bus together. he's nice though. he let me out early due to my allergies, let me get a retake and told me we didn't have class. he's nice to talk to but he is a little on the weird side.
I used to skateboard when I was younger. I was pushed to quit because of my terrible balance which I am working on. I've never lost my love just my fear of going onto a skateboard has made me quit. I fell off a skateboard once and now I am afraid to go back on.
Tuesday, November 25, 2014
Thursday, November 20, 2014
how many people know our high school, middle school or elementary school principal? elementary or middle maybe but i don't know high school. i knew my high school principal. the few times i spoke with her she was nice. it was so embarrassing when she said i was a good reflection of northwest high school. not that I'm not flattered its just i was singled out as that.
Wednesday, November 19, 2014
i thought sex sold but apparently controversial stories like Shocking sells. if being sex AND controversial stories were together it would fly off the shelves. the thing is I'm a "good girl" but apparently good girls are bad girls were bad girls who don't get caught. i hardly get caught since I'm allowed to do things since I'm in college.
Tuesday, November 18, 2014
Monday, November 17, 2014
i got into ugg boots my freshman year in high school. my former nanny took me to her bank and she saw some girls around my age (they WERE my former classmates) and thought I'd like those boots as well. I've been getting those since then. I'm not saying I'm not into it i can wear it so pretty and my feet are good.
Friday, November 14, 2014
that was most insane day of my life. I wasn't comfy but I had to wear a dress. I wanted to wear shorts. I wasn't physically shaking but I was scared. my friends supported me in putting on my medical bracelet and they also would've caught me in case I collapsed. you could've knocked me over with a feather since one of my neighbors was there and .... it was so sweet he wanted to hug me.
Thursday, November 13, 2014
Jackie and Emily were packing for a trip to Fiji. they were on the phone with their respective boyfriends Evan and Alex. Emily and i were modeling our skimpiest outfits for each other when my neighbor Matt walks in. Emily notices him first and hides in a bed. i say, "what the fu- oh Ah" ducking as well. "Matthew we love you but next time knock." Emily yells. Matthew says sorry. he walks out covers his eyes and knocks, "male counselor entering chickadee apartment." Emily and i cover up. when we do i say, "OK Matt you can come in." Emily rolls her eyes and yell love doves. Alex and Evan call back since our lines went dead when Matt came in. i say we are both OK. Emily keeps yelling love does as she makes and serves dinner and rum. Jatt makes out. Evan and Alex come over for dinner. Evan sees me making out and clears his throat. everyone talks about the impending trip to Fiji. Matt asks about who is apartment sitting. Emily pays him 10 dollars to do it. He then asks who will be watching me tonight. I scoot over to Evan and give Matt a knowing look. Jevan makes love in the shower. I change into a lacy bra and thong combo and we continue until Emily asks what Jevan is doing. i point at my lingerie. she points at hers. we both laugh. Matt walks in without knocking again. he said, "Jackie i need.... omigod." Jemily say, "Matt knock." Jevan and Emalex make love all night. we go to Fiji and have fun. we hang out in the lagoon where Jackie scares Emily.
my god Halloween was fun. i had a doctors appointment. my mom wasn't allowing me to do my full Halloween costume. after i was able to do it. i went to Starbucks and then people were freaking out since i was covered in fake blood. then i happened to go hang with Evan and others. it was fun since i went to dinner. my favorite thing was doing i went to red robin. i told the dude who showed us our table if we didn't good service I'd curse red robin for the rest of the night.
Wednesday, November 12, 2014
I'm thinking we all know what fashion is. what stinks is I'm thinking we are all becoming more fixated on fashion. i mean i can't wear basketball shorts and high heels? wear whatever makes you comfy. tons of people have told me this. the odd thing is we can wear a skirt with basketball shoes but we can't wear basketball shorts and heels? the heck?
we usually live with them. some are good parents. others aren't. i know we can't live with them but we can't live without them. my parents were LAME. most parents are pretty lame. my mom usually pronounces aeropostale (a favorite store of mine) the french way. my mom often makes fun of the Starbucks drinks.
once i received a pass to go to the main office. i was scared and left my stuff there in my class. i went to the office and then i ran into an old teacher. i told her what i was doing. she said i was a good girl and that's its a good thing. when i got there someone had given me a card saying thank you and gave me a Starbucks gift card. it was nice and mom said i was glad to get it since i was giving someone their phone back.
Tuesday, November 11, 2014
Monday, November 10, 2014
Saturday, November 8, 2014
Friday, November 7, 2014
Thursday, November 6, 2014
i love forensic files since there is something cool every episode. i loved the episode unholy vows. its about a war crimes against a bishop. I'm very happy about this episode since i love it. i also love it since i watched it after a crazy day.
I'm happy I like forensic science books. I'm very happy everyone likes me doing my passion. I've always had something for forensic science. Lincoln Lawyer is a series following this Lawyer named Mickey Haller as he solves crimes. sometimes with his ex-wife and his beloved sidekick. I've tried reading it but it's not been a major priority since I've started MC and I'm quite busy with work.
Wednesday, November 5, 2014
Tuesday, November 4, 2014
sometimes we state our opinion as facts. I'm telling my friends that I'm not mad I'm stating facts. it IS true since I'm not mad about something but stating what other people thought about the subject. others would argue that some people are stating their opinions AS fact. 1 of my neighbors was on 1 side an issue and another neighbor was pretty much on the other and she became violent about it.
so i had a drink i was gonna drink before a game and EVERYONE went crazy over it. its as if they'd never saw a pre-game drink before. so I'd gotten it at the clearance area in Safeway the day before. i was like, OK I'm gonna go drink this and everyone went CRAZY. they took it to get a better look at the dang thing. I'm like, it's just a drink. what's the big deal?
Monday, November 3, 2014
I, as a loyal harry potter fan love all things harry potter. I tried butterbeer in Florida. its kind of sugary but very tasty. my brothers tried the foam, even the picky one. I also tried the butterbeer frappe from Starbucks. butter beer is butterscotch and root beer. I gave my brothers tastes but my middle brother was very reluctant and had to be bullied into trying it, even thought it was even smaller than what an 11 year old had. Our 11 year old brother had a bigger spoonful than my 15 year old one. Butterbeer is a tasty drink. I ran into my brothers AFTER I finished the drink so offered the foam.
I went to red robin's on Friday. it was pretty fun. I wore my Carrie costume that day. I use my "telekinesis" to freak my friends out. I told the guy who shoed us our table if I didn't get decent service I'd "curse" red Robin that night. it was fun. and I got great service so I didn't curse it. Red Robin is a nice restaurant. I've been there with my friends before. I asked 1 of my friends what he thought I should get. he told me what I should get.
ok so Halloween was pretty intresting. i had a doctors appointment in the afternoon. i went in a "prom" dress. my mom refused me to let me wear my fake blood. afterwards i put my fake blood and then i went to starbucks. someone asked if i was hurt. halloween night: i put the finishing touches on my costume. i go out with my friends. i use my telekenis to freak my friends out. i get winked at. during the movie i "cuddle" up to a friend. we stay up until 1:30 AM. i come home punch drunk.
over the summer i went to 3 graduations in a month or less. i went to a NWHS graduations, LPMS graduation and a DTES one. the LPMS and DTES on the same day. my friend tricked me into going to the NWHS one. i got SO sick of them by the end of the third. i have to go to another 1 this summer.
most people i know have a nick name. some are a shortening of one's name. although i refer to this 1 guy as "dude in a suit" since he is usually IN a suit. i hate my real name since I'm usually in trouble whenever i am using my real name. this 1 guy thought Jackie was my REAL name.
I'm only wearing make up today to hide the signs of strain on my body. I got too much sleep yesterday and very little sleep on Saturday. then I happened to party WAY too hard Friday. I don't want to say I have a makeup addiction but I like wearing it. I like my lipstick and my tinted moisturizer the most. mostly its a good way for me to get tan and look hotter. I'm not trying to look like I got gangbanged by Crayola but I like looking tanner and hide the signs of strain on my eyes. I do have a problem with that. I don't get my 8 hours a night so more often than not I'm wearing a mascara and eyeliner to help make it look semi-nice.
OK so on Thursday and Friday i partied. now I'm kinda woozy. then again i have 8 cups of caffeine laden coffee in my system. on Thursday was club fun and i danced, ate sugary candy and ghosted. Friday i partied with my friends. it was either stay at my friends house and freak his parents out or go home at 1:30 in the morning. i got locked in my dad's laundry room.
Friday, October 31, 2014
Thursday, October 30, 2014
Wednesday, October 29, 2014
i'm gonna dress up and scare the crud outta my classmates tomorrow since i don't have classes fridays. its gonna be awesome. i also need to dress up in order to change my appearence to go ghosting. although i don't wanna get arrested.
i got hooked on this reality show called extreme couponing. none of my parents believe in extreme couponing. its vey intresting and good for reality tv. Jeff, my step dad says it makes for good reality TV. Jeff uses coupons as does my father and mother. They use it to save money. they money they save barely makes a BLIP on the extreme couponer's radar. they'd PAY the amount my parents buy. a couple use the coupons in order to pay for her house. Another doesn't work so she needs to use coupons. another supports 2 house holds in order to keep her extended family afloat. another uses coupons to keep the family buisness afloat.
what normal 11 year old likes hard candy? my brother does. then again he likes me and i guess he likes hard candy. weird but OK. whatever floats your boat. plus my family has diabetes so i guess it'd be sensible to EAT hard candies. the weird thing is my brother asked for a SUGAR FREE hard candy. that's every 11 year old dream is SUGAR so why.....?
i'm not sure i can change my appearence with out SOMEONE recognizing me. even if i dye my hair, wear a boys outfit or wear something diffrent. like once i was getting coffee someone was like, "did you go to northwest?" and then i was like oh hi Anthony's brother.
Tuesday, October 28, 2014
I'm into skateboarding. I've always been into skate boarding. I've never not been into skate boarding. I've had to stop due to me having bad balance. i got my balance back but its still pretty bad. my friend and i were doing a video game where we had to use a skateboard as a controller and i did amazingly well while my friend did not. I'm not saying she's bad she's uncoordinated.
Sunday, October 26, 2014
I'm in LOVE with Baltimore. I've ben there a bunch of times. mostly family stuff. My alma mater NWHS went there for their state championship in FOOTBALL. I went there 2 times within a month. I was there visiting and I got directions to STARBUCKS. the 2nd time was for a fireworks show.
Friday, October 24, 2014
I LOVE kids. I tried out child development and oh my god. AWESOME. that's all I can say. I loved them. especially when they sang 1D or played with us. I brought in a bunch of balls for bocce and they LOVED it. I was bored once and they had a transition. I walked in and I was bouncing a ball. it was like they were so excited. I bounced it and reminded them to share. they bounced it and caught it and passed it to each other. they LOVED bocce ball.
my friend got me into this a gazillion years ago. ghosting is where you leave candy and do ding dong ditch. you also leave a card. my step-dad thinks I'm a little old for it but I don't. I think its fun. my mom said only people on our street and a max of 4 families. so I think I got all 4.
Thursday, October 23, 2014
i'm very into coffee. i've always like coffee. my mom doesn't like it, not even the flavor of it. unfortunately it's a diuretic. i can use it to lose my weight. my mom would reather stuff me with me with caffiene than sugar or fats. well i'd rather have fats and caffiene than sugar in my diabetic kids. mostly, i have sugar substitutes since i like them. my dad likes the sugar substitutes and he doesn't even HAVE diabetes. cutting back on the sugar i can cut back on my calories.
2 of my most popular posts this past couple months have been about my brother and yoga. why does that stuff sell? i thought sexual stuff sells. seriously i understand THAT sells. Yoga i can kinda understand since its popular and many people like it. why the story about my 11 year old brother wanting a sugar free hard candy with normal 11 year old boy stuff upstairs? OK so i leave my blog unattended for a few hours (class and the bus ride home) and it goes VIRAL. why? i understand some of the stuff is interesting but why my blog?
its hard not to be on at least 1 social media site. i'm on 2. that's how i get my ideas and things to blog about. technically its my mom's idea for me to have a facebook but i secretly got a twitter as well. anyways i use my social media to help with my blog. i also VLOG. i use these social media to help me with my blog my dad wanted me to do. ok i wanted to do it as well but hey. it was his idea for me to start this.
i'm still obsessed by "too cool" from Camp rock. it kind of defined me at one point. my friend was very into this movie. i'm very into too cool. it doesn't TOTALLY define me but pretty close. i love this song since its very catchy and its meaning is very relatable.
i once came close to going into the boys bathroom once. i was packing up and my bladder was killing me. luckily i realized in time oops this is the boys room. another time my friend DARED me to go into the boys room. it was a girl scout event so the boys weren't there. that was fun. i went into a unisex bathroom near the 9/11 memorial. i was like this a boys or girls room. someone said, i think its a unisex bathroom.
everyone transforms into something. Jordan Todassy was plating a transgender character and went from a girl to a boy on set. i did that on Monday (girl to a boy). it was AWESOME. when i walked out of a thrift store changing room in a dress a couple weeks ago i transformed. i don't mind it but it was pretty.
my teachers were my mentors in a way. i was socially on the same level as my friends. other times i wasn't. 4 teachers put me thru the 3rd degree about my high school plans. i hated that. my favorite teacher is Mrs K. the teacher I'm closest to is Mr. Lewis. when 1 of my teachers asked something about a label i immediately sat up since i had a northwest Jaguars jersey on. My teachers were willing to give me a hand with my diabetes. when i got sick they lowered their standards and got thru it. one teacher let me run to the nurse's office and sit out of class. i just worked on my senior project. another had me get water with a "chaperone" in case i fainted. they were cool about the allied sports. some came to support me. some came to check it out. my dance teacher was there when i was playing a couple times. a TON of people came to support Jevan for their final senior game. one asked if i tried out for any plays or musicals after the game and met my REAL dad. my coaches were amazing. my handball coach let me do what i needed for my diabetes. I'm so glad they were accepting.
Wednesday, October 22, 2014
gender identity is the hot button topic. gender identity is a similar but not as contrivertal topic. i totally support the LGBT. my best friends help me through crud that happened to me and i happened to help them with the day of silence. the day of silence is saying "bullying is not ok".
i got into this blogger who will talk about diffrent topics. its very intresting since i'm very open-minded about it. i am a half asian, straight, girl. not everyone else is like that. i'm also very intrested in the diffrent topics. i'm very intrested since i'm glad he happens to talk about everything. unlike me i blog about anything and everything.
i've read the bible and can understand it but i'm not into the cristianity side of it. some of the things say "homosexuality is wrong and that people say that using an ouija board is an abomination to god. i'm not saying i'm not christian but i also happen to think things are right.
this song really speaks to me. during team handball i had 2 seperate lives. no one made me have 2 seperate lives they never came together so that's why i had that. my friends didn't know even when 1 of them was right next door. didn't he hear my voice or see me? only 1 time did my "seperate lives" come crashing together. that was when someone came and delivered my senior basket.
Tuesday, October 21, 2014
everyone has an amount of recognizably. i have LOADS of it. someone was like, "did you go to Northwest high school?" i learned later that's how they knew me. there was 1 day when i was bumming around the kentlands and it turned into "bump into Jackie" day. i was like come on. i forget how many people i ran into that day but omigod I'm SO not into that. the weird thing is i was recognized as my middle brother even thought he and i look absolutely NOTHING alike. another thing is i was walking around my old high school one time i walked around with a pass and i ran into the administrators and they didn't ask me for a hall pass.
everyone has gotten brain freeze off something. stupidly i got brain freeze off a Starbucks frappacinno. the only reason i say its stupid is because most people aren't often getting brain freeze off that. the only reason i got brain freeze is because i can't drink it because of my wisdom teeth surgery. i had to eat it. OK i drank the "leftovers".
i i like tons of music. i got into country music since i know its one of the only types my mom doesn't like. my mom said she doesn't like country music. my favorite is Trisha Yearwood's song "X's and O's". i usually like country music and turn it up when it comes on to tick my mother off since she can't stand country music. i like ticking my brothers off since i don't like them that much.
during the 6-8 weeks prior to prom i barely got any peace about who i was going with, what he and i were wearing and the excitement about me and who i was going with. it didn't help he spent tons of time with me without practice and prom stuff. people were so excited about me and him dating. I'm very happy he and i are friends but why we cute together? mostly it was "what are you are wearing to prom?" i love black and red. he and i looked cute together in those colors. although I'm not sure why people were insane about who i was going to prom. everyone people said they were going to wait outside the door and see Evan say yes. many people were excited. someone said i looked cute together. i hated get ready for my senior prom. i liked being with my friend to the prom. i got my nails (toes and fingers) done, along with my eyebrows and upper lip. my friend did my make up, hair, and pores. I'm not saying i hated getting pretty and everything but I'm not into getting done. my friends were excited and everyone wanted to get me ready.
I'm in LOVE with Pairings. mostly its a teen thing. my "pairing with my step-sister is Cackie (C/ourtney J/Ackie). my pairing with my male best friend is Jevan (J/ackie EVAN). mostly my friend Emily and i do the pairings. my mom and step dad mock it but i love it. how many people do that for fun? not a lot. when my friend Evan and i do something its a "Jevan" thing. i don't go around with him 24/7 but tons of people ship it.
once i decided to walk my brother and neighbor home. i told them "tabloid was over."they thought tabloid was some person not a TV show. i said over and over again, "Tabloid was over so." i figured my brother and neighbor didn't hear me correctly. i know my brothers know i love ID (investigation discovery) so i told them Tabloid was on ID but they didn't make sense of it. most of the time, i don't know why i fall asleep to forensic science.
most of us know how to run. i like running but i have a VERY minor leg problem so its hard for me to run uphill but i can try. most of my neighbors see me running around the neighborhood when i AM on my exorcize. my neighbor says he sees me zipping around the neighborhood. he says maybe when i get faster i can zip around a lot more. once in a while i WILL run around. usually on a flat surface to not interfere with my leg problem. once i ran and then tripped over my own feet. luckily the coaches from the other team, this was during a game, came over to check on me. my preschooler ran and tripped and got hurt. i told his mom i sympathize.
i've been watching older version of degrassi. its very cute and showed the elegance of the time. i also love the newer ones. i love Adam, Drew Eli and Clare. i also loved when Michelle dumped milk all over her ex-boyfriend BLT. i love that nickname, BLT. his real name is Bryant Lester Thomas but goes by BLT.
i like Eli Goldsworthy. he's a good guy and i'm somewhat similar. he's into dark clothing and so am i. we both like black. he has something he rarely goes with out. so am i. i rarely do i happen to not have a cup of coffee and a book. i can do the "eli smile".
i have this one thrift store i like. i got so much for SO little. my family jokes about it but i like thrift stores. i got a bag, a book and a travel mug for a little over 3 bucks. i got a dress for under 5 bucks. its called upscale resale thrift store. i get a 25% off discount since i go to MC. awesome. i once got my brother 4 shirts for the price of 3.
Monday, October 20, 2014
halloween is coming up. you know what that means. yup, scary stuff. i'm looking for fake blood for my costume. this is going to be awesome. can fake blood be used for non-halloween stuff? oh yeah. for a diabulimic it can be. a diabulimic uses less insulin and therefore uses fake blood for false readings. i'm going to get it and then dump it all over myself. i'm going to need to decide how much i'm going to need though. also how many splashings of the fake blood i'm going to do.
everyone has a tolerance to pain. my former babysitter and friend (2 separate people) have a VERY low tolerance to pain. my aunt and i (ironically we are both called Jackie) have very high tolerance to pain. i have to pull back a bit since I'm diabetic. also since i have my wisdom teeth out i should be careful.
i like listening to Karen Carpenter. she suffered from Anorexia and unfortunately passed away from it. my favorite song is rainy days and Mondays. its very sad but a relate-able song. generally i like Mondays but rainy Mondays aren't so nice. that would mean i have to drag my sweats out and i don't like effort on rainy Mondays.
Thursday, October 16, 2014
we are becoming a nation accepting. today is spirit day. we are against bullying. when I was a junior in high school I was severely bullied. the thing is the bullies are looking to make their lives more interesting, they want to inflict pain on people or want power over people. my sophomore year in high school I decided to do the day of silence. after the bullying my junior year I decided to make an effort and take a stand against bullying. coming out is a big decision. I want to be there to help if and when I see an injustice. my family isn't against that. that was one of the only times my dad said he was proud of me. I told him I did the day of silence so he was proud of me for doing that.
I had laughing gas this morning since I was so anxious about the wisdom teeth surgery. everyone said I was going to be fine. my mom said I heard horror stories but I didn't I was just so flipping scared. this was the first tine since I was seriously scared.
Wednesday, October 15, 2014
when i was 15 years old i was telling the house cleaners i was going to have a coming of age soon. they asked if i had my quincenuera yet. i was like, no. I'm Chinese and white not Latina despite me looking like one. in the episode of wizards of Waverly place Alex had a quincenuera. she was very pink and puffy and looked like a princess. i hate looking like a princess. i was a princess for prom and Monday in the thrift store. mostly because I'm a tomboy partially. I love the awesome look of the coming of age thing since I had a sweet 16.
i watched a video trashing pumpkin spice latte. the guy said he'd rather drink a cable knit sweater latte. i hope he was joking. who doesn't like pumpkin in the fall? i know i do. who doesn't like pumpkin pie? i LOVE it. i got drowsy once and i was like, "where's my pie?"
Tuesday, October 14, 2014
when I was 15 I was injured. 6 days later I left the country and went to China. I loved being there. it's so different to America. they cleaned a garment for free, left us snacks, gave us a weather report, walked us to the bathrooms and were generally nice. my mom knew some of us were picky and wouldn't like the snacks and food so she packed us stuff. I liked my new purse. it was super cheap there. we had to use the bathrooms standing up. it as a little weird at first but fun. when I saw the toilets I was like, "OK I'll wait for the hotel." now I can use them if I must. its more sanitary that way. the shopping there is awesome. I got a purse, jewelry and tons of stuff. we could barter for the price. this one guy was like going lower and lower for the price. he saw me and said 3 for 1 yen. it was awesome but not the best. I was injured, on tons of pain killers and I missed my sophomore homecoming. oh well.
I'm not super popular but I'm well known. when I went back for last year I was so well known people could say, "there's Jackie." my best friend wasn't the most popular in HS. she wanted me to become a cheerleader so she could become slightly more popular. apparently I've got a face that could be the recognizable. I'm not saying I don't like it but it is very annoying. my friends were very interesting. many of them want me and Evan (my best friend) to date. he's a sweetie but he's very autistic.
I played allied softball. it's played in the gym. its so fun. when I ran to 1st base once I tripped and fell. I made it to first base but I was injured. the coaches from the other team came over to me to make sure I was fine. I was. they said I could've gone to 2nd but I couldn't do it since I tripped. my first season I got hit on the knee during one of the game. I came close but lost. I also remember throwing the bat a lot. I'm not the best in the world but I got better. I had everyone said I should go to the batting cages. I never went ironically. I was better. in the second season my friend got hit during the 1st team by our own member. we had the person who hit her try not throwing the bat. if the ball came too fast I would protect her.
my favorite series is the "In death series". it's written by none other than JD Robb. sometimes its written by Nora Roberts. I'm trying to read it but I get distracted. I'm very happy about the series since I'm into it. my favorite is "thankless in death". not sure why but I think the guy looks like Matt. not sure why.
I have had muscle spasms since I was very young. I don't collapse any more but I still seize. it freaks people out. but surprisingly enough the guy behind me at graduation said he'd catch me. my neighbor sad he wasn't sure if I'd collapse. surprisingly people are willing to help but not in the way I'd like them to. once this guy would hang onto my arm and I try getting him off. I was so embarrassed to ask for help that I shut everyone out. I cried I was so embarrassed. now I ask for help. i suffered with them for as long as i can remember. i've learned to control them partially. i can walk with them.
every girl should feel like a princess at least once in their life. yesterday when I found a red velvet dress and walked out of the dressing room I felt like one. I'm not really into the whole "princess" thing. I'm a tomboy. I like the shorts and pants. I wore something I got from a thrift store and it was awesome. someone looked like they'd say, "aw are you and your boyfriend going to homecoming together in that dress?" someone was like I'm glad you found a dress for 4.5 dollars. so am I. Alex was like, "pink and puffy. really pink and puffy" in quincenuera. she doesn't like being a princess.
I got into the series back in the spring semester. I decided to get something I can listen to while riding in the dark. not that reading isn't good I can't read without light. they are scary versions of fairy tales, which if you know this blogger I like. I'm always falling asleep to forensic science stuff. like Suga Mama from the proud family when she falls asleep and someone turns the TV off or changes the channel she'll say, "I was watching that."
I've listened to books on tape but I like playaways better. they are like books on tape but in iPod form. that's much better and more convenient for people who have small children and are at parks or the beach or whatever and they are running around. I like these better so you can listen to them when your running, walking around, whatever. the books I like on playaways are: the brothers Grimm or Romiette and Julio. also this book called missing you from the 1-800- where are you series.
I love watching degrassi and their PSAs. one comes very close to home since one of my friends had been afraid of sexual assault and came close to suicide. Campbell Saunders and Zoe Rivas are 2 people who had been involved in those very situations. I know they are struggling to cope with what happened and people struggled with the aftermath of what happened. people need to know these are real life situations. I'm glad degrassi did these.
Monday, October 13, 2014
most of us know the famous chocolate. Hershey. back in the spring my family went to Hershey park and stayed in the Hershey lodge. well I got chocolate lip balm, Twizzlers, conditioner and lotion. I put the lotion in my hair to help it grow a little. I've loved going to Hershey since I was a little kid. unfortunately, we have had to cut back on some things since my parents are both going through a hard time. anyways my 1st roller coaster was at Hershey park. I was always a chicken when it cane to heights so when I went on my 1st roller coaster my mom was like, "that one?" or "that one?" I'm like no the ferinhieght.
over the summer I found an amazing thing called yoga. I'm not stupid. I've tried yoga before but over the summer I really got into it because my mom can't afford physical therapy for my back. I own yoga pants but I've never done a yoga class before. I love it. my brothers mock me doing things but they don't know I love it. generally on yoga days I'll have a scarf or a sweatshirt, a hoodie whatever in case I get cold during the meditation.
senior year was fun. I had my name said a lot on the morning announcements, people knew my name and face, my friends were excited for college and people kept putting me thru the third degree. none of that is bad but it got annoying real fast. people kept saying, "oh I heard your name on the morning announcements." I'd usually hear that 2x maybe 3 on the day it was happening. people kept saying my last name wrong and then people knew who it was. than came the questions. my friends kept asking me about my questions about my post HS plans. like a broken record it seemed. it was, "where are you going to school after HS? what are you doing after high school? what do you plan on majoring in? what about after college?" I don't want to say I hated it but it was annoying. certainly, it was annoying. no way am I going to be able to not have my friends and classmates say what they wanted but annoying. I got a Collin creevy to my harry potter. if none of you guys get the reference its someone who looks up to me no matter what. they always say hi whenever they see me. say they are going to miss me when I leave. blah blah blah. she was nice but ugh I get it, hi.
because my hair is so long its hard for me not to keep it in a bun or braids or a ponytail. I hate leaving my hair down my back because it gets in my face and I can't see sometimes. I'm not a good person to keep hair down my back. I love long hair but my hair isn't bad. I beg my mom to let me cut my hair. I'm not saying having long hair is a bad thing its just the maintenance. I'm more of a roll outta bed hairstyle person.
I'm a huge harry potter freak. give me something harry potter and I'll read it immediately. Snape's monologue when he's talking to Harry for the 1st time I can answer almost all the questions. I know almost all harry potter trivia, some spells, robes and everything harry potter.
I'm going to a community college but I'm living on what other kids are eating. I love ramen and coffee. I'm one who doesn't often complain or say, "no I don't like this." my mom likes giving me care packages. she'll give me beauty products. sometimes she'll give me food. anyways ramen is tasty. but I'm eating tons of it. like gallons of it. I can eat it all the time. often I'll double it up to sort of get extra nutrition. mostly to get extra protein and extra liquid in my system because my mom wants me to have extra protein to cut my hunger. the liquid is also to get more bulk in my stomach. I heard soups are good for people because it'll help to loose weight and keep the weight off.
scoliosis is a back condition I suffer with. I have uneven feet, shoulders, legs, arms and ribs. I went to a chiropractor and was able to "correct" or "fix" my ribcage and points north. I still have uneven feet, legs and hips. I always will. I'll also always have a lump in my shoulder. another thing is I'm very small because of my back. I'm not going to grow past 5'3.5" ever. my mom without her scoliosis (she has it and that's why I have it) would be 5'11" and I'd be 5'8" at least. I did a project on scoliosis because of my knowledge of it. I also happened to try showing off my frame. whenever I'm sitting in 1 position for too long or something uncomfortable I'll get massive back pain. with my skeleton as messed up as it is I can't be comfy for a while but its going to be happy then I'll be sore if it gets hurt.
I started my career as a varsity athlete with bocce ball. its a mix of bowling and crochet. I was able to teach my kids how to play, it was that easy. my senior year I was "captain" so much the officials started placing the palina (the target ball) in my hand. my favorite team to play against would be...... Clarksburg or Watkins Mill. I'm sorry but that's who I like playing against. my best friends former HS was rivals with Watkins mill so... akward
i used to dye my hair and it became blonde. i wasn't unattractive since it was a contrast. its nice to have people commenting on a contrasting thing. my hair is black and when my hair was blonde streaked it was nice. my hair was often spray dyed. once after i tried dying it again but i thought didn't come out right. i spray on some color to hide the evidence. people could tell i dyed it again. when i re cut it into a shag hair cut the blonde was on the edge but it was gone. i never redyed it.
i'm addicted to 2 truths and a lie where the person says 2 things that are true about themselves and 1 thing that's a lie. it is an excellent ice breaker for me since i have trouble with that. i'll have obvious ones but i'll try tricking people by throwing something that CAN be true but isn't. i just posted it but i'm sure its semi-obvious what the "lie" is
Eclare is the relationship between Eli and Clare. the latest time Eclare broke up was in Sparks will fly part 1, when Care called Eli and broke up over voicemail. my mom says that's pretty chicken. my friend had to use the phone as a last resort to break up with her Ex. the principal was like "can you do that? can you do that to someone? over voice mail" that IS pretty chicken.
Northwest high school is a very open, accepting, inclusive and educated school. i said, I can't do the play and some kids from the robotics club said, oh if you can't do the play than help the stage crew. I'm not sure why they are that way. i say i tried out for the play the rest of my class goes nuts asking if i got the part. Anhar explains why that is. Northwest accepts people for who they are. I said i have diabetes and people were either educated with this disease or they educated themselves in order to help. even though the allied/ corollary program started in the spring of 2011 everyone came out to support me and Evan. it was awesome. when i came up to bat once everyone was cheering for just me. i was embarrassed but did it.
i love the science center. its so much fun and a very intresting building to be in. my friend commented that it looked like a dorm. i told her once i can't cry in the science building, its too cool a building. it IS a very cool building. its got a lounge, dorm style stuff and is just a nice building. it has a room called the skeleton closet that has skeletons for biology
my brother's friend George is a nice kid. OK so on Friday i run into him at the football game and Evan thought he was my brother. I'm like, No Hunter is over there and Michael is wearing a jersey." Evan was like "is he your neighbor you want to introduce me to?" I'm like "No Matt is about a foot taller than me". for some reason George looked darker. I'm not sure why. George and i talked college. he was nice
my friend and neighbor Matt was in the band last fall. Matt told my brother that he (Matt) was in the band. i was at football game last friday and saw him. i was shocked because Hunter would've know (i hoped). they did an amazing job last year doing sleepy hollow. my friend liked that video.
i've gotten most of the stuff now just need a couple new things. as you can see from my earlier posts i LOVE halloween and i'm going as Carrie. many people haven't seen that in years. i've got heels and crown as well as a red dress. all i need now is fake blood and a fake corsage. i'm very excited since htre dress i got is RED and velvet. i can't wait to wear it. i gotta grow my hair out a lot since i'm wearing a bun on the top of my head.
to have my mom's support in the fact i'm in the people's alliance at MC is the best. my dad is totally for me to do that. my mom asked what its about and i just said its a safe space and we can do whatever we want to in the group. i even told her on saturday it was "national coming out day." I say its a safe space since most people who come should come with an open mind. they can be whoever they want to be. they joked you can be a gopher. my mom suprisingly happened to be very intrested what the people's alliance was for. i explained its also for their straight allies.
the last 2 essays i've written in english class have been about criminal justice system and the law. this is nice since i'm into that stuff. i told my teacher so. i can't believe i can do that. i've read a ton of that stuff but never thought i can write about it. this is awesome. i've taken a criminal justice class and read books as well as watched some stuff on the subject. it's one of my favorite class so far.
i hate people acting like gentlemen. i don't mind if my hands are full and i need a hand opening the door. that's fine. everyone needs that. but like giving up your seat, carrying things, opening doors, whatever. i hate that since i wasn't brought up that way. i don't mind being called, "lady" since my former HS grade level administrator used to call me that. i also don't mind the door opening thing since everyone sometimes needs that. carrying things, if i can pick them up and carry them myself i will. my friend does this behavior a lot. like Friday i said i was going to talk to someone and my friend said he was going back in line for snacks. i was oh i can take my stuff then. he said no i can. i said, um OK. i took my stuff back eventually.
i don't mind being offered a seat if i'm tired but on a regular basis (like if i'm not tired or hurt) i don't want all that. i'm find standing. one of my friends is religous and says girls should sit first. i say: age and disability then gender. he agreed. one kid offered me a seat when i injured my leg and another few times when i was tired guys gave me their seat. another time i was tired and a kid gave me the seat. i was like, Nah later maybe. its not the way i was brought up though. i have 3 brothers and it was defend your territory rather than girls first. my friend i went to prom was nervous to sit down next to me. i was all, "do you wanna sit next to me or something?" my dad thought that was stange. as did i. my religous friend said girls no matter where should ask their guy to sit. weird but hey, if that's your thinking go for it.
i like this song since it can have the life lessons behind it. my best friend and her brother hate each other. i reccomended she listen to it since i think it sounds exactly like her and her brother's fighting. my brothers and i don't like each other (we and be at odds with each other) but when it comes down to it we love each other. exactly like Tristin and Owen on degrassi. we might be at odds with each other but we love each other. i don't think i'm like my friend and her brother. They hate each other. he tries wrecking her diet. my brothers likes to try some of the foods i like and stuck to me when my family and i went to Sally Cotter (my HS's version of harry potter). he also wanted to follow me around and asked me about college life. Owen was worried about Tristan being missing and his (tristan's) heart attack.
i love pokemon. my brothers and i went thru that phase when we were younger. i like listening to it since it's instrumental music and won't distract me when i'm working on stuff. i like listening to instrumental music when i'm studying since it can help me and not get me distracted by lyrics. its very nice to listen to that since i hate the quiet when i'm working. my family friend is in the high schools band and plays nice instrumental music. here's the link to it: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UkMfBgWi60M
Sunday, October 12, 2014
many people like vegetarian food. me as well. my brother likes salads, mom likes vegetarian pizza and I love all types of vegetarian foods (burgers, pizzas, salads, pastas). I was a vegetarian for a week but ate meat again. I'm not saying I can't go back but I prefer eating meat but low fat meat. Mia Thermopolis in the princess diaries is a vegetarian. a character on a TV show is a vegetarian. several people are. my friend is so picky she'd just have the vegetarian options.
not sure why black and red go together so nicely. but for some reason when I wear red I look awesome (I have black hair). my mom said I should wear black and red for prom with my best friend Evan. I had reddish lipstick and looked nice. my mom got me a red tank top since "red is your color". junior year was my best year since that color is red and I have tons of red stuff.
I crimp my hair as a way to "teach it a lesson". I'm not big on doing my hair in the morning. I roll outta bed do my meter and go about my day. I also only do my hair crimped is because I'm doing something with my hair when I sleep. I brush it anyways afterward so why not put it into 2 pigtails or crimp it? I'm growing my hair out for a Halloween costume. this helps me do something with my hair on they way of it growing.
we all have contradictions in our lives. sometimes the contradictions can cost us our lives. my brother lets me do things such as having long hair and nails as I'm a girl and my brothers don't have that luxury. my brothers on the other hand can do many more dangerous activities that I can't since I have a bad back
I'm going as Carrie for Halloween. I'm growing my hair as long as I can in order to prepare for this. my hair IS pretty long to begin with. I'm normally into scary stuff to begin with. I think I'll fit right in with Carrie. it might not be the same since I have black hair and Carrie has blonde but I can do it. I need a cheap prom dress, fake flower, fake blood and a sash. I already have makeup, heels and a tiara for Halloween. my mom thinks its fun if I make my own costume. better than a 35 dollar costume likely to rip or for me never to wear again.
everyone has selfies. I myself have a few. I only took 1 after my friends graduation. I went thru a ton to get that perfect shot. I did my hair, nails, skin up to par. anyways I mentioned I was going to homecoming and had my mother take a few pictures before it. like I said, I'm not a big selfies fan. there's a song that has the words first Lemmie take a selfie.
I've never really gotten into the walking dead but I've seen the behind the scenes videos. one person who I wanted to see die is Sophia. I've seen her death scene. she was there and I've been able to see her die. she is an amazing actor. she didn't go to zombie school. she had a huge bite wound on her shoulder and a prostatic to make it seem like her eyes were sunken in. she kick their heads and went slow since that's what a zombie would do.
I'm getting my wisdom teeth come out. I'm so scared. I'm not normally nervous about surgery. I have so many scars its not even funny. everyone says I'll be fine. I sure hope so. I had surgery when I was 10 or 11 years old. I had my tongue untied. I was really young. I couldn't talk for the rest of the week. my tongue is fine but since I haven't oral surgery in 8 or 9 years I'm scared.
Saturday, October 11, 2014
as most know tonight is my old high schools homecoming. what most don't is my foot is scraped up. I can walk on it but it is SO scarred. my foot healed for the most part but the scars aren't going away for a while. my foot is healing a lot quicker than usual. i can walk on it and my foot doesn't look as bad as when i scraped it.
Happy national coming out day. I heard there's something down in DC about coming out today. I'm supportive about coming out since I had diabetes and I was outed since I was sick. I'm glad people at my old high school were so accepting.
isn't there that 1 friend you can act like dumb and dumber around each other? mine is my SBFF (sister best friend) Emily. I once saw an episode of deadly women that the narrator said a pair of friends "were like dumb and dumber those 2". Emily and I are like Dumb and Dumber.
Friday, October 10, 2014
my earring I'm currently wearing is a skeleton one. (skull and crossbones with a skeleton hand ear cuff) I am addicted to scary stuff. I can read something until late and not even loose sleep over it. it looks like a cochlear implant would look like but a cochlear implant is from the ear to the head not the piercing to the ear. it looks awesome.
I'm not sure how I did that but I can throw my voice. I accidentally learned how to do it. I've only done it a few times in my life. the thing is I'm not consciously doing it. meaning I'm trying to get someone's attention and accidentally make it seem like I'm elsewhere. I only remember doing it 3 times, as far as I can remember. once when I 1st did it, once junior year at my 1st allied softball game and once tonight. not sure how I did it but I can. i'm not sure why my neighbor wasn't able to know where i was even when i said, "turn around." either he had 0 clue i was there or he's a bigger idiot than i origanally thought.
just to set the record I'm NOT dating my best friend. everyone has faith that he and I'll end up together. we are friends. he's the autistic one but its not cool how people just assume he and I'll end up together. I'm so sad and upset. anyways, its just an occupational hazard of hanging out with him and people seeing us together. I say I'm going with him and my step-father thinks its a date. like bite me. than my step-dad says he and I are going on a date. I'm like no we are just hang out at a football game together. why am I going on a date with him? he and I are just friends. I like him and I want to be more than friends but it's not fair since Evan has autism.
I love that old Disney song. I should've sung it when I had to touch up my make-up while I'm in Mrs. Hinman's room and freshman were watching me. I wasn't normally covered in that crud but hey, why not. classic and classy, we're not talking lassie. exactly georgette.
this year the football team is on fire. we are 6-0. that is insane. do I hear states calling our name again? we've beaten every school by 40+ points. I'm glad to have a school championship twice since I graduated. my best friend's brother was in high school when they went to states prior to 2014. good job NWHS
I loved team handball. it functioned like a family. I'm very fortunate to have had that did that. even to the point of me being guilty about missing a cancelled practice. I'm not sorry for using the team for guinea pigs. I used them for my sociology experiments. once I was tying my shoe and the team was doing pull ups. they said, "Jackie your turn." we had team lunches, we had some kids ask my post HS plans we are so close.
Thursday, October 9, 2014
I have 3 younger full brothers. they all love me. there is Hunter (2.5 years younger than me), Michael, (5 years) and Bobby (8 years). problem is that 2 of them like forensic science shows. the youngest (Bobby) is only 11. I left a forensic science show on and Bobby was watching it. I was a terrible sister for doing that. it wasn't like Saw or PG-13. Hunter also likes forensic science. as does his girlfriend. I love them dearly but I wish they'd butt outta my life. I'm glad they care but no they have to interfere. when I found forensic science and the allied sports I was like "yes this is something I can do solo." but no my mom, dad, step-dad and babysitter got involved (typical) but the boys (what my family calls my brothers) got into it as well. I was like "NOOOOOOOOOO" because that was something I thought was MY thing.
I've gotten attached to spray on hair dyes. they temporarily change your hair color. I used spray on to cover up what I considered a "bad dye job". I did the dye job at home but it came out wrong. I usually use red since its one of the only colors that show up. although a blue paste will work pretty well. junior year I had several colors in my hair for pep rallies
some people who are in the LGBT should have safe spaces and should have club meeting on holidays like thanksgiving, Christmas and Hanukkah. sometimes the person might not be out to their families or they might not have such a great relationship with them if they ARE out to them. its ok to have a great relationship with people
all of us have colors we can pull of. I can pull off wild colors. although the best color on me is red. I love the color. although I prefer purple. I've loved purple for as long as I can remember. red looks amazing in my black hair since I'm half Chinese and that's their national color. although a red-rose color is awesome on me. I have this dress I liked. it was black on the top and the skirt was green and it was puffy and poufy and girly and stuff. my mom said my dress needed to be sporty since it was going to be my prom dress and graduation dress. great. I can't wear my homecoming dress? anyways I get a black one which is nice but I felt uncomfortable in it at graduation. at graduation I'm not sure why I didn't do this but at my graduation if I was going in that dress I should've gothic out and worn my black arm warmers, worn dark makeup whatever.
you become a teenager and you start defying your parents more and more. not saying you don't love your parents but you are making decisions about your life. I've had my share of bad decisions suggested to me via my parents. I love you guys but I'm old enough to make my decisions. one of my parents (I won't say which) suggested I walk around after I got "beautified for prom". no problem except that was the 1st time and I got scared. I still did it but it wasn't my cup of tea. that same parent wanted me to do something semi-embarrassing (asking an acquaintance to my junior prom). they also are having my younger brother to go to homecoming. embarrassing.
I've always been very into the LGBT community. so is Archie Simpson. we both accept it and would take a couple minutes to take it in. it's a shocking thing but we both accept it. http://degrassi.wikia.com/wiki/Adam_Torres http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/My_Body_Is_a_Cage https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=COrVstGS_0M Adam has amazing friends who accepts who he is and begs his mother to see him as Adam and "to put Gracie to rest."
despite me having diabetes I still like candy. regular and sugar free. my favorite is anything chocolate and possibly skittles as well. I like hard candies and these candies my step-dad has called sixlets. they are little candies you can put 2 to 3 in your mouth and still have room left to spare. a handful would be like 3 to 5 packs.
there is a room full of skeletons that the MC campus has named "skeleton closet". that would be awesome if it was actually a closet full of skeletons. I posted about it on social media and someone was like a real closet of skeletons but no its a room of skeletons. that would be awesome if its a CLOSET since the idiom is skeletons in my closet. too bad but the campus called it skeleton closet